NANO 2008 Chapter 4

Forgetting
Tueday, September 26, at night.
In one and a half days so much can happen. Ok first off yesterday.
Yesterday as normal I waited for prince to meet me by the tree. I waited, and waited. Anna had went and left with trevor already. So it ws just me. I almost went back to my dorm when he appeared. I was like “ where the hack were u I have been waiting for ages. I thought we were going to talk about trevor and Kory. They left already just to tell u.” And then he was all like, “I actually do not think they need any push. They are progressing their relationship nicely with out us.” I replied, “I guess that is true. Fine we will not interfere. But what shal we do today. Cause we are already here” and the next thing that happened almost put me in trauma (not literally, it was just too shocking). He said, “well. . . ” then some one called his name. “WANG ZI!!!!” this asian girl ran out of no where calling prince by his Chinese name and literally jumped onto him. Prince looked not at all surprised. He looked more annoyed. He kinda pried her off him and said gently, “ Angelina meet my friend Lilly.” The girl named Angelina kind of stared me uo and down. She looked at me with disgust. Then I asked prince, “who is she?” and prince was about to reply but then Angelina butted right in, “oh he is MY botfriend.” She started to wrap her arms around him, but prince shook her off. “stop” he said then he turned to me. “ I tried to come earlier but I got caught up with her” and he ionted to Angelina.
Everyone calls her Angelina, or angy for short. Her rea name is fang hua chung. she had long straight hair, straighter than mine and mine is really straight. In her hair there were blonde strazks that looked so good that I wanted to pul them right off her head. She was asian as well. Her boobs were bigger too. Drove me mad. She wore a short mini skirt and a tight blouse. She looked so cold but then she was able to cuddle with prince for a reason. Arg.
so I met her and she met me. And then she did something I hated. She wraped her arms around prince ( or tried because prince shook her off again) and said, “hey baby, I have to do some stuff at home. Can you come with me?” and she made this really annoying puppy dog face. Well probalby only annoying to me. And prince replied quite surprisingly since he was her “boy friend”. He said frustratingly it sounded, “fine. but I have to stay with Lilly for a bit we have to talk about something.” So she left looking sad and glanced over her sholder and scowled at me. Why is it everyone hates me.
So prince started talking to me again, which snapped me back from looking at Angelina. “sorry about that. So yeah she is my girl friend” he made a annoyed face at that said but I did not ask him about it. I was sad at that point. I was like, in my head obviously, no why does he have to have a girl friend. He should not be having one. I should be his. I like starred at him and turned around and started to walk away, parly because if he said anything or I did I was afraid I might cry. So I yelled behind me “ I got to go. I will talk to you later.” And I started torun. Ayron, yes I called him Ayron inmy journal can not bring my self to call him prince anymore. For he is some one elses. He called to me “wait! Lilly!” but I could not hear anything after that, I was too far away. I ran into my dorm and started to cyry. Everyone except tatiana was aorried about me but I did not say anything about what had happened.
So yeah. . .
today was such a bad day. And it was al because of Ayron. *sigh*  it sucks. He and his girl friend angy has taken over my mind. All the thoughts about him are being slowy eaten away by the thought of Angelina. Whaaaahh! I want to be the one dating him. So unfair. In skating I could not do anything I was like in my own world. I did not hera anything said to me. I could not land a single jump and could not get any sense of balance doing my spins and when doing my field moves I kept falling over. Sooner of later some told me to get off the ice. Ny coach, soo min was so disappointed in me. She told me to get some rest and clear my mind of whats distracting it from good coaching. She told me not to go back on the ice till I was all sorted out. I thought that was harsh but now that I think of it I see the reason behind it. In classes I did not hear a single word my teachers said. In geograohy class my teacher called onme for a question and I did not hear and so I got sent to the office. You could just say I had a really bad day.
Now after school. . . Ayron showed up. . . with Angelina. I got all sad again when I saw them. I did not talk to them at all. Ayron could tell I was not my usual self cause I am ALWAYS talking. So I did not talk to them. Ayron tried to talk to me but I would not respond. I just could not just stand there and whatch them. So I left and went back to my tree. We had been haging out in the park nearby. So I went back to my tree. I was just about to writein my journal when Ayron appears out of nowhere. I though he was with Angelina. Or at least stay with her. But apparently he noticed that I was gone he said to Angelina that he was going to look for me. I wonder what was up tih that. So I ended up talking some more with Ayron , but then Angelina came and pulled him away. I think she was wondering why he ditched her for me. Because that swhat I was thinking a about. When they were talking I walked away casue I could not stand being near them and seeing them together, they seem like such acouple when they were talking. When I got back to the dorm I did not go in I went back outside and looked to see if they had went. Surprisingly Ayron was still there Angelina had left and he was waiting there. Was he looking for me?
Wow. its almost 1 in the morning I can not believe I have been writing this long. I am so sleepy now that I stopped writing. Well I better go to bed. I got class tomorrow. I ebt I still will not be able to concentrate becaue of what happened today. Well *yawn* I better *yawn* go to bed *yawn*. Good night.


