Side Story: Spaghetti Monster
As I was waking up ithought, ah what a wonderful morning. It was such a beautiful day, the sun was shining, the sjy was a clear blue, and some clouds were scattered across the skies. I could hear the morning nirds chirping and the morning breeze drifted through my open window. What a wonder ful day, I was thinking whne I realised it was that day. The day of the destruction of man, the day the devils runs me over, the day I am cursed. Yes today was Thursday. It was band. I groaned out loud, as though I controlled the weather, when I looked out side al I could see was gloomy skies, cloudy weather, and waht looked to be approaching rain clouds. All because of band.
So I dragged my self to get ready for school. Those kids, I thought, they always find a way to get on my nerves, penguins, flying books, prolonged abseneces. And one of my best students are absent. She the only one who keeps me sane. I sghed again and headed to the bathroom.
I got out of the bathroom all clean and washed. My hair smelled nice, and I had used my favourite soap, but nothing could cheer me up. All I could think about was what was waiting for me at school. I got dressed. Today I wore a pair of black dress pants, like usual, and a green stripy shirt, vertical stripes of course, horizontal stripes make me look fat. I grabbed a coat and headed downstairs to get some breakfast.
My wife was waiting for me downstairs which was most likely going to be best part of my day. She had made ham and chiken omlet, she had squirted a heart onto my omlet like I always like and a mug of coffee was steaming hot beside my plate. I went over and lightly kissed her and then sat down to eat.
As I was eating I bit something and heard a crunch. I spit out was was in my mouth onto a napkin. Red bood and a tooth among half chewed and mushed up egg. I then felt the pain in my mouth.
“mmmy fooff fuf fel ouw,” I said though I sounded like an idiot. What I was trying to say was that my tooth just fell out. My wife looked at me funny then saw the blood and ran upstairs. She was no help, hs ehas a weak stomach so I guess she could not handle the sight.
My mouth was relaly in pain now. I went over to the sink and filled a glass with cold water. I started to rinse my mouth. All the water turned redish. So much blood from just one tooth. I figured I should just go to the dentist and get it checked out. It dawned on me that I would get to put off on seeing those brats.
I got ht ephone and calledmy dentist. The response I go tfrom the secretary shocked me. My dentist was on vacation and all appointments for him were scheduled to another dentist. I sighed for the fourth time today and just agreed to have the other dentist see me. I was told ot come in at 9, so I had a bit of time to spare befor ei had to go. Now that my tooth had just came out I could not eat my omlet amymore, but looking at my omlet made me wonder jus what had casued my tooth to fall out. I broke open my omelette and found some hard grey things. What were they I had no clue, and I did not really want to find out so I left it as that. When the dentist would ask how it happened ill just say that I tripped on the stairs.
I went over to get my caot and as I picked it up I heard a rip. I
I went and got my caot from the chair I had placed it on and headed out the door. I yelled ot my wife I was leaving and she yelled back have a nice day. I wonder when she would go back downstairs because I left quite a bit of blood in the sink. I ha dalso stuffed some tissues in my mouth to help stop the bleeding. It was not working very well. The tissues were getting soaked up just as it would it you ran water over it. So much blood loss, will I even live. Was what I was thinking as I changed the tissues again.
I drove over to the dentist office and walked in. I then remembered that I had to call in late. I reached down to my coat pocket and found no phone. Where is my cell. I reached my hand farther into my pocket and my hand went straight through. A HOLE!!! I groaned and sat in a plop on the nearest chair. First my tooth then my phone, and I still had band to put up with.
As I was sitting in despair the secretary called my over.
“Mr. Clastivolviotoni,” the secretary tired to say but messed up like everyone does. “right this way, Dr, Hedwick will see you shortly.
I followed her to a small room downa hallway and to the right of the desk. Room 112. I sat on the dentist chair and looked around. The window still showed no signs of happieness or tranquility. What a sucky day.
I was dwelling on the fact that my life sucked when dr. Hedwick walked in. It was a lady. My dentist had always been a man so having a lady for a dentist was a surprise.
Dr. Hedwick was a newer recruit to the office. Still some what young but had a glint of curiousness in her eyes. She wanted to learn and I could tell, teacher’s sense you could say. But something in her eyes also mad eme fear her. maybe she wanted to learn a bit too badly. Her voice was calm and soothing but those eyes. They could pierce right through you if you weren’t careful. She asked me what I need to be fixed an told her the whoel story I had made up in the ride here. I said I was rushing to get ot work then tripped and fell on the stairs and hit my jaw on the railing and my tooth fell out. She noted what I said and told me to open my mouth. With a slight bit of hesitating I did. She examined my mouth and picked up a drill. I panicked and closed my mouth. She chuckled and told me I was acting like a kid and ordered me to open my mouth again. With more hesitation this time I eventually did.
I had a really bad feeling about this. As she brought the drill closer to my mouth I cringed.
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
Thursday, April 1, 2010
NANO 2008 Chapter 5
LOVE TRIANGLES AND MESSED UP THOUGHTS
Satuday October 7, in dorm, before breakfast,
Yesterday as I rushed to practice almost collided with some guys. I thought I recognised one of them. They looked so familiar. Oh well I probably will not see them again. Oh my gosh. I almost lost my journal yesterday. I had left it in the dorm and someone could have fully taken it and read it. Thankfully no one did. So I have to be more careful now.
I am still very sleepy. I think I am going to go back to bed. Goddnight, or would it be good morning. I will just say good bed. Sleep time.
~*~
As Lilly woke up she relised that her journal ws gone. “hey! Who took my journal!” yelled Lilly when she woke up. She woke up everyone else.
“why are you yelling?” Alyssa asked groggily.
“I can not find my journal!” Lilly yelled again. She was spazing now. She coullld not find it. “I remember writing in it this morning. Then I went to bed. . . ” Lilly suddenly gasped. “Oh no! I left it on the desk some one could have come in and taken it. Oh why is this happening to me.” she put head in her hands.
Anna was just getting back from running with Trevor. “hey! What is going on. Why is everyone so uptight. And why is Lilly tearing up the room?”
“she lost her journal.” Phoebe said. “she is really paranoid about her journal. No one has ever read it. Even Kory has only read like a page.”
“wow. Here we will all help you find it.” Anna said reassuringly. “come on everyone it has to be here somewhere.”
“Thanx everyone. I do not know what I would do with out you guys.” Lily said gratefully.
So they searched and searched. They turned the room upside down, quite literally. They called Kory over to help so six of them were looking for the journal. Lilly, Kory, Ayssa, Brittany, phoebe, and Anna. Tatiana just sat there on her bed ooking quite amused at their findings of nothing.
“you know I bet some one has already taken it and left the premisis.” Tatiana announced, “And before you guys balme me I would like to say that I did not take it. I was out the whole morning with my boyfriend. He just got here. He used to live in Caldestien. He moved all the way here for me. you could even ask him and he would say it was true.”
At the word Caldestian Lilly froze. “did you just say Caldestien?”
“yes I did, but I doubt any of you lower class people have ever heard of that city. It is all the way in Alberta. Very nice place, I was suppose to go to a school there for the arts program. That is where I met him.” Tatiana replied.
Kory was the next one to freeze. “You did not just say Caldestien in Alberta did you.” Kory interrogated.
“I did and why are you so interested in Caldestien?” Tatiana said questioningly, “my boyfriend is coming up later with his friend. I will be leaving with them. I do not care what or where you lost your stupid journal just do not mess up my part of the room.”
Kory and Lilly looked each other thinking the same thing. Who could Tatiana be dating? And did they know him. And who was his friend. The shook it off and decided they probably did not know the guys. They had probably gone to the boarding school north of the city and had nothing to do with them.
“fine” said Kory and Lilly in unison.
Tatiana left about ten minutes later, and none of the girls looking for the journal noticed who Tatiana’s boyfriend and friend was. Even though the two guys noticed the girls.
~*~
“Yo Cole. Was that just Kory and Lilly in there?” James asked Cole.
Before Cole had a chance to answer Taiana butted in, “Wait. How do you guys know thoses two losers?”
“So they are Kory and Lilly? Sweet I did not think that I we would find them this fast.” James exclaimed, Cole and James hi fived.
Tatiana stoped in front of them, “you still have not answered my question. How do you guys know them?”
“oh Lilly and Kory. They are our old friends. They are from Caldestien. We both liked Lilly at a point. Well actually James still likes Lilly. I do not like her anymore only as a friend I have some one more special. You.” Cole answered as he wraped his arms around Tatiana.
