Side Story: Spaghetti Monster
As I was waking up ithought, ah what a wonderful morning. It was such a beautiful day, the sun was shining, the sjy was a clear blue, and some clouds were scattered across the skies. I could hear the morning nirds chirping and the morning breeze drifted through my open window. What a wonder ful day, I was thinking whne I realised it was that day. The day of the destruction of man, the day the devils runs me over, the day I am cursed. Yes today was Thursday. It was band. I groaned out loud, as though I controlled the weather, when I looked out side al I could see was gloomy skies, cloudy weather, and waht looked to be approaching rain clouds. All because of band.
So I dragged my self to get ready for school. Those kids, I thought, they always find a way to get on my nerves, penguins, flying books, prolonged abseneces. And one of my best students are absent. She the only one who keeps me sane. I sghed again and headed to the bathroom.
I got out of the bathroom all clean and washed. My hair smelled nice, and I had used my favourite soap, but nothing could cheer me up. All I could think about was what was waiting for me at school. I got dressed. Today I wore a pair of black dress pants, like usual, and a green stripy shirt, vertical stripes of course, horizontal stripes make me look fat. I grabbed a coat and headed downstairs to get some breakfast.
My wife was waiting for me downstairs which was most likely going to be best part of my day. She had made ham and chiken omlet, she had squirted a heart onto my omlet like I always like and a mug of coffee was steaming hot beside my plate. I went over and lightly kissed her and then sat down to eat.
As I was eating I bit something and heard a crunch. I spit out was was in my mouth onto a napkin. Red bood and a tooth among half chewed and mushed up egg. I then felt the pain in my mouth.
“mmmy fooff fuf fel ouw,” I said though I sounded like an idiot. What I was trying to say was that my tooth just fell out. My wife looked at me funny then saw the blood and ran upstairs. She was no help, hs ehas a weak stomach so I guess she could not handle the sight.
My mouth was relaly in pain now. I went over to the sink and filled a glass with cold water. I started to rinse my mouth. All the water turned redish. So much blood from just one tooth. I figured I should just go to the dentist and get it checked out. It dawned on me that I would get to put off on seeing those brats.
I got ht ephone and calledmy dentist. The response I go tfrom the secretary shocked me. My dentist was on vacation and all appointments for him were scheduled to another dentist. I sighed for the fourth time today and just agreed to have the other dentist see me. I was told ot come in at 9, so I had a bit of time to spare befor ei had to go. Now that my tooth had just came out I could not eat my omlet amymore, but looking at my omlet made me wonder jus what had casued my tooth to fall out. I broke open my omelette and found some hard grey things. What were they I had no clue, and I did not really want to find out so I left it as that. When the dentist would ask how it happened ill just say that I tripped on the stairs.
I went over to get my caot and as I picked it up I heard a rip. I
I went and got my caot from the chair I had placed it on and headed out the door. I yelled ot my wife I was leaving and she yelled back have a nice day. I wonder when she would go back downstairs because I left quite a bit of blood in the sink. I ha dalso stuffed some tissues in my mouth to help stop the bleeding. It was not working very well. The tissues were getting soaked up just as it would it you ran water over it. So much blood loss, will I even live. Was what I was thinking as I changed the tissues again.
I drove over to the dentist office and walked in. I then remembered that I had to call in late. I reached down to my coat pocket and found no phone. Where is my cell. I reached my hand farther into my pocket and my hand went straight through. A HOLE!!! I groaned and sat in a plop on the nearest chair. First my tooth then my phone, and I still had band to put up with.
As I was sitting in despair the secretary called my over.
“Mr. Clastivolviotoni,” the secretary tired to say but messed up like everyone does. “right this way, Dr, Hedwick will see you shortly.
I followed her to a small room downa hallway and to the right of the desk. Room 112. I sat on the dentist chair and looked around. The window still showed no signs of happieness or tranquility. What a sucky day.
I was dwelling on the fact that my life sucked when dr. Hedwick walked in. It was a lady. My dentist had always been a man so having a lady for a dentist was a surprise.