Wednesday, September 27. Dorm, before dinner.
Well I refused to go to the tee today cause I could not bear seeing him. Today was exactly the same as yesterday. Now even my teachers are saying do not come to class till my thoughts are sorted out. So I have to sort them out. So I think I might go to the rink. I find it very comforting in the rink.
So I will take a trip to the rink. Be back soon.

Wednesday, September, 27, ice rink. Before dinner still
So now I am in the ice rink. I have to sort out my thoughts. Thats also why I did not go to my tree cause I know Ayron Is probably there. And I just can not deal with anymore strange behaviour. Ok so here goes for my organizing of my thoughts (in point form)
• Tatiana mess of emotions
• Tatiana hates me for some reason
• Tatiana will not accept my help what so ever
• Ayron hot asian guy
• Ayron=wang zi=prince
• Ayron has girlfriend
• Ayron girlfriend Angelina
• Anglelina=fang hua
• Ayron ditch Angelina for me
• Angelina mad?
• Ayrons liek me???????
• I have no clue what Ayron is thinking
• Me and Angelina do not get along
• Skating land double lutz
• Working on double axle
• Soo min is my coach
• Classes okay
• 83.3 average
• Past two days can not concentrate on anything cause brain is filled with junk about Ayron and Angelina
• have not seen mr. blank in a while.
• Mr. Blank’s daughter??
• Know her??
• Kory and Brendan
• Calvin haunting Kory
• Calvin coming back?
• ME AND AYRON????????????????????
There that is my list. Sucks huh. None of it makes much sense.
Oh, Dinner is done. I got to go eat. Talk to you later, bye bye.


Friday, September 29, in dorm, after dinner
I have not been seeing Ayron for the last 2 days. If I see him I will be confused even more because his actions the last time I saw him were so confusing. Also I would be sad because I hear Angelina has been following him everywhere and I can not stand them being together. I do not think I get him anymore. Any way. . . since I have not been seeing him I have regained some of my concentrartion. I can land my jumps almost all the time. Bit less than when I have all my concentration. And my school is going good. I am actually paying attention mow. And I answer the questions. I do zone out a bit but not for long. Like maybe 5 min or so. So all in all everything has been pretty steady.
Tatiana and I are still avoiding each other. And we have not talked since THAT night. I really do want to be friends with her though. I still do not get why she is so mean to me. I guess I will have to wait till she opens up to me.
So yeah . . . I have not seen mr. Blank in a while. I see him usually hanging around the rinks when ever I go to practice. And I say hi to him. But for like the past week I have not seen him. I wonder whats up with him. I should go find out. I think I will ask the coaches tomorrow. Cause all the coachs know who mr. Blank is. Hey and maybe the coaches know who his daughter is. Maybe if I can find his daughter I can find him. I shall ask tomorrow for sure.
Now . . . Kory has been seeing Brendan every single day now. And when ever she comes back she always talks to me about him for like an hour straight. I think they really do llike each other now. I wonder if they have told each other yet. I think I will ask Kory tonight. She should be comeing back soon. So I will write again when she comes back and finishes talking. For now I think I will practice some stretchs cause Ayron is starting to come back into my thoughts. Bye talk to you later


Friday, September, 29, after Kory has come and gone, in dorm.
So I asjed her and she turned a shade of red that was so red that a over ripe tomto could not beat her. So I got why answer from the look on her fac, it was a no. I asked her if she had noticed if he like her or not. And she said that she thought she did but did not want to be the person to ask. She wanted him to ask her on a date. So she was waiting. And in my head he was probably saying either that she did not like him or he was waiting for her. But ass she was talking I kept thinking of Ayron. I tried to shake the thoughts away but I just could not. I think I have really fallen in love with Ayron. Ohhhh. Why did I have to fall in love with the guy everyonr likes. Yeah I have heard that he is the most popular guy in his school. Everyone says that he is a guiness, he gets perfect on every single test! And I hear that everyone wants to be his girl friend, so when he finaly said yes to Angelina everyone was shocked because he had never ever ever gone out with a girl at school. They say that Angelina had loved him for 6 years before he said yes to be her girlfriend. And me, he has onky known for a month. Maybe in reality he does not like Angelina. But if he does not like her why would I think he likes me. *sigh* I just know that he does not like me. he probably only thinks of me as a friend when I think about him as sooo much more. Why oh why is it him that I like. *sigh*
Arg so now I will oly think of him as a friend. Well. . . i will try to. Probably not going to work. Like even noe I am thinking of him. Arg why is he so hard to forget. I think I will sleep on it. Arg I bet even when I sleep I will think of him. Ok. . . from now on I will avoid hm at all costs. And I will never go to that tree again because, most likely he is waiting for me there. At least that is what anna has been saying. Ok I will og to bed now. I have to put my whole heart, soul, body etc etc etc into not seeing him and not thinking about him. So. . . god noght. Bye.