Tatiana shook him off, “you liked her. . . both of you. Unbelieveable. What do you guys see in her. She is so. . . I do not know but I do not get what is so good about her that everyone like her. Whatever as long as you do not go back to her I am good” Tatianna replied haughtingly.
“Do not worry baby, I only have you in my eyes.” Cole said sweetly and began to gently kiss Tatiana.
James was beginning to feel awkward so he took his leave saying, “I will leave you to love birds alone. I will catch up with you guys later.” With that said James left Cole and Tatiana and began to wander around the halls hoping to bump into Lilly.
~*~
“No! It is not anywhere in this room. Some one really did take it!” Lilly said despratly. The six of them, Lilly, Kory, Alyssa, Phoebe, Brittany, and Anna, had searched the room the whole morning. After a while Anna had left to go hang out with trevor and Kory had planned to meet with some of her room mates to go to the movies.
So Lilly, Ayssa, Phoebe and Brittany sat on the floor of their dorm tired of tearing the room apart. Lilly was on the verge of tears. It was her mmost precious belonging. The thing closest to her heart. All her feelings. Ups and downs. Raves and complaints. Compliments and laughs. If anyone read it then they would know her most iner thoughts. And some of Kory’s. . . .
“maybe some one did take it. We can go ask people if they see it around not to read it and just give it back to you?” Brittany suggested.
“yeah let us split up and go outside I think we all need some fresh air.” Alyssa said.
So the four girls split into towo groups. Phoebe ans Brittany and Lillt and Alyssa.
~*~
“so do you think some one could have read it already?” Lilly asked paranoid.
‘No I do not think so. Maybe some one took it in a rush to get some book or somthing?” Alyssa lied to keep her friend from worrying too much.
So the two girls walked around the campus telling and asking everyone if they had seen or seen some one with Lilly’s journal. Some said they might have but probably did not. Some were sure they did not and some people just ignored them.
Soon time for luch came. So they met back up with freys and Brittany to compare findings. They had not ofund anything. So they went to the cafe and sat at their usual table.
Mr. Blank had wanted to make an announcement so everyone had began to take seats and sit quietly. Just as mr. Blank was about to speak the doors brust open. Like in a movie, the people brusting through the doors were spotlighted and all eyes were on them. The people coming in. . . were none other than Tatiana and she had brought her boyfriend.
~*~
Tatiana and Cole had been walking when the met up with James again. It was lunch time so they wanted to head back. The were late when they brust through the doors.
Tatiana had her arms by her side and Coles arm over her shoulder. They looked lke a real couple. Many people were shocked. Tariana had a boyfriend? But as the third person walked in all eyes went to him.
Girls sat there mouths gaping open. The guy that had walked in was none other than James. Tjough he was a skated boy he was a different type of skater than all the people in the cafe. The guy all loked at him with digust whisphering among themselves about why he was there.
Lilly had noticed Cole and Tatianna first. As she ran to go talk to Tatianna and ask why she was with Cole she tripped over a bench and fell.
“thanx for the hand” Lilly said dusting herself off. She had not yet noticed who she had helped her up.
“Lilly?”
Lilly looked up. When she did she saw a guy that looked familiar but yet so different. He had reminded her of James back from Caldestien but she had shaken that thought away knowin he can not possibly be in Dastern. But on second thought she thought to herself what if he had come with Cole?
“Is that you James? Llly questioned waringly. She did not know who he was and she was a bit creeped out.
“Lily it is you! And you recognize me.” James exclaimed
“James. How come your here? And you have changed a lot. But wait I have to talk to tatianna. And that is Cole with her is not it?”
Yes it is me. Lilly.” Cole said from behond her.
Lilly jumped. She did not relise that cole was right behind her. She turned to Tatiana who had a look of digust on her face. Clearly not happy with the fact that her boyfriend knew Lilly. And was actually friends with her.
“I can not believe you guys actually know her.” Tatianna said in disgust. “and you guys actually liked her. Oh wait James you still do like her”
At that comment James blushed and turned away from Lilly who was now lookinh at him.
Oblivious of what was suppose to happen mr. Blank interrupted. “umm. . . excuse me but could you ladies and gentlemen please sit and have your conversation later after I make my announcement.”
The four heads turned at that. They had forgotten that hey were in the cafe and there was suppose to be an aniuncement.
“sorry.” They all mumble not quite in unison.
They sat down. After the anoucnement they ate their lunches at their separate clique tables and did not talk to eacdh other til anftewards.
~*~
After lunch Cole, James, and Lilly were talking non-stop. They had been away from each other for a month or so and so much had changed.
“so your parents moved here and you came too. And you were already dating Taiana at the time?” llly questioned cole.
“yeah. And James wanted to come too. And his parents said yes so my parents were fine with it.” Cole answered. “I think he came because you were here.” Cole whispehered to Lilly.
Lilly blushed.
“okay ebogh you guys. I can not stand this. I have not liked Lilly since day one. And I am not spending an entire day with her. I will be in my dorm cole. Come find me when you are done talking to this loser.” Tatianna said hautingly. She marched off.
“why does she hate me so much?” Lilly asked.
James finally spoke do you not know? Her father is the richest man in Manitoba. And her mother passed away 4 years ago. She is used to getting whatever she wants. Her father is always traveling so she does not get any attention from him. She only get spoiled. And by the way what did happen on the first day that made her hate you?”
“oh. I had arrived earlyier than her and took the middle bottm bunk bed. And she wanted it so she tossed all my stuff on a different bed and said it was hers now. So I felt offened and took all her stuff and threw it out the door. Then I pushed her off the bed and lied down on the bed. And my room mates Alyssa and Brittany had agreed with me about the bed and sat on the bed with me bscking me up.” Lilly replied :thats pretty much what happened.”
Cole laughed “oh so thats what happened. I htough something like thsat probably had happened if it concerned you. You were always very protective of your stuff,”
Lilly gasped. “I forgot. I lost my journal. You guys have to help me find it!”
Whar does it look like?” James asked. Even though he wanted to talk to Lilly alone and about other stuff he would help he.
“it has this realy cool asian design. You know the bok Kory got me in the summer. Right before we left. I showed it to you guys.”
Oh yeah. I remember now. I think I saw Tatiana with something that looked lke it. But I do not think she stole it.” Cole said
Either way let us ask her
So the three of them made their way to the dorm and when they opened the door there was a fight going on.
Whoa whats happening? Cole yeled over th din
She has Lilly journal Brittany replied
And she said shwe didn’t take it freys yelled
Its mmine. I bought this a week ago tatoanna argued angrily
If its your prove it ayssa arugued back
Fine I will tatianna said
So they all gathered around tatianna and tatianna opened the book. And. . . IT WAS TATIANNA’S!
Sry tstianna we all thought it was you cause you have a grudge against Lilly and well we do not know anyone else with the same type of book.” Phoebe admitted shyly
Just get your all your grubby hands away from me and my stuff tatianna said offended
Tatianna left the room and cole went with her. Lilly sat down on her bed and sighed. Sad that the problem revolving around her journal was not solved yet. that also left James in the room full of girls.
“hey whos he” Alyssa whisphered to Lilly
Yeah who is he he is really cute” Brittany said joining in.
Hey introduce us will you phoebe pestered.
Fine’ Lilly said finnaly “James meet phoebe, Alyssa, and Brittany. They all think that you are either cute or hot.” And lily sat back down on the bed sighing again.
James blused and said hi to all of them. They all sqeeled and went to whispher about him on aylssas bed.
“Its ok Lilly we will find your journal soon.” James said reassuringly. “I will not stop till I do. How does that sound.”
“Would you really. I know you like me still and all but would you really?” Lilly said brightening up a little.
“Yeah I will anything for you”
“Thanx” and Lilly wrapped her arms around him and rested her shoulder on his. James enjoyed this moment for he could comfort the one he loved at the time she needed him. He held her tight and thought if only he could keep her there . warm and safe.
Satuday October 7, in dorm, before breakfast,
Yesterday as I rushed to practice almost collided with some guys. I thought I recognised one of them. They looked so familiar. Oh well I probably will not see them again. Oh my gosh. I almost lost my journal yesterday. I had left it in the dorm and someone could have fully taken it and read it. Thankfully no one did. So I have to be more careful now.
I am still very sleepy. I think I am going to go back to bed. Goddnight, or would it be good morning. I will just say good bed. Sleep time.
~*~
As Lilly woke up she relised that her journal ws gone. “hey! Who took my journal!” yelled Lilly when she woke up. She woke up everyone else.
“why are you yelling?” Alyssa asked groggily.