Dr. Hedwick was a newer recruit to the office. Still some what young but had a glint of curiousness in her eyes. She wanted to learn and I could tell, teacher’s sense you could say. But something in her eyes also mad eme fear her. maybe she wanted to learn a bit too badly. Her voice was calm and soothing but those eyes. They could pierce right through you if you weren’t careful. She asked me what I need to be fixed an told her the whoel story I had made up in the ride here. I said I was rushing to get ot work then tripped and fell on the stairs and hit my jaw on the railing and my tooth fell out. She noted what I said and told me to open my mouth. With a slight bit of hesitating I did. She examined my mouth and picked up a drill. I panicked and closed my mouth. She chuckled and told me I was acting like a kid and ordered me to open my mouth again. With more hesitation this time I eventually did.
I had a really bad feeling about this. As she brought the drill closer to my mouth I cringed.
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
Thursday, April 1, 2010
NANO 2008 Chapter 5
LOVE TRIANGLES AND MESSED UP THOUGHTS
Satuday October 7, in dorm, before breakfast,
Yesterday as I rushed to practice almost collided with some guys. I thought I recognised one of them. They looked so familiar. Oh well I probably will not see them again. Oh my gosh. I almost lost my journal yesterday. I had left it in the dorm and someone could have fully taken it and read it. Thankfully no one did. So I have to be more careful now.
I am still very sleepy. I think I am going to go back to bed. Goddnight, or would it be good morning. I will just say good bed. Sleep time.
~*~
As Lilly woke up she relised that her journal ws gone. “hey! Who took my journal!” yelled Lilly when she woke up. She woke up everyone else.
“why are you yelling?” Alyssa asked groggily.
“I can not find my journal!” Lilly yelled again. She was spazing now. She coullld not find it. “I remember writing in it this morning. Then I went to bed. . . ” Lilly suddenly gasped. “Oh no! I left it on the desk some one could have come in and taken it. Oh why is this happening to me.” she put head in her hands.
Anna was just getting back from running with Trevor. “hey! What is going on. Why is everyone so uptight. And why is Lilly tearing up the room?”
“she lost her journal.” Phoebe said. “she is really paranoid about her journal. No one has ever read it. Even Kory has only read like a page.”
“wow. Here we will all help you find it.” Anna said reassuringly. “come on everyone it has to be here somewhere.”
“Thanx everyone. I do not know what I would do with out you guys.” Lily said gratefully.
So they searched and searched. They turned the room upside down, quite literally. They called Kory over to help so six of them were looking for the journal. Lilly, Kory, Ayssa, Brittany, phoebe, and Anna. Tatiana just sat there on her bed ooking quite amused at their findings of nothing.
“you know I bet some one has already taken it and left the premisis.” Tatiana announced, “And before you guys balme me I would like to say that I did not take it. I was out the whole morning with my boyfriend. He just got here. He used to live in Caldestien. He moved all the way here for me. you could even ask him and he would say it was true.”
At the word Caldestian Lilly froze. “did you just say Caldestien?”
“yes I did, but I doubt any of you lower class people have ever heard of that city. It is all the way in Alberta. Very nice place, I was suppose to go to a school there for the arts program. That is where I met him.” Tatiana replied.
Kory was the next one to freeze. “You did not just say Caldestien in Alberta did you.” Kory interrogated.
“I did and why are you so interested in Caldestien?” Tatiana said questioningly, “my boyfriend is coming up later with his friend. I will be leaving with them. I do not care what or where you lost your stupid journal just do not mess up my part of the room.”
Kory and Lilly looked each other thinking the same thing. Who could Tatiana be dating? And did they know him. And who was his friend. The shook it off and decided they probably did not know the guys. They had probably gone to the boarding school north of the city and had nothing to do with them.
“fine” said Kory and Lilly in unison.
Tatiana left about ten minutes later, and none of the girls looking for the journal noticed who Tatiana’s boyfriend and friend was. Even though the two guys noticed the girls.
~*~
“Yo Cole. Was that just Kory and Lilly in there?” James asked Cole.
Before Cole had a chance to answer Taiana butted in, “Wait. How do you guys know thoses two losers?”
“So they are Kory and Lilly? Sweet I did not think that I we would find them this fast.” James exclaimed, Cole and James hi fived.
Tatiana stoped in front of them, “you still have not answered my question. How do you guys know them?”
“oh Lilly and Kory. They are our old friends. They are from Caldestien. We both liked Lilly at a point. Well actually James still likes Lilly. I do not like her anymore only as a friend I have some one more special. You.” Cole answered as he wraped his arms around Tatiana.
Tatiana shook him off, “you liked her. . . both of you. Unbelieveable. What do you guys see in her. She is so. . . I do not know but I do not get what is so good about her that everyone like her. Whatever as long as you do not go back to her I am good” Tatianna replied haughtingly.