thursday October 5, in class
I have been spending the ast few days trying not to think about Ayron. But it seems like one way or another he comes creeping back into my thoughts. Like I will be talking to someone and something they say or do would either relate to or remind me of him. And then the rest of the day I would be I a kind of limboish mood. Like today for example. I was talking to anna and then she said something about the tree and I completly forgot about what she was talking about and I thought about the tree and I wondered if Ayron was waiting for me there and my mind was like in its own little world. I was kind of in a funny mood after and everyone could tell. I htink they have already figured out that when ever I am like that it is about Ayron. Also on top of that thinga between Kory and bredan are not going very well. I htink it might have something to do with me and Ayron. Oh why does everything relate to me and him. I figured this out because Kory started making up lame excuses like she was tired or felt sick or that she forgot when I asked her why she does not come to my dorm and talk about her dates. And she has not been seeing him the past few days. It is so wierd that when everything was good it was really good but now that everything is bad evvverythin gis bad. Like I can not land my doubllle lutz anymore. Like why could I not have at least one good thing to keep.
I have decided to go back to the tree today. I have been there in like two weeks. Even if Ayron is there I will ignore him. I plan to bring my music and listen to it to drown him out. Wait I will not even notice if he is there because I will just go to the tree and sit ans read or something. And I WILL ignore him. Yeah that is right I am going to do this. . . . . . . . . . *sigh* h man, if I see Ayron with agelina because I already know I wil not be able to not notice him. I will probably end up running back to the dorm. I just can not face him with her there. On second thought I do not think I will go to the tree. I am all sad know that I think about him and agelina together. Well class is almost over. Should I go should I not go should I go shloud I not go. I think I will not go cause I will be more sad. Any way class is over now. Bye.



Friday October 6, after classes, in dorm
After writing what I did yesterday I do kind of want to see him but kind of not. Well inactuallity I want to know if he has been waiting for me to come back and if he misses me or not. Ok fine I want to know if he likes me or not. But I think if he liked me enough he would dump Angelina and come find me in my dorm or something. He would like ask anna which dorm I am in and come and find me and say he loves me. but as you know that has not happened and I have been avoiding him for like 2 weeks already. I think I will give up on him. I did see some other guy in the cafe today. I believe I have seen him before but I never noticed becaue I was only thinking of Ayron befor. He ooks nice. He smiled at me when when passed. Maybe I can find out his name and hang around him. It would probably take my mind off Ayron. Yes that is exactly what I will do I will go find this other guy and he will be able to make me forget about Ayron. Oh but that so mean. I am only using him to firget Ayron. And then what happens if he falls in love with me and I will not like him in the same way. He would be heartbroken. Arg I am going to stop thinking about this.
After all that has happened I think Tatiana is finally warming up to me in the tiniest bit. Like whenever I am sad she wont make fun of me and taunt me. maybe because she knows how I feel. Maybe she has gone through the same thing I have. Maybe I have been to niave and have not thought about the things she might have been through. *sigh* now that I think about it I have been quite mean to her. . . . . . . oh snap I am late for skating practise. I got ot go. Byr.
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As Lilly rushes to her practice she does not notice the pair of guys she nearly crashed into while running. The first guy that she had almost collided into was a guy that had been wanting to see her for the last month. He was her past crush. Her past crush Cole Kenning. With him you would have never guessed. With him there stood James Hensworth. The guy that had liked her for the longest time.
Over the last month things had changed. Cole now liked this other girl from school. Her name was Tatiana. Tatiana Walker. They had met when Cole was at his home school for registration and Tatiana was suppose to go there for the arts program before she had been accepted into the skating school. They had literally bumped into each other. When he bumped into her he was with a bunch of friends so he turned his head to apologise. That is when their gazes met. He had been captured by her, and she had fallen in love with him at first sight. He ditched his friends and continued to talk to her, and she separted from her mother. They talked all day and they knew they just had to be together. Since then they had been trying to find a way for him to get to Dastern. Finally he was able to get there. Out of luck or fate, his dad was work was transferred over. When James told everyone Cole wanted to come and so he did. His parents were fine with it and James was pretty cool about having a friend come with him. So James and his family with Cole moved up to Dastern.
Things had changed with Cole too. As soon as Lilly had left Caldestien he wanted to change. Before he was a scrony skater boy. Now he was a full out punk skater. He changed his whole image. His hair now curved around his hat, instead of flipping out at crazy angles. He also was not all legs anymore. He had muscles. All in all he was your typical hot skater boy. Since he had changed many girls had been wanting to be his girlfriend, but he had turned them all down. In his heart there was only one girl, that girl was Lilly.