“I can not find my journal!” Lilly yelled again. She was spazing now. She coullld not find it. “I remember writing in it this morning. Then I went to bed. . . ” Lilly suddenly gasped. “Oh no! I left it on the desk some one could have come in and taken it. Oh why is this happening to me.” she put head in her hands.
Anna was just getting back from running with Trevor. “hey! What is going on. Why is everyone so uptight. And why is Lilly tearing up the room?”
“she lost her journal.” Phoebe said. “she is really paranoid about her journal. No one has ever read it. Even Kory has only read like a page.”
“wow. Here we will all help you find it.” Anna said reassuringly. “come on everyone it has to be here somewhere.”
“Thanx everyone. I do not know what I would do with out you guys.” Lily said gratefully.
So they searched and searched. They turned the room upside down, quite literally. They called Kory over to help so six of them were looking for the journal. Lilly, Kory, Ayssa, Brittany, phoebe, and Anna. Tatiana just sat there on her bed ooking quite amused at their findings of nothing.
“you know I bet some one has already taken it and left the premisis.” Tatiana announced, “And before you guys balme me I would like to say that I did not take it. I was out the whole morning with my boyfriend. He just got here. He used to live in Caldestien. He moved all the way here for me. you could even ask him and he would say it was true.”
At the word Caldestian Lilly froze. “did you just say Caldestien?”
“yes I did, but I doubt any of you lower class people have ever heard of that city. It is all the way in Alberta. Very nice place, I was suppose to go to a school there for the arts program. That is where I met him.” Tatiana replied.
Kory was the next one to freeze. “You did not just say Caldestien in Alberta did you.” Kory interrogated.
“I did and why are you so interested in Caldestien?” Tatiana said questioningly, “my boyfriend is coming up later with his friend. I will be leaving with them. I do not care what or where you lost your stupid journal just do not mess up my part of the room.”
Kory and Lilly looked each other thinking the same thing. Who could Tatiana be dating? And did they know him. And who was his friend. The shook it off and decided they probably did not know the guys. They had probably gone to the boarding school north of the city and had nothing to do with them.
“fine” said Kory and Lilly in unison.
Tatiana left about ten minutes later, and none of the girls looking for the journal noticed who Tatiana’s boyfriend and friend was. Even though the two guys noticed the girls.
~*~
“Yo Cole. Was that just Kory and Lilly in there?” James asked Cole.
Before Cole had a chance to answer Taiana butted in, “Wait. How do you guys know thoses two losers?”
“So they are Kory and Lilly? Sweet I did not think that I we would find them this fast.” James exclaimed, Cole and James hi fived.
Tatiana stoped in front of them, “you still have not answered my question. How do you guys know them?”
“oh Lilly and Kory. They are our old friends. They are from Caldestien. We both liked Lilly at a point. Well actually James still likes Lilly. I do not like her anymore only as a friend I have some one more special. You.” Cole answered as he wraped his arms around Tatiana.
Tatiana shook him off, “you liked her. . . both of you. Unbelieveable. What do you guys see in her. She is so. . . I do not know but I do not get what is so good about her that everyone like her. Whatever as long as you do not go back to her I am good” Tatianna replied haughtingly.
“Do not worry baby, I only have you in my eyes.” Cole said sweetly and began to gently kiss Tatiana.
James was beginning to feel awkward so he took his leave saying, “I will leave you to love birds alone. I will catch up with you guys later.” With that said James left Cole and Tatiana and began to wander around the halls hoping to bump into Lilly.
~*~
“No! It is not anywhere in this room. Some one really did take it!” Lilly said despratly. The six of them, Lilly, Kory, Alyssa, Phoebe, Brittany, and Anna, had searched the room the whole morning. After a while Anna had left to go hang out with trevor and Kory had planned to meet with some of her room mates to go to the movies.
So Lilly, Ayssa, Phoebe and Brittany sat on the floor of their dorm tired of tearing the room apart. Lilly was on the verge of tears. It was her mmost precious belonging. The thing closest to her heart. All her feelings. Ups and downs. Raves and complaints. Compliments and laughs. If anyone read it then they would know her most iner thoughts. And some of Kory’s. . . .
“maybe some one did take it. We can go ask people if they see it around not to read it and just give it back to you?” Brittany suggested.
“yeah let us split up and go outside I think we all need some fresh air.” Alyssa said.
So the four girls split into towo groups. Phoebe ans Brittany and Lillt and Alyssa.
~*~
“so do you think some one could have read it already?” Lilly asked paranoid.
‘No I do not think so. Maybe some one took it in a rush to get some book or somthing?” Alyssa lied to keep her friend from worrying too much.
So the two girls walked around the campus telling and asking everyone if they had seen or seen some one with Lilly’s journal. Some said they might have but probably did not. Some were sure they did not and some people just ignored them.
Soon time for luch came. So they met back up with freys and Brittany to compare findings. They had not ofund anything. So they went to the cafe and sat at their usual table.
Mr. Blank had wanted to make an announcement so everyone had began to take seats and sit quietly. Just as mr. Blank was about to speak the doors brust open. Like in a movie, the people brusting through the doors were spotlighted and all eyes were on them. The people coming in. . . were none other than Tatiana and she had brought her boyfriend.
~*~
Tatiana and Cole had been walking when the met up with James again. It was lunch time so they wanted to head back. The were late when they brust through the doors.
Tatiana had her arms by her side and Coles arm over her shoulder. They looked lke a real couple. Many people were shocked. Tariana had a boyfriend? But as the third person walked in all eyes went to him.
Girls sat there mouths gaping open. The guy that had walked in was none other than James. Tjough he was a skated boy he was a different type of skater than all the people in the cafe. The guy all loked at him with digust whisphering among themselves about why he was there.
Lilly had noticed Cole and Tatianna first. As she ran to go talk to Tatianna and ask why she was with Cole she tripped over a bench and fell.
“thanx for the hand” Lilly said dusting herself off. She had not yet noticed who she had helped her up.
“Lilly?”
Lilly looked up. When she did she saw a guy that looked familiar but yet so different. He had reminded her of James back from Caldestien but she had shaken that thought away knowin he can not possibly be in Dastern. But on second thought she thought to herself what if he had come with Cole?
“Is that you James? Llly questioned waringly. She did not know who he was and she was a bit creeped out.
“Lily it is you! And you recognize me.” James exclaimed
“James. How come your here? And you have changed a lot. But wait I have to talk to tatianna. And that is Cole with her is not it?”
Yes it is me. Lilly.” Cole said from behond her.
Lilly jumped. She did not relise that cole was right behind her. She turned to Tatiana who had a look of digust on her face. Clearly not happy with the fact that her boyfriend knew Lilly. And was actually friends with her.
“I can not believe you guys actually know her.” Tatianna said in disgust. “and you guys actually liked her. Oh wait James you still do like her”
At that comment James blushed and turned away from Lilly who was now lookinh at him.
Oblivious of what was suppose to happen mr. Blank interrupted. “umm. . . excuse me but could you ladies and gentlemen please sit and have your conversation later after I make my announcement.”
The four heads turned at that. They had forgotten that hey were in the cafe and there was suppose to be an aniuncement.
“sorry.” They all mumble not quite in unison.
They sat down. After the anoucnement they ate their lunches at their separate clique tables and did not talk to eacdh other til anftewards.
~*~
After lunch Cole, James, and Lilly were talking non-stop. They had been away from each other for a month or so and so much had changed.
“so your parents moved here and you came too. And you were already dating Taiana at the time?” llly questioned cole.
“yeah. And James wanted to come too. And his parents said yes so my parents were fine with it.” Cole answered. “I think he came because you were here.” Cole whispehered to Lilly.
Lilly blushed.
“okay ebogh you guys. I can not stand this. I have not liked Lilly since day one. And I am not spending an entire day with her. I will be in my dorm cole. Come find me when you are done talking to this loser.” Tatianna said hautingly. She marched off.
“why does she hate me so much?” Lilly asked.
James finally spoke do you not know? Her father is the richest man in Manitoba. And her mother passed away 4 years ago. She is used to getting whatever she wants. Her father is always traveling so she does not get any attention from him. She only get spoiled. And by the way what did happen on the first day that made her hate you?”
“oh. I had arrived earlyier than her and took the middle bottm bunk bed. And she wanted it so she tossed all my stuff on a different bed and said it was hers now. So I felt offened and took all her stuff and threw it out the door. Then I pushed her off the bed and lied down on the bed. And my room mates Alyssa and Brittany had agreed with me about the bed and sat on the bed with me bscking me up.” Lilly replied :thats pretty much what happened.”