“Do not worry baby, I only have you in my eyes.” Cole said sweetly and began to gently kiss Tatiana.
James was beginning to feel awkward so he took his leave saying, “I will leave you to love birds alone. I will catch up with you guys later.” With that said James left Cole and Tatiana and began to wander around the halls hoping to bump into Lilly.
~*~
“No! It is not anywhere in this room. Some one really did take it!” Lilly said despratly. The six of them, Lilly, Kory, Alyssa, Phoebe, Brittany, and Anna, had searched the room the whole morning. After a while Anna had left to go hang out with trevor and Kory had planned to meet with some of her room mates to go to the movies.
So Lilly, Ayssa, Phoebe and Brittany sat on the floor of their dorm tired of tearing the room apart. Lilly was on the verge of tears. It was her mmost precious belonging. The thing closest to her heart. All her feelings. Ups and downs. Raves and complaints. Compliments and laughs. If anyone read it then they would know her most iner thoughts. And some of Kory’s. . . .
“maybe some one did take it. We can go ask people if they see it around not to read it and just give it back to you?” Brittany suggested.
“yeah let us split up and go outside I think we all need some fresh air.” Alyssa said.
So the four girls split into towo groups. Phoebe ans Brittany and Lillt and Alyssa.
~*~
“so do you think some one could have read it already?” Lilly asked paranoid.
‘No I do not think so. Maybe some one took it in a rush to get some book or somthing?” Alyssa lied to keep her friend from worrying too much.
So the two girls walked around the campus telling and asking everyone if they had seen or seen some one with Lilly’s journal. Some said they might have but probably did not. Some were sure they did not and some people just ignored them.
Soon time for luch came. So they met back up with freys and Brittany to compare findings. They had not ofund anything. So they went to the cafe and sat at their usual table.
Mr. Blank had wanted to make an announcement so everyone had began to take seats and sit quietly. Just as mr. Blank was about to speak the doors brust open. Like in a movie, the people brusting through the doors were spotlighted and all eyes were on them. The people coming in. . . were none other than Tatiana and she had brought her boyfriend.
~*~
Tatiana and Cole had been walking when the met up with James again. It was lunch time so they wanted to head back. The were late when they brust through the doors.
Tatiana had her arms by her side and Coles arm over her shoulder. They looked lke a real couple. Many people were shocked. Tariana had a boyfriend? But as the third person walked in all eyes went to him.
Girls sat there mouths gaping open. The guy that had walked in was none other than James. Tjough he was a skated boy he was a different type of skater than all the people in the cafe. The guy all loked at him with digust whisphering among themselves about why he was there.
Lilly had noticed Cole and Tatianna first. As she ran to go talk to Tatianna and ask why she was with Cole she tripped over a bench and fell.
“thanx for the hand” Lilly said dusting herself off. She had not yet noticed who she had helped her up.
“Lilly?”
Lilly looked up. When she did she saw a guy that looked familiar but yet so different. He had reminded her of James back from Caldestien but she had shaken that thought away knowin he can not possibly be in Dastern. But on second thought she thought to herself what if he had come with Cole?
“Is that you James? Llly questioned waringly. She did not know who he was and she was a bit creeped out.
“Lily it is you! And you recognize me.” James exclaimed
“James. How come your here? And you have changed a lot. But wait I have to talk to tatianna. And that is Cole with her is not it?”
Yes it is me. Lilly.” Cole said from behond her.
Lilly jumped. She did not relise that cole was right behind her. She turned to Tatiana who had a look of digust on her face. Clearly not happy with the fact that her boyfriend knew Lilly. And was actually friends with her.
“I can not believe you guys actually know her.” Tatianna said in disgust. “and you guys actually liked her. Oh wait James you still do like her”
At that comment James blushed and turned away from Lilly who was now lookinh at him.
Oblivious of what was suppose to happen mr. Blank interrupted. “umm. . . excuse me but could you ladies and gentlemen please sit and have your conversation later after I make my announcement.”
The four heads turned at that. They had forgotten that hey were in the cafe and there was suppose to be an aniuncement.
“sorry.” They all mumble not quite in unison.
They sat down. After the anoucnement they ate their lunches at their separate clique tables and did not talk to eacdh other til anftewards.
~*~
After lunch Cole, James, and Lilly were talking non-stop. They had been away from each other for a month or so and so much had changed.
“so your parents moved here and you came too. And you were already dating Taiana at the time?” llly questioned cole.
“yeah. And James wanted to come too. And his parents said yes so my parents were fine with it.” Cole answered. “I think he came because you were here.” Cole whispehered to Lilly.
Lilly blushed.
“okay ebogh you guys. I can not stand this. I have not liked Lilly since day one. And I am not spending an entire day with her. I will be in my dorm cole. Come find me when you are done talking to this loser.” Tatianna said hautingly. She marched off.
“why does she hate me so much?” Lilly asked.
James finally spoke do you not know? Her father is the richest man in Manitoba. And her mother passed away 4 years ago. She is used to getting whatever she wants. Her father is always traveling so she does not get any attention from him. She only get spoiled. And by the way what did happen on the first day that made her hate you?”
“oh. I had arrived earlyier than her and took the middle bottm bunk bed. And she wanted it so she tossed all my stuff on a different bed and said it was hers now. So I felt offened and took all her stuff and threw it out the door. Then I pushed her off the bed and lied down on the bed. And my room mates Alyssa and Brittany had agreed with me about the bed and sat on the bed with me bscking me up.” Lilly replied :thats pretty much what happened.”
Cole laughed “oh so thats what happened. I htough something like thsat probably had happened if it concerned you. You were always very protective of your stuff,”
Lilly gasped. “I forgot. I lost my journal. You guys have to help me find it!”
Whar does it look like?” James asked. Even though he wanted to talk to Lilly alone and about other stuff he would help he.
“it has this realy cool asian design. You know the bok Kory got me in the summer. Right before we left. I showed it to you guys.”
Oh yeah. I remember now. I think I saw Tatiana with something that looked lke it. But I do not think she stole it.” Cole said
Either way let us ask her
So the three of them made their way to the dorm and when they opened the door there was a fight going on.
Whoa whats happening? Cole yeled over th din
She has Lilly journal Brittany replied
And she said shwe didn’t take it freys yelled
Its mmine. I bought this a week ago tatoanna argued angrily
If its your prove it ayssa arugued back
Fine I will tatianna said
So they all gathered around tatianna and tatianna opened the book. And. . . IT WAS TATIANNA’S!
Sry tstianna we all thought it was you cause you have a grudge against Lilly and well we do not know anyone else with the same type of book.” Phoebe admitted shyly
Just get your all your grubby hands away from me and my stuff tatianna said offended
Tatianna left the room and cole went with her. Lilly sat down on her bed and sighed. Sad that the problem revolving around her journal was not solved yet. that also left James in the room full of girls.
“hey whos he” Alyssa whisphered to Lilly
Yeah who is he he is really cute” Brittany said joining in.
Hey introduce us will you phoebe pestered.
Fine’ Lilly said finnaly “James meet phoebe, Alyssa, and Brittany. They all think that you are either cute or hot.” And lily sat back down on the bed sighing again.
James blused and said hi to all of them. They all sqeeled and went to whispher about him on aylssas bed.
“Its ok Lilly we will find your journal soon.” James said reassuringly. “I will not stop till I do. How does that sound.”
“Would you really. I know you like me still and all but would you really?” Lilly said brightening up a little.
“Yeah I will anything for you”
“Thanx” and Lilly wrapped her arms around him and rested her shoulder on his. James enjoyed this moment for he could comfort the one he loved at the time she needed him. He held her tight and thought if only he could keep her there . warm and safe.
Satuday October 7, in dorm, before breakfast,
Yesterday as I rushed to practice almost collided with some guys. I thought I recognised one of them. They looked so familiar. Oh well I probably will not see them again. Oh my gosh. I almost lost my journal yesterday. I had left it in the dorm and someone could have fully taken it and read it. Thankfully no one did. So I have to be more careful now.
I am still very sleepy. I think I am going to go back to bed. Goddnight, or would it be good morning. I will just say good bed. Sleep time.
~*~
As Lilly woke up she relised that her journal ws gone. “hey! Who took my journal!” yelled Lilly when she woke up. She woke up everyone else.
“why are you yelling?” Alyssa asked groggily.
“I can not find my journal!” Lilly yelled again. She was spazing now. She coullld not find it. “I remember writing in it this morning. Then I went to bed. . . ” Lilly suddenly gasped. “Oh no! I left it on the desk some one could have come in and taken it. Oh why is this happening to me.” she put head in her hands.