Cole laughed “oh so thats what happened. I htough something like thsat probably had happened if it concerned you. You were always very protective of your stuff,”
Lilly gasped. “I forgot. I lost my journal. You guys have to help me find it!”
Whar does it look like?” James asked. Even though he wanted to talk to Lilly alone and about other stuff he would help he.
“it has this realy cool asian design. You know the bok Kory got me in the summer. Right before we left. I showed it to you guys.”
Oh yeah. I remember now. I think I saw Tatiana with something that looked lke it. But I do not think she stole it.” Cole said
Either way let us ask her
So the three of them made their way to the dorm and when they opened the door there was a fight going on.
Whoa whats happening? Cole yeled over th din
She has Lilly journal Brittany replied
And she said shwe didn’t take it freys yelled
Its mmine. I bought this a week ago tatoanna argued angrily
If its your prove it ayssa arugued back
Fine I will tatianna said
So they all gathered around tatianna and tatianna opened the book. And. . . IT WAS TATIANNA’S!
Sry tstianna we all thought it was you cause you have a grudge against Lilly and well we do not know anyone else with the same type of book.” Phoebe admitted shyly
Just get your all your grubby hands away from me and my stuff tatianna said offended
Tatianna left the room and cole went with her. Lilly sat down on her bed and sighed. Sad that the problem revolving around her journal was not solved yet. that also left James in the room full of girls.
“hey whos he” Alyssa whisphered to Lilly
Yeah who is he he is really cute” Brittany said joining in.
Hey introduce us will you phoebe pestered.
Fine’ Lilly said finnaly “James meet phoebe, Alyssa, and Brittany. They all think that you are either cute or hot.” And lily sat back down on the bed sighing again.
James blused and said hi to all of them. They all sqeeled and went to whispher about him on aylssas bed.
“Its ok Lilly we will find your journal soon.” James said reassuringly. “I will not stop till I do. How does that sound.”
“Would you really. I know you like me still and all but would you really?” Lilly said brightening up a little.
“Yeah I will anything for you”
“Thanx” and Lilly wrapped her arms around him and rested her shoulder on his. James enjoyed this moment for he could comfort the one he loved at the time she needed him. He held her tight and thought if only he could keep her there . warm and safe.
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
NANO 2008 Chapter 4
Forgetting
Tueday, September 26, at night.
In one and a half days so much can happen. Ok first off yesterday.
Yesterday as normal I waited for prince to meet me by the tree. I waited, and waited. Anna had went and left with trevor already. So it ws just me. I almost went back to my dorm when he appeared. I was like “ where the hack were u I have been waiting for ages. I thought we were going to talk about trevor and Kory. They left already just to tell u.” And then he was all like, “I actually do not think they need any push. They are progressing their relationship nicely with out us.” I replied, “I guess that is true. Fine we will not interfere. But what shal we do today. Cause we are already here” and the next thing that happened almost put me in trauma (not literally, it was just too shocking). He said, “well. . . ” then some one called his name. “WANG ZI!!!!” this asian girl ran out of no where calling prince by his Chinese name and literally jumped onto him. Prince looked not at all surprised. He looked more annoyed. He kinda pried her off him and said gently, “ Angelina meet my friend Lilly.” The girl named Angelina kind of stared me uo and down. She looked at me with disgust. Then I asked prince, “who is she?” and prince was about to reply but then Angelina butted right in, “oh he is MY botfriend.” She started to wrap her arms around him, but prince shook her off. “stop” he said then he turned to me. “ I tried to come earlier but I got caught up with her” and he ionted to Angelina.
Everyone calls her Angelina, or angy for short. Her rea name is fang hua chung. she had long straight hair, straighter than mine and mine is really straight. In her hair there were blonde strazks that looked so good that I wanted to pul them right off her head. She was asian as well. Her boobs were bigger too. Drove me mad. She wore a short mini skirt and a tight blouse. She looked so cold but then she was able to cuddle with prince for a reason. Arg.
so I met her and she met me. And then she did something I hated. She wraped her arms around prince ( or tried because prince shook her off again) and said, “hey baby, I have to do some stuff at home. Can you come with me?” and she made this really annoying puppy dog face. Well probalby only annoying to me. And prince replied quite surprisingly since he was her “boy friend”. He said frustratingly it sounded, “fine. but I have to stay with Lilly for a bit we have to talk about something.” So she left looking sad and glanced over her sholder and scowled at me. Why is it everyone hates me.
So prince started talking to me again, which snapped me back from looking at Angelina. “sorry about that. So yeah she is my girl friend” he made a annoyed face at that said but I did not ask him about it. I was sad at that point. I was like, in my head obviously, no why does he have to have a girl friend. He should not be having one. I should be his. I like starred at him and turned around and started to walk away, parly because if he said anything or I did I was afraid I might cry. So I yelled behind me “ I got to go. I will talk to you later.” And I started torun. Ayron, yes I called him Ayron inmy journal can not bring my self to call him prince anymore. For he is some one elses. He called to me “wait! Lilly!” but I could not hear anything after that, I was too far away. I ran into my dorm and started to cyry. Everyone except tatiana was aorried about me but I did not say anything about what had happened.
So yeah. . .
today was such a bad day. And it was al because of Ayron. *sigh* it sucks. He and his girl friend angy has taken over my mind. All the thoughts about him are being slowy eaten away by the thought of Angelina. Whaaaahh! I want to be the one dating him. So unfair. In skating I could not do anything I was like in my own world. I did not hera anything said to me. I could not land a single jump and could not get any sense of balance doing my spins and when doing my field moves I kept falling over. Sooner of later some told me to get off the ice. Ny coach, soo min was so disappointed in me. She told me to get some rest and clear my mind of whats distracting it from good coaching. She told me not to go back on the ice till I was all sorted out. I thought that was harsh but now that I think of it I see the reason behind it. In classes I did not hear a single word my teachers said. In geograohy class my teacher called onme for a question and I did not hear and so I got sent to the office. You could just say I had a really bad day.
Now after school. . . Ayron showed up. . . with Angelina. I got all sad again when I saw them. I did not talk to them at all. Ayron could tell I was not my usual self cause I am ALWAYS talking. So I did not talk to them. Ayron tried to talk to me but I would not respond. I just could not just stand there and whatch them. So I left and went back to my tree. We had been haging out in the park nearby. So I went back to my tree. I was just about to writein my journal when Ayron appears out of nowhere. I though he was with Angelina. Or at least stay with her. But apparently he noticed that I was gone he said to Angelina that he was going to look for me. I wonder what was up tih that. So I ended up talking some more with Ayron , but then Angelina came and pulled him away. I think she was wondering why he ditched her for me. Because that swhat I was thinking a about. When they were talking I walked away casue I could not stand being near them and seeing them together, they seem like such acouple when they were talking. When I got back to the dorm I did not go in I went back outside and looked to see if they had went. Surprisingly Ayron was still there Angelina had left and he was waiting there. Was he looking for me?
Wow. its almost 1 in the morning I can not believe I have been writing this long. I am so sleepy now that I stopped writing. Well I better go to bed. I got class tomorrow. I ebt I still will not be able to concentrate becaue of what happened today. Well *yawn* I better *yawn* go to bed *yawn*. Good night.
Wednesday, September 27. Dorm, before dinner.
Well I refused to go to the tee today cause I could not bear seeing him. Today was exactly the same as yesterday. Now even my teachers are saying do not come to class till my thoughts are sorted out. So I have to sort them out. So I think I might go to the rink. I find it very comforting in the rink.
So I will take a trip to the rink. Be back soon.
Wednesday, September, 27, ice rink. Before dinner still
So now I am in the ice rink. I have to sort out my thoughts. Thats also why I did not go to my tree cause I know Ayron Is probably there. And I just can not deal with anymore strange behaviour. Ok so here goes for my organizing of my thoughts (in point form)
• Tatiana mess of emotions
• Tatiana hates me for some reason
• Tatiana will not accept my help what so ever
• Ayron hot asian guy
• Ayron=wang zi=prince
• Ayron has girlfriend
• Ayron girlfriend Angelina
• Anglelina=fang hua
• Ayron ditch Angelina for me
• Angelina mad?
• Ayrons liek me???????
• I have no clue what Ayron is thinking
• Me and Angelina do not get along
• Skating land double lutz
• Working on double axle
• Soo min is my coach
• Classes okay
• 83.3 average
• Past two days can not concentrate on anything cause brain is filled with junk about Ayron and Angelina
• have not seen mr. blank in a while.
• Mr. Blank’s daughter??
• Know her??
• Kory and Brendan
• Calvin haunting Kory
• Calvin coming back?
• ME AND AYRON????????????????????