Anna was just getting back from running with Trevor. “hey! What is going on. Why is everyone so uptight. And why is Lilly tearing up the room?”
“she lost her journal.” Phoebe said. “she is really paranoid about her journal. No one has ever read it. Even Kory has only read like a page.”
“wow. Here we will all help you find it.” Anna said reassuringly. “come on everyone it has to be here somewhere.”
“Thanx everyone. I do not know what I would do with out you guys.” Lily said gratefully.
So they searched and searched. They turned the room upside down, quite literally. They called Kory over to help so six of them were looking for the journal. Lilly, Kory, Ayssa, Brittany, phoebe, and Anna. Tatiana just sat there on her bed ooking quite amused at their findings of nothing.
“you know I bet some one has already taken it and left the premisis.” Tatiana announced, “And before you guys balme me I would like to say that I did not take it. I was out the whole morning with my boyfriend. He just got here. He used to live in Caldestien. He moved all the way here for me. you could even ask him and he would say it was true.”
At the word Caldestian Lilly froze. “did you just say Caldestien?”
“yes I did, but I doubt any of you lower class people have ever heard of that city. It is all the way in Alberta. Very nice place, I was suppose to go to a school there for the arts program. That is where I met him.” Tatiana replied.
Kory was the next one to freeze. “You did not just say Caldestien in Alberta did you.” Kory interrogated.
“I did and why are you so interested in Caldestien?” Tatiana said questioningly, “my boyfriend is coming up later with his friend. I will be leaving with them. I do not care what or where you lost your stupid journal just do not mess up my part of the room.”
Kory and Lilly looked each other thinking the same thing. Who could Tatiana be dating? And did they know him. And who was his friend. The shook it off and decided they probably did not know the guys. They had probably gone to the boarding school north of the city and had nothing to do with them.
“fine” said Kory and Lilly in unison.
Tatiana left about ten minutes later, and none of the girls looking for the journal noticed who Tatiana’s boyfriend and friend was. Even though the two guys noticed the girls.
~*~
“Yo Cole. Was that just Kory and Lilly in there?” James asked Cole.
Before Cole had a chance to answer Taiana butted in, “Wait. How do you guys know thoses two losers?”
“So they are Kory and Lilly? Sweet I did not think that I we would find them this fast.” James exclaimed, Cole and James hi fived.
Tatiana stoped in front of them, “you still have not answered my question. How do you guys know them?”
“oh Lilly and Kory. They are our old friends. They are from Caldestien. We both liked Lilly at a point. Well actually James still likes Lilly. I do not like her anymore only as a friend I have some one more special. You.” Cole answered as he wraped his arms around Tatiana.
Tatiana shook him off, “you liked her. . . both of you. Unbelieveable. What do you guys see in her. She is so. . . I do not know but I do not get what is so good about her that everyone like her. Whatever as long as you do not go back to her I am good” Tatianna replied haughtingly.
“Do not worry baby, I only have you in my eyes.” Cole said sweetly and began to gently kiss Tatiana.
James was beginning to feel awkward so he took his leave saying, “I will leave you to love birds alone. I will catch up with you guys later.” With that said James left Cole and Tatiana and began to wander around the halls hoping to bump into Lilly.
~*~
“No! It is not anywhere in this room. Some one really did take it!” Lilly said despratly. The six of them, Lilly, Kory, Alyssa, Phoebe, Brittany, and Anna, had searched the room the whole morning. After a while Anna had left to go hang out with trevor and Kory had planned to meet with some of her room mates to go to the movies.
So Lilly, Ayssa, Phoebe and Brittany sat on the floor of their dorm tired of tearing the room apart. Lilly was on the verge of tears. It was her mmost precious belonging. The thing closest to her heart. All her feelings. Ups and downs. Raves and complaints. Compliments and laughs. If anyone read it then they would know her most iner thoughts. And some of Kory’s. . . .
“maybe some one did take it. We can go ask people if they see it around not to read it and just give it back to you?” Brittany suggested.
“yeah let us split up and go outside I think we all need some fresh air.” Alyssa said.
So the four girls split into towo groups. Phoebe ans Brittany and Lillt and Alyssa.
~*~
“so do you think some one could have read it already?” Lilly asked paranoid.
‘No I do not think so. Maybe some one took it in a rush to get some book or somthing?” Alyssa lied to keep her friend from worrying too much.