There that is my list. Sucks huh. None of it makes much sense.
Oh, Dinner is done. I got to go eat. Talk to you later, bye bye.
Friday, September 29, in dorm, after dinner
I have not been seeing Ayron for the last 2 days. If I see him I will be confused even more because his actions the last time I saw him were so confusing. Also I would be sad because I hear Angelina has been following him everywhere and I can not stand them being together. I do not think I get him anymore. Any way. . . since I have not been seeing him I have regained some of my concentrartion. I can land my jumps almost all the time. Bit less than when I have all my concentration. And my school is going good. I am actually paying attention mow. And I answer the questions. I do zone out a bit but not for long. Like maybe 5 min or so. So all in all everything has been pretty steady.
Tatiana and I are still avoiding each other. And we have not talked since THAT night. I really do want to be friends with her though. I still do not get why she is so mean to me. I guess I will have to wait till she opens up to me.
So yeah . . . I have not seen mr. Blank in a while. I see him usually hanging around the rinks when ever I go to practice. And I say hi to him. But for like the past week I have not seen him. I wonder whats up with him. I should go find out. I think I will ask the coaches tomorrow. Cause all the coachs know who mr. Blank is. Hey and maybe the coaches know who his daughter is. Maybe if I can find his daughter I can find him. I shall ask tomorrow for sure.
Now . . . Kory has been seeing Brendan every single day now. And when ever she comes back she always talks to me about him for like an hour straight. I think they really do llike each other now. I wonder if they have told each other yet. I think I will ask Kory tonight. She should be comeing back soon. So I will write again when she comes back and finishes talking. For now I think I will practice some stretchs cause Ayron is starting to come back into my thoughts. Bye talk to you later
Friday, September, 29, after Kory has come and gone, in dorm.
So I asjed her and she turned a shade of red that was so red that a over ripe tomto could not beat her. So I got why answer from the look on her fac, it was a no. I asked her if she had noticed if he like her or not. And she said that she thought she did but did not want to be the person to ask. She wanted him to ask her on a date. So she was waiting. And in my head he was probably saying either that she did not like him or he was waiting for her. But ass she was talking I kept thinking of Ayron. I tried to shake the thoughts away but I just could not. I think I have really fallen in love with Ayron. Ohhhh. Why did I have to fall in love with the guy everyonr likes. Yeah I have heard that he is the most popular guy in his school. Everyone says that he is a guiness, he gets perfect on every single test! And I hear that everyone wants to be his girl friend, so when he finaly said yes to Angelina everyone was shocked because he had never ever ever gone out with a girl at school. They say that Angelina had loved him for 6 years before he said yes to be her girlfriend. And me, he has onky known for a month. Maybe in reality he does not like Angelina. But if he does not like her why would I think he likes me. *sigh* I just know that he does not like me. he probably only thinks of me as a friend when I think about him as sooo much more. Why oh why is it him that I like. *sigh*
Arg so now I will oly think of him as a friend. Well. . . i will try to. Probably not going to work. Like even noe I am thinking of him. Arg why is he so hard to forget. I think I will sleep on it. Arg I bet even when I sleep I will think of him. Ok. . . from now on I will avoid hm at all costs. And I will never go to that tree again because, most likely he is waiting for me there. At least that is what anna has been saying. Ok I will og to bed now. I have to put my whole heart, soul, body etc etc etc into not seeing him and not thinking about him. So. . . god noght. Bye.
thursday October 5, in class
I have been spending the ast few days trying not to think about Ayron. But it seems like one way or another he comes creeping back into my thoughts. Like I will be talking to someone and something they say or do would either relate to or remind me of him. And then the rest of the day I would be I a kind of limboish mood. Like today for example. I was talking to anna and then she said something about the tree and I completly forgot about what she was talking about and I thought about the tree and I wondered if Ayron was waiting for me there and my mind was like in its own little world. I was kind of in a funny mood after and everyone could tell. I htink they have already figured out that when ever I am like that it is about Ayron. Also on top of that thinga between Kory and bredan are not going very well. I htink it might have something to do with me and Ayron. Oh why does everything relate to me and him. I figured this out because Kory started making up lame excuses like she was tired or felt sick or that she forgot when I asked her why she does not come to my dorm and talk about her dates. And she has not been seeing him the past few days. It is so wierd that when everything was good it was really good but now that everything is bad evvverythin gis bad. Like I can not land my doubllle lutz anymore. Like why could I not have at least one good thing to keep.
I have decided to go back to the tree today. I have been there in like two weeks. Even if Ayron is there I will ignore him. I plan to bring my music and listen to it to drown him out. Wait I will not even notice if he is there because I will just go to the tree and sit ans read or something. And I WILL ignore him. Yeah that is right I am going to do this. . . . . . . . . . *sigh* h man, if I see Ayron with agelina because I already know I wil not be able to not notice him. I will probably end up running back to the dorm. I just can not face him with her there. On second thought I do not think I will go to the tree. I am all sad know that I think about him and agelina together. Well class is almost over. Should I go should I not go should I go shloud I not go. I think I will not go cause I will be more sad. Any way class is over now. Bye.
Friday October 6, after classes, in dorm
After writing what I did yesterday I do kind of want to see him but kind of not. Well inactuallity I want to know if he has been waiting for me to come back and if he misses me or not. Ok fine I want to know if he likes me or not. But I think if he liked me enough he would dump Angelina and come find me in my dorm or something. He would like ask anna which dorm I am in and come and find me and say he loves me. but as you know that has not happened and I have been avoiding him for like 2 weeks already. I think I will give up on him. I did see some other guy in the cafe today. I believe I have seen him before but I never noticed becaue I was only thinking of Ayron befor. He ooks nice. He smiled at me when when passed. Maybe I can find out his name and hang around him. It would probably take my mind off Ayron. Yes that is exactly what I will do I will go find this other guy and he will be able to make me forget about Ayron. Oh but that so mean. I am only using him to firget Ayron. And then what happens if he falls in love with me and I will not like him in the same way. He would be heartbroken. Arg I am going to stop thinking about this.
After all that has happened I think Tatiana is finally warming up to me in the tiniest bit. Like whenever I am sad she wont make fun of me and taunt me. maybe because she knows how I feel. Maybe she has gone through the same thing I have. Maybe I have been to niave and have not thought about the things she might have been through. *sigh* now that I think about it I have been quite mean to her. . . . . . . oh snap I am late for skating practise. I got ot go. Byr.
~*~
As Lilly rushes to her practice she does not notice the pair of guys she nearly crashed into while running. The first guy that she had almost collided into was a guy that had been wanting to see her for the last month. He was her past crush. Her past crush Cole Kenning. With him you would have never guessed. With him there stood James Hensworth. The guy that had liked her for the longest time.
Over the last month things had changed. Cole now liked this other girl from school. Her name was Tatiana. Tatiana Walker. They had met when Cole was at his home school for registration and Tatiana was suppose to go there for the arts program before she had been accepted into the skating school. They had literally bumped into each other. When he bumped into her he was with a bunch of friends so he turned his head to apologise. That is when their gazes met. He had been captured by her, and she had fallen in love with him at first sight. He ditched his friends and continued to talk to her, and she separted from her mother. They talked all day and they knew they just had to be together. Since then they had been trying to find a way for him to get to Dastern. Finally he was able to get there. Out of luck or fate, his dad was work was transferred over. When James told everyone Cole wanted to come and so he did. His parents were fine with it and James was pretty cool about having a friend come with him. So James and his family with Cole moved up to Dastern.
Things had changed with Cole too. As soon as Lilly had left Caldestien he wanted to change. Before he was a scrony skater boy. Now he was a full out punk skater. He changed his whole image. His hair now curved around his hat, instead of flipping out at crazy angles. He also was not all legs anymore. He had muscles. All in all he was your typical hot skater boy. Since he had changed many girls had been wanting to be his girlfriend, but he had turned them all down. In his heart there was only one girl, that girl was Lilly.
Tueday, September 26, at night.
In one and a half days so much can happen. Ok first off yesterday.