So the two girls walked around the campus telling and asking everyone if they had seen or seen some one with Lilly’s journal. Some said they might have but probably did not. Some were sure they did not and some people just ignored them.
Soon time for luch came. So they met back up with freys and Brittany to compare findings. They had not ofund anything. So they went to the cafe and sat at their usual table.
Mr. Blank had wanted to make an announcement so everyone had began to take seats and sit quietly. Just as mr. Blank was about to speak the doors brust open. Like in a movie, the people brusting through the doors were spotlighted and all eyes were on them. The people coming in. . . were none other than Tatiana and she had brought her boyfriend.
~*~
Tatiana and Cole had been walking when the met up with James again. It was lunch time so they wanted to head back. The were late when they brust through the doors.
Tatiana had her arms by her side and Coles arm over her shoulder. They looked lke a real couple. Many people were shocked. Tariana had a boyfriend? But as the third person walked in all eyes went to him.
Girls sat there mouths gaping open. The guy that had walked in was none other than James. Tjough he was a skated boy he was a different type of skater than all the people in the cafe. The guy all loked at him with digust whisphering among themselves about why he was there.
Lilly had noticed Cole and Tatianna first. As she ran to go talk to Tatianna and ask why she was with Cole she tripped over a bench and fell.
“thanx for the hand” Lilly said dusting herself off. She had not yet noticed who she had helped her up.
“Lilly?”
Lilly looked up. When she did she saw a guy that looked familiar but yet so different. He had reminded her of James back from Caldestien but she had shaken that thought away knowin he can not possibly be in Dastern. But on second thought she thought to herself what if he had come with Cole?
“Is that you James? Llly questioned waringly. She did not know who he was and she was a bit creeped out.
“Lily it is you! And you recognize me.” James exclaimed
“James. How come your here? And you have changed a lot. But wait I have to talk to tatianna. And that is Cole with her is not it?”
Yes it is me. Lilly.” Cole said from behond her.
Lilly jumped. She did not relise that cole was right behind her. She turned to Tatiana who had a look of digust on her face. Clearly not happy with the fact that her boyfriend knew Lilly. And was actually friends with her.
“I can not believe you guys actually know her.” Tatianna said in disgust. “and you guys actually liked her. Oh wait James you still do like her”
At that comment James blushed and turned away from Lilly who was now lookinh at him.
Oblivious of what was suppose to happen mr. Blank interrupted. “umm. . . excuse me but could you ladies and gentlemen please sit and have your conversation later after I make my announcement.”
The four heads turned at that. They had forgotten that hey were in the cafe and there was suppose to be an aniuncement.
“sorry.” They all mumble not quite in unison.
They sat down. After the anoucnement they ate their lunches at their separate clique tables and did not talk to eacdh other til anftewards.
~*~
After lunch Cole, James, and Lilly were talking non-stop. They had been away from each other for a month or so and so much had changed.
“so your parents moved here and you came too. And you were already dating Taiana at the time?” llly questioned cole.
“yeah. And James wanted to come too. And his parents said yes so my parents were fine with it.” Cole answered. “I think he came because you were here.” Cole whispehered to Lilly.
Lilly blushed.
“okay ebogh you guys. I can not stand this. I have not liked Lilly since day one. And I am not spending an entire day with her. I will be in my dorm cole. Come find me when you are done talking to this loser.” Tatianna said hautingly. She marched off.
“why does she hate me so much?” Lilly asked.
James finally spoke do you not know? Her father is the richest man in Manitoba. And her mother passed away 4 years ago. She is used to getting whatever she wants. Her father is always traveling so she does not get any attention from him. She only get spoiled. And by the way what did happen on the first day that made her hate you?”
“oh. I had arrived earlyier than her and took the middle bottm bunk bed. And she wanted it so she tossed all my stuff on a different bed and said it was hers now. So I felt offened and took all her stuff and threw it out the door. Then I pushed her off the bed and lied down on the bed. And my room mates Alyssa and Brittany had agreed with me about the bed and sat on the bed with me bscking me up.” Lilly replied :thats pretty much what happened.”
Cole laughed “oh so thats what happened. I htough something like thsat probably had happened if it concerned you. You were always very protective of your stuff,”
Lilly gasped. “I forgot. I lost my journal. You guys have to help me find it!”