Yesterday as normal I waited for prince to meet me by the tree. I waited, and waited. Anna had went and left with trevor already. So it ws just me. I almost went back to my dorm when he appeared. I was like “ where the hack were u I have been waiting for ages. I thought we were going to talk about trevor and Kory. They left already just to tell u.” And then he was all like, “I actually do not think they need any push. They are progressing their relationship nicely with out us.” I replied, “I guess that is true. Fine we will not interfere. But what shal we do today. Cause we are already here” and the next thing that happened almost put me in trauma (not literally, it was just too shocking). He said, “well. . . ” then some one called his name. “WANG ZI!!!!” this asian girl ran out of no where calling prince by his Chinese name and literally jumped onto him. Prince looked not at all surprised. He looked more annoyed. He kinda pried her off him and said gently, “ Angelina meet my friend Lilly.” The girl named Angelina kind of stared me uo and down. She looked at me with disgust. Then I asked prince, “who is she?” and prince was about to reply but then Angelina butted right in, “oh he is MY botfriend.” She started to wrap her arms around him, but prince shook her off. “stop” he said then he turned to me. “ I tried to come earlier but I got caught up with her” and he ionted to Angelina.
Everyone calls her Angelina, or angy for short. Her rea name is fang hua chung. she had long straight hair, straighter than mine and mine is really straight. In her hair there were blonde strazks that looked so good that I wanted to pul them right off her head. She was asian as well. Her boobs were bigger too. Drove me mad. She wore a short mini skirt and a tight blouse. She looked so cold but then she was able to cuddle with prince for a reason. Arg.
so I met her and she met me. And then she did something I hated. She wraped her arms around prince ( or tried because prince shook her off again) and said, “hey baby, I have to do some stuff at home. Can you come with me?” and she made this really annoying puppy dog face. Well probalby only annoying to me. And prince replied quite surprisingly since he was her “boy friend”. He said frustratingly it sounded, “fine. but I have to stay with Lilly for a bit we have to talk about something.” So she left looking sad and glanced over her sholder and scowled at me. Why is it everyone hates me.
So prince started talking to me again, which snapped me back from looking at Angelina. “sorry about that. So yeah she is my girl friend” he made a annoyed face at that said but I did not ask him about it. I was sad at that point. I was like, in my head obviously, no why does he have to have a girl friend. He should not be having one. I should be his. I like starred at him and turned around and started to walk away, parly because if he said anything or I did I was afraid I might cry. So I yelled behind me “ I got to go. I will talk to you later.” And I started torun. Ayron, yes I called him Ayron inmy journal can not bring my self to call him prince anymore. For he is some one elses. He called to me “wait! Lilly!” but I could not hear anything after that, I was too far away. I ran into my dorm and started to cyry. Everyone except tatiana was aorried about me but I did not say anything about what had happened.
So yeah. . .
today was such a bad day. And it was al because of Ayron. *sigh* it sucks. He and his girl friend angy has taken over my mind. All the thoughts about him are being slowy eaten away by the thought of Angelina. Whaaaahh! I want to be the one dating him. So unfair. In skating I could not do anything I was like in my own world. I did not hera anything said to me. I could not land a single jump and could not get any sense of balance doing my spins and when doing my field moves I kept falling over. Sooner of later some told me to get off the ice. Ny coach, soo min was so disappointed in me. She told me to get some rest and clear my mind of whats distracting it from good coaching. She told me not to go back on the ice till I was all sorted out. I thought that was harsh but now that I think of it I see the reason behind it. In classes I did not hear a single word my teachers said. In geograohy class my teacher called onme for a question and I did not hear and so I got sent to the office. You could just say I had a really bad day.
Now after school. . . Ayron showed up. . . with Angelina. I got all sad again when I saw them. I did not talk to them at all. Ayron could tell I was not my usual self cause I am ALWAYS talking. So I did not talk to them. Ayron tried to talk to me but I would not respond. I just could not just stand there and whatch them. So I left and went back to my tree. We had been haging out in the park nearby. So I went back to my tree. I was just about to writein my journal when Ayron appears out of nowhere. I though he was with Angelina. Or at least stay with her. But apparently he noticed that I was gone he said to Angelina that he was going to look for me. I wonder what was up tih that. So I ended up talking some more with Ayron , but then Angelina came and pulled him away. I think she was wondering why he ditched her for me. Because that swhat I was thinking a about. When they were talking I walked away casue I could not stand being near them and seeing them together, they seem like such acouple when they were talking. When I got back to the dorm I did not go in I went back outside and looked to see if they had went. Surprisingly Ayron was still there Angelina had left and he was waiting there. Was he looking for me?
Wow. its almost 1 in the morning I can not believe I have been writing this long. I am so sleepy now that I stopped writing. Well I better go to bed. I got class tomorrow. I ebt I still will not be able to concentrate becaue of what happened today. Well *yawn* I better *yawn* go to bed *yawn*. Good night.
Wednesday, September 27. Dorm, before dinner.
Well I refused to go to the tee today cause I could not bear seeing him. Today was exactly the same as yesterday. Now even my teachers are saying do not come to class till my thoughts are sorted out. So I have to sort them out. So I think I might go to the rink. I find it very comforting in the rink.
So I will take a trip to the rink. Be back soon.
Wednesday, September, 27, ice rink. Before dinner still
So now I am in the ice rink. I have to sort out my thoughts. Thats also why I did not go to my tree cause I know Ayron Is probably there. And I just can not deal with anymore strange behaviour. Ok so here goes for my organizing of my thoughts (in point form)
• Tatiana mess of emotions
• Tatiana hates me for some reason
• Tatiana will not accept my help what so ever
• Ayron hot asian guy
• Ayron=wang zi=prince
• Ayron has girlfriend
• Ayron girlfriend Angelina
• Anglelina=fang hua
• Ayron ditch Angelina for me
• Angelina mad?
• Ayrons liek me???????
• I have no clue what Ayron is thinking
• Me and Angelina do not get along
• Skating land double lutz
• Working on double axle
• Soo min is my coach
• Classes okay
• 83.3 average
• Past two days can not concentrate on anything cause brain is filled with junk about Ayron and Angelina
• have not seen mr. blank in a while.
• Mr. Blank’s daughter??
• Know her??
• Kory and Brendan
• Calvin haunting Kory
• Calvin coming back?
• ME AND AYRON????????????????????
There that is my list. Sucks huh. None of it makes much sense.
Oh, Dinner is done. I got to go eat. Talk to you later, bye bye.
Friday, September 29, in dorm, after dinner
I have not been seeing Ayron for the last 2 days. If I see him I will be confused even more because his actions the last time I saw him were so confusing. Also I would be sad because I hear Angelina has been following him everywhere and I can not stand them being together. I do not think I get him anymore. Any way. . . since I have not been seeing him I have regained some of my concentrartion. I can land my jumps almost all the time. Bit less than when I have all my concentration. And my school is going good. I am actually paying attention mow. And I answer the questions. I do zone out a bit but not for long. Like maybe 5 min or so. So all in all everything has been pretty steady.
Tatiana and I are still avoiding each other. And we have not talked since THAT night. I really do want to be friends with her though. I still do not get why she is so mean to me. I guess I will have to wait till she opens up to me.
So yeah . . . I have not seen mr. Blank in a while. I see him usually hanging around the rinks when ever I go to practice. And I say hi to him. But for like the past week I have not seen him. I wonder whats up with him. I should go find out. I think I will ask the coaches tomorrow. Cause all the coachs know who mr. Blank is. Hey and maybe the coaches know who his daughter is. Maybe if I can find his daughter I can find him. I shall ask tomorrow for sure.
Now . . . Kory has been seeing Brendan every single day now. And when ever she comes back she always talks to me about him for like an hour straight. I think they really do llike each other now. I wonder if they have told each other yet. I think I will ask Kory tonight. She should be comeing back soon. So I will write again when she comes back and finishes talking. For now I think I will practice some stretchs cause Ayron is starting to come back into my thoughts. Bye talk to you later
Friday, September, 29, after Kory has come and gone, in dorm.
So I asjed her and she turned a shade of red that was so red that a over ripe tomto could not beat her. So I got why answer from the look on her fac, it was a no. I asked her if she had noticed if he like her or not. And she said that she thought she did but did not want to be the person to ask. She wanted him to ask her on a date. So she was waiting. And in my head he was probably saying either that she did not like him or he was waiting for her. But ass she was talking I kept thinking of Ayron. I tried to shake the thoughts away but I just could not. I think I have really fallen in love with Ayron. Ohhhh. Why did I have to fall in love with the guy everyonr likes. Yeah I have heard that he is the most popular guy in his school. Everyone says that he is a guiness, he gets perfect on every single test! And I hear that everyone wants to be his girl friend, so when he finaly said yes to Angelina everyone was shocked because he had never ever ever gone out with a girl at school. They say that Angelina had loved him for 6 years before he said yes to be her girlfriend. And me, he has onky known for a month. Maybe in reality he does not like Angelina. But if he does not like her why would I think he likes me. *sigh* I just know that he does not like me. he probably only thinks of me as a friend when I think about him as sooo much more. Why oh why is it him that I like. *sigh*
Arg so now I will oly think of him as a friend. Well. . . i will try to. Probably not going to work. Like even noe I am thinking of him. Arg why is he so hard to forget. I think I will sleep on it. Arg I bet even when I sleep I will think of him. Ok. . . from now on I will avoid hm at all costs. And I will never go to that tree again because, most likely he is waiting for me there. At least that is what anna has been saying. Ok I will og to bed now. I have to put my whole heart, soul, body etc etc etc into not seeing him and not thinking about him. So. . . god noght. Bye.
thursday October 5, in class
I have been spending the ast few days trying not to think about Ayron. But it seems like one way or another he comes creeping back into my thoughts. Like I will be talking to someone and something they say or do would either relate to or remind me of him. And then the rest of the day I would be I a kind of limboish mood. Like today for example. I was talking to anna and then she said something about the tree and I completly forgot about what she was talking about and I thought about the tree and I wondered if Ayron was waiting for me there and my mind was like in its own little world. I was kind of in a funny mood after and everyone could tell. I htink they have already figured out that when ever I am like that it is about Ayron. Also on top of that thinga between Kory and bredan are not going very well. I htink it might have something to do with me and Ayron. Oh why does everything relate to me and him. I figured this out because Kory started making up lame excuses like she was tired or felt sick or that she forgot when I asked her why she does not come to my dorm and talk about her dates. And she has not been seeing him the past few days. It is so wierd that when everything was good it was really good but now that everything is bad evvverythin gis bad. Like I can not land my doubllle lutz anymore. Like why could I not have at least one good thing to keep.
I have decided to go back to the tree today. I have been there in like two weeks. Even if Ayron is there I will ignore him. I plan to bring my music and listen to it to drown him out. Wait I will not even notice if he is there because I will just go to the tree and sit ans read or something. And I WILL ignore him. Yeah that is right I am going to do this. . . . . . . . . . *sigh* h man, if I see Ayron with agelina because I already know I wil not be able to not notice him. I will probably end up running back to the dorm. I just can not face him with her there. On second thought I do not think I will go to the tree. I am all sad know that I think about him and agelina together. Well class is almost over. Should I go should I not go should I go shloud I not go. I think I will not go cause I will be more sad. Any way class is over now. Bye.
Friday October 6, after classes, in dorm
After writing what I did yesterday I do kind of want to see him but kind of not. Well inactuallity I want to know if he has been waiting for me to come back and if he misses me or not. Ok fine I want to know if he likes me or not. But I think if he liked me enough he would dump Angelina and come find me in my dorm or something. He would like ask anna which dorm I am in and come and find me and say he loves me. but as you know that has not happened and I have been avoiding him for like 2 weeks already. I think I will give up on him. I did see some other guy in the cafe today. I believe I have seen him before but I never noticed becaue I was only thinking of Ayron befor. He ooks nice. He smiled at me when when passed. Maybe I can find out his name and hang around him. It would probably take my mind off Ayron. Yes that is exactly what I will do I will go find this other guy and he will be able to make me forget about Ayron. Oh but that so mean. I am only using him to firget Ayron. And then what happens if he falls in love with me and I will not like him in the same way. He would be heartbroken. Arg I am going to stop thinking about this.
After all that has happened I think Tatiana is finally warming up to me in the tiniest bit. Like whenever I am sad she wont make fun of me and taunt me. maybe because she knows how I feel. Maybe she has gone through the same thing I have. Maybe I have been to niave and have not thought about the things she might have been through. *sigh* now that I think about it I have been quite mean to her. . . . . . . oh snap I am late for skating practise. I got ot go. Byr.
~*~
As Lilly rushes to her practice she does not notice the pair of guys she nearly crashed into while running. The first guy that she had almost collided into was a guy that had been wanting to see her for the last month. He was her past crush. Her past crush Cole Kenning. With him you would have never guessed. With him there stood James Hensworth. The guy that had liked her for the longest time.
Over the last month things had changed. Cole now liked this other girl from school. Her name was Tatiana. Tatiana Walker. They had met when Cole was at his home school for registration and Tatiana was suppose to go there for the arts program before she had been accepted into the skating school. They had literally bumped into each other. When he bumped into her he was with a bunch of friends so he turned his head to apologise. That is when their gazes met. He had been captured by her, and she had fallen in love with him at first sight. He ditched his friends and continued to talk to her, and she separted from her mother. They talked all day and they knew they just had to be together. Since then they had been trying to find a way for him to get to Dastern. Finally he was able to get there. Out of luck or fate, his dad was work was transferred over. When James told everyone Cole wanted to come and so he did. His parents were fine with it and James was pretty cool about having a friend come with him. So James and his family with Cole moved up to Dastern.
Things had changed with Cole too. As soon as Lilly had left Caldestien he wanted to change. Before he was a scrony skater boy. Now he was a full out punk skater. He changed his whole image. His hair now curved around his hat, instead of flipping out at crazy angles. He also was not all legs anymore. He had muscles. All in all he was your typical hot skater boy. Since he had changed many girls had been wanting to be his girlfriend, but he had turned them all down. In his heart there was only one girl, that girl was Lilly.
Allesh's WW snipit
Omd omdomdomd Edward Cullen just popped up out of no where
I mean omd he is here in my living room and he is sitting on the couch and looking at me with intentful eyes
He is so amazing hot and so cool..i absolutely love him. After a couple of minutes the rest of the Cullen family starts to appear slowly. First alice, then esme, then roseali and emmetn and lastly jasper and Carlisle. As i stare at their amazing beauty i looked at them all and said “someone is missing” and Edward gave me his sexy smile and said “oh she knows” and turned to his family and nodded. They all looked at me and then slowly Edward made his way to my side “ oh and the person your thinking about is not bella..it’s you” as i looked at him so shocked i couldn’t move. And i heard a little chuckle come from the Cullen clan. A braced my self for the pain that will be inflicted to my throat and i closed my eyes tightly thinking that it will be over in no time. As i opened my eyes widely, i see the Cullen family and i looked around. Everything seemed to be sharper than usual. I thought i had my contacts in so i got up and went to the bathroom. “what WHY CAN I SEE SO VIVDLEY, I DONT HAVE MY CONTACTS” Edward had followed me into the bathroom and said “well dear Allesha you don’t need to have contacts anymore” i looked at him wide eyed and i stared at myself in the mirror. I was amazed at what i saw. I saw an amazingly beautiful girl. And this girl had all the features of Allesha Narine, but she was really amazing. And then shock crossed over me once more as i realized that the girl staring at me is...ALLESHA. i let out a low gasp and then i looked at Edward. I walked out of the bathroom and into my family room. I looked at the rest of the cullen’s and thought to myself that maybe this is my fate. As i left my house unknowing of what the world had for me..edward took his hand in mine and we both flitted across the lawn and away from my old life.
As we walked past many trees, i knew that i was way to far away from home to even go back now.
I mean omd he is here in my living room and he is sitting on the couch and looking at me with intentful eyes
He is so amazing hot and so cool..i absolutely love him. After a couple of minutes the rest of the Cullen family starts to appear slowly. First alice, then esme, then roseali and emmetn and lastly jasper and Carlisle. As i stare at their amazing beauty i looked at them all and said “someone is missing” and Edward gave me his sexy smile and said “oh she knows” and turned to his family and nodded. They all looked at me and then slowly Edward made his way to my side “ oh and the person your thinking about is not bella..it’s you” as i looked at him so shocked i couldn’t move. And i heard a little chuckle come from the Cullen clan. A braced my self for the pain that will be inflicted to my throat and i closed my eyes tightly thinking that it will be over in no time. As i opened my eyes widely, i see the Cullen family and i looked around. Everything seemed to be sharper than usual. I thought i had my contacts in so i got up and went to the bathroom. “what WHY CAN I SEE SO VIVDLEY, I DONT HAVE MY CONTACTS” Edward had followed me into the bathroom and said “well dear Allesha you don’t need to have contacts anymore” i looked at him wide eyed and i stared at myself in the mirror. I was amazed at what i saw. I saw an amazingly beautiful girl. And this girl had all the features of Allesha Narine, but she was really amazing. And then shock crossed over me once more as i realized that the girl staring at me is...ALLESHA. i let out a low gasp and then i looked at Edward. I walked out of the bathroom and into my family room. I looked at the rest of the cullen’s and thought to myself that maybe this is my fate. As i left my house unknowing of what the world had for me..edward took his hand in mine and we both flitted across the lawn and away from my old life.
As we walked past many trees, i knew that i was way to far away from home to even go back now.