Whar does it look like?” James asked. Even though he wanted to talk to Lilly alone and about other stuff he would help he.
“it has this realy cool asian design. You know the bok Kory got me in the summer. Right before we left. I showed it to you guys.”
Oh yeah. I remember now. I think I saw Tatiana with something that looked lke it. But I do not think she stole it.” Cole said
Either way let us ask her
So the three of them made their way to the dorm and when they opened the door there was a fight going on.
Whoa whats happening? Cole yeled over th din
She has Lilly journal Brittany replied
And she said shwe didn’t take it freys yelled
Its mmine. I bought this a week ago tatoanna argued angrily
If its your prove it ayssa arugued back
Fine I will tatianna said
So they all gathered around tatianna and tatianna opened the book. And. . . IT WAS TATIANNA’S!
Sry tstianna we all thought it was you cause you have a grudge against Lilly and well we do not know anyone else with the same type of book.” Phoebe admitted shyly
Just get your all your grubby hands away from me and my stuff tatianna said offended
Tatianna left the room and cole went with her. Lilly sat down on her bed and sighed. Sad that the problem revolving around her journal was not solved yet. that also left James in the room full of girls.
“hey whos he” Alyssa whisphered to Lilly
Yeah who is he he is really cute” Brittany said joining in.
Hey introduce us will you phoebe pestered.
Fine’ Lilly said finnaly “James meet phoebe, Alyssa, and Brittany. They all think that you are either cute or hot.” And lily sat back down on the bed sighing again.
James blused and said hi to all of them. They all sqeeled and went to whispher about him on aylssas bed.
“Its ok Lilly we will find your journal soon.” James said reassuringly. “I will not stop till I do. How does that sound.”
“Would you really. I know you like me still and all but would you really?” Lilly said brightening up a little.
“Yeah I will anything for you”
“Thanx” and Lilly wrapped her arms around him and rested her shoulder on his. James enjoyed this moment for he could comfort the one he loved at the time she needed him. He held her tight and thought if only he could keep her there . warm and safe.
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
NANO 2008 Chapter 4
Forgetting
Tueday, September 26, at night.
In one and a half days so much can happen. Ok first off yesterday.
Yesterday as normal I waited for prince to meet me by the tree. I waited, and waited. Anna had went and left with trevor already. So it ws just me. I almost went back to my dorm when he appeared. I was like “ where the hack were u I have been waiting for ages. I thought we were going to talk about trevor and Kory. They left already just to tell u.” And then he was all like, “I actually do not think they need any push. They are progressing their relationship nicely with out us.” I replied, “I guess that is true. Fine we will not interfere. But what shal we do today. Cause we are already here” and the next thing that happened almost put me in trauma (not literally, it was just too shocking). He said, “well. . . ” then some one called his name. “WANG ZI!!!!” this asian girl ran out of no where calling prince by his Chinese name and literally jumped onto him. Prince looked not at all surprised. He looked more annoyed. He kinda pried her off him and said gently, “ Angelina meet my friend Lilly.” The girl named Angelina kind of stared me uo and down. She looked at me with disgust. Then I asked prince, “who is she?” and prince was about to reply but then Angelina butted right in, “oh he is MY botfriend.” She started to wrap her arms around him, but prince shook her off. “stop” he said then he turned to me. “ I tried to come earlier but I got caught up with her” and he ionted to Angelina.
Everyone calls her Angelina, or angy for short. Her rea name is fang hua chung. she had long straight hair, straighter than mine and mine is really straight. In her hair there were blonde strazks that looked so good that I wanted to pul them right off her head. She was asian as well. Her boobs were bigger too. Drove me mad. She wore a short mini skirt and a tight blouse. She looked so cold but then she was able to cuddle with prince for a reason. Arg.
so I met her and she met me. And then she did something I hated. She wraped her arms around prince ( or tried because prince shook her off again) and said, “hey baby, I have to do some stuff at home. Can you come with me?” and she made this really annoying puppy dog face. Well probalby only annoying to me. And prince replied quite surprisingly since he was her “boy friend”. He said frustratingly it sounded, “fine. but I have to stay with Lilly for a bit we have to talk about something.” So she left looking sad and glanced over her sholder and scowled at me. Why is it everyone hates me.