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
The Winter
She sat at her window looking out. The cold winter had sent a harsh storm but it all just added to the beauty. The snow, the pure white snow, was so gentle and soft but so dangerous and evil. The storm would stop in a couple hours and it would be a winter wonderland. All the children would go out and play in the new fallen snow. She would not be one of them. She was stuck, trapped, inside this house. All she could do was look out. She had never felt the snow on her face, never made a snowball, nor felt the cold go through her gloves, and she never would.
Twins
She walked down that runway like she owned it. The crowd had all come to see her. the new beauty that had erupted on the fashion scene with her blazing red hair and bright green eyes and a body most girls would die for. She was the star. The talk of the fashion world and it was her premier fashion show and it looked like she had been born walking on a runway.
The theme of the night’s show was army gear and eathy colours. The first time round she was wearing a camouflage army hat, olive coloured short shorts, a bullet proof vest that showed her cleavage for all to see, and knee high boots that were deadly in the right hands, or feet. She went behind the curtains as the other models did their walks as well. She came out again this time in a foreign army outfit. Looked like it was from the middle east. If any other girl had been wearing it the outfit would look like rags but on her she was an army goddess. By the end of the show everyone knew of her, the newbie who has been taking over the fashion industry and about her talent. Her talent that surpassed everyone else’s except for maybe the top few models. Where had she been for so many years, some could only wonder.
There was a standing ovation at the end for the designer and also her. Many agencies would be swarming around her soon, but she would say nothing, smile and walk away. She would appear only when she did and no one knew when. Her own agency she worked for could not control when and where she worked. Who was she? She was my twin sister. The one I was enslaved to from birth. From beauty, brains, looks, and pretty much any good points, she had them. Me, I was left with nothing. Nothing, nada, zilch, zero. Al I could do was when she didn't want to deal with the world she would tell me to step and I would obediently follow what she told me to do. Most people would get away from the oppression I felt but as I said, enslaved from birth.
When we were kids, most likely when we were 2 she stared to walk and talk before me. I just sat there on the carpet watching her and cheering her on in my baby noises. As we grew up she started to order me to do things. I had always thought of her as superior so I followed what she wanted. If she wanted me somewhere, I was there, and if she didn’t, I was gone. I didn't mind much when I was small but when we started to go to school then I wanted freedom. But freedom I did not get. She found multiple ways to oppress me. From making my life miserable if I didn't want to follow her ways or making my life a dream if I did and if I didn't obey her rip my dreams to pieces. So I learned my lesson after grade 3. That’s pretty much when I stopped trying to gain freedom. Of course our parents didn't care about me. I was the second born one. The dumb one. The not as pretty one, although we were identical. I was just always duller and more transparent whenever I was with my sister. I had multiple thoughts of running away, but by then I knew if I ran away no one would miss me, except maybe my sister who would miss the free service. Yeah, most people would say I was a no body. I was just copy of the better, more genuine original sister. Or in other words, defective.
A year ago my sister announced to everyone she wanted to go into modeling. Before that she had been doing almost every sport imaginable and excelled in all of them. So when she had announced she wanted to model everyone knew she would do amazing, maybe even more than amazing. I also knew I would be the one tending to all her needs and wants. so when she appeared on the fashion scene 2 months ago she hit it big. In a matter of days. She went from giving her picture out to a local newspaper to having agencies knocking on our door. Then she got an offer for a world renowned designer for a fashion show we knew she was going to be a super model and rule the fashion world.
After that first show traveling was all we knew. Well technically, traveling, fashion shows, photo shoots, restaurant food, magazine and talk show interviews was all we knew. We never stayed in one place for more than a week I think. I was always put told to stay at the hotel or something like that. “Anywhere out of sight.” Were her exact words. She did not want anyone to know she had a twin and she would kill me if someone found out.
She didn't know that I secretly practiced modeling in the hotel room when she was gone on a job or just not there in general. I never slept much too so I practiced then also.
The theme of the night’s show was army gear and eathy colours. The first time round she was wearing a camouflage army hat, olive coloured short shorts, a bullet proof vest that showed her cleavage for all to see, and knee high boots that were deadly in the right hands, or feet. She went behind the curtains as the other models did their walks as well. She came out again this time in a foreign army outfit. Looked like it was from the middle east. If any other girl had been wearing it the outfit would look like rags but on her she was an army goddess. By the end of the show everyone knew of her, the newbie who has been taking over the fashion industry and about her talent. Her talent that surpassed everyone else’s except for maybe the top few models. Where had she been for so many years, some could only wonder.
There was a standing ovation at the end for the designer and also her. Many agencies would be swarming around her soon, but she would say nothing, smile and walk away. She would appear only when she did and no one knew when. Her own agency she worked for could not control when and where she worked. Who was she? She was my twin sister. The one I was enslaved to from birth. From beauty, brains, looks, and pretty much any good points, she had them. Me, I was left with nothing. Nothing, nada, zilch, zero. Al I could do was when she didn't want to deal with the world she would tell me to step and I would obediently follow what she told me to do. Most people would get away from the oppression I felt but as I said, enslaved from birth.
When we were kids, most likely when we were 2 she stared to walk and talk before me. I just sat there on the carpet watching her and cheering her on in my baby noises. As we grew up she started to order me to do things. I had always thought of her as superior so I followed what she wanted. If she wanted me somewhere, I was there, and if she didn’t, I was gone. I didn't mind much when I was small but when we started to go to school then I wanted freedom. But freedom I did not get. She found multiple ways to oppress me. From making my life miserable if I didn't want to follow her ways or making my life a dream if I did and if I didn't obey her rip my dreams to pieces. So I learned my lesson after grade 3. That’s pretty much when I stopped trying to gain freedom. Of course our parents didn't care about me. I was the second born one. The dumb one. The not as pretty one, although we were identical. I was just always duller and more transparent whenever I was with my sister. I had multiple thoughts of running away, but by then I knew if I ran away no one would miss me, except maybe my sister who would miss the free service. Yeah, most people would say I was a no body. I was just copy of the better, more genuine original sister. Or in other words, defective.
A year ago my sister announced to everyone she wanted to go into modeling. Before that she had been doing almost every sport imaginable and excelled in all of them. So when she had announced she wanted to model everyone knew she would do amazing, maybe even more than amazing. I also knew I would be the one tending to all her needs and wants. so when she appeared on the fashion scene 2 months ago she hit it big. In a matter of days. She went from giving her picture out to a local newspaper to having agencies knocking on our door. Then she got an offer for a world renowned designer for a fashion show we knew she was going to be a super model and rule the fashion world.
After that first show traveling was all we knew. Well technically, traveling, fashion shows, photo shoots, restaurant food, magazine and talk show interviews was all we knew. We never stayed in one place for more than a week I think. I was always put told to stay at the hotel or something like that. “Anywhere out of sight.” Were her exact words. She did not want anyone to know she had a twin and she would kill me if someone found out.
She didn't know that I secretly practiced modeling in the hotel room when she was gone on a job or just not there in general. I never slept much too so I practiced then also.
Hard Work
As the day wore on I could feel the weight on my back, the dryness of my lips, the strain on my shoulder and the throbbing pain in my head. All I wanted to do was sit down, but I couldn’t I had to work. If I didn’t work how could I face him. He who was the one I lived for but paid no attention to me. the least I could do was help him in any way I could, and if I could then I would be happy.
The air was filled with the smell of oil. The noise was past a roar. My head couldn’t take it. Where did I put those earplugs? I reached over to my bag to get them when my foot slipped. I fell, and fast. I closed my eyes, I would hit the floor any second now but I could care less. If I hit the floor the noise would stop and I could finally rest in peace. I felt something close around my arm and my feet regain it’s balance. who just stopped me from going into a nice sleep? I swivelled around to see the new worker looking at me with worry.
“Are you alright?” he asked.
“I’m just fine.” I grumbled back.
Now that I was fine I could no longer think about falling asleep. But I did. This is my third and final part-time today. Oh how I can’t wait to go to bed.
The air was filled with the smell of oil. The noise was past a roar. My head couldn’t take it. Where did I put those earplugs? I reached over to my bag to get them when my foot slipped. I fell, and fast. I closed my eyes, I would hit the floor any second now but I could care less. If I hit the floor the noise would stop and I could finally rest in peace. I felt something close around my arm and my feet regain it’s balance. who just stopped me from going into a nice sleep? I swivelled around to see the new worker looking at me with worry.
“Are you alright?” he asked.
“I’m just fine.” I grumbled back.
Now that I was fine I could no longer think about falling asleep. But I did. This is my third and final part-time today. Oh how I can’t wait to go to bed.
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