So prince started talking to me again, which snapped me back from looking at Angelina. “sorry about that. So yeah she is my girl friend” he made a annoyed face at that said but I did not ask him about it. I was sad at that point. I was like, in my head obviously, no why does he have to have a girl friend. He should not be having one. I should be his. I like starred at him and turned around and started to walk away, parly because if he said anything or I did I was afraid I might cry. So I yelled behind me “ I got to go. I will talk to you later.” And I started torun. Ayron, yes I called him Ayron inmy journal can not bring my self to call him prince anymore. For he is some one elses. He called to me “wait! Lilly!” but I could not hear anything after that, I was too far away. I ran into my dorm and started to cyry. Everyone except tatiana was aorried about me but I did not say anything about what had happened.
So yeah. . .
today was such a bad day. And it was al because of Ayron. *sigh* it sucks. He and his girl friend angy has taken over my mind. All the thoughts about him are being slowy eaten away by the thought of Angelina. Whaaaahh! I want to be the one dating him. So unfair. In skating I could not do anything I was like in my own world. I did not hera anything said to me. I could not land a single jump and could not get any sense of balance doing my spins and when doing my field moves I kept falling over. Sooner of later some told me to get off the ice. Ny coach, soo min was so disappointed in me. She told me to get some rest and clear my mind of whats distracting it from good coaching. She told me not to go back on the ice till I was all sorted out. I thought that was harsh but now that I think of it I see the reason behind it. In classes I did not hear a single word my teachers said. In geograohy class my teacher called onme for a question and I did not hear and so I got sent to the office. You could just say I had a really bad day.
Now after school. . . Ayron showed up. . . with Angelina. I got all sad again when I saw them. I did not talk to them at all. Ayron could tell I was not my usual self cause I am ALWAYS talking. So I did not talk to them. Ayron tried to talk to me but I would not respond. I just could not just stand there and whatch them. So I left and went back to my tree. We had been haging out in the park nearby. So I went back to my tree. I was just about to writein my journal when Ayron appears out of nowhere. I though he was with Angelina. Or at least stay with her. But apparently he noticed that I was gone he said to Angelina that he was going to look for me. I wonder what was up tih that. So I ended up talking some more with Ayron , but then Angelina came and pulled him away. I think she was wondering why he ditched her for me. Because that swhat I was thinking a about. When they were talking I walked away casue I could not stand being near them and seeing them together, they seem like such acouple when they were talking. When I got back to the dorm I did not go in I went back outside and looked to see if they had went. Surprisingly Ayron was still there Angelina had left and he was waiting there. Was he looking for me?
Wow. its almost 1 in the morning I can not believe I have been writing this long. I am so sleepy now that I stopped writing. Well I better go to bed. I got class tomorrow. I ebt I still will not be able to concentrate becaue of what happened today. Well *yawn* I better *yawn* go to bed *yawn*. Good night.
Wednesday, September 27. Dorm, before dinner.
Well I refused to go to the tee today cause I could not bear seeing him. Today was exactly the same as yesterday. Now even my teachers are saying do not come to class till my thoughts are sorted out. So I have to sort them out. So I think I might go to the rink. I find it very comforting in the rink.
So I will take a trip to the rink. Be back soon.
Wednesday, September, 27, ice rink. Before dinner still
So now I am in the ice rink. I have to sort out my thoughts. Thats also why I did not go to my tree cause I know Ayron Is probably there. And I just can not deal with anymore strange behaviour. Ok so here goes for my organizing of my thoughts (in point form)
• Tatiana mess of emotions
• Tatiana hates me for some reason
• Tatiana will not accept my help what so ever
• Ayron hot asian guy
• Ayron=wang zi=prince
• Ayron has girlfriend
• Ayron girlfriend Angelina
• Anglelina=fang hua
• Ayron ditch Angelina for me
• Angelina mad?
• Ayrons liek me???????
• I have no clue what Ayron is thinking
• Me and Angelina do not get along
• Skating land double lutz
• Working on double axle
• Soo min is my coach
• Classes okay
• 83.3 average
• Past two days can not concentrate on anything cause brain is filled with junk about Ayron and Angelina
• have not seen mr. blank in a while.
• Mr. Blank’s daughter??
• Know her??
• Kory and Brendan
• Calvin haunting Kory
• Calvin coming back?
• ME AND AYRON????????????????????
There that is my list. Sucks huh. None of it makes much sense.
Oh, Dinner is done. I got to go eat. Talk to you later, bye bye.
Friday, September 29, in dorm, after dinner
I have not been seeing Ayron for the last 2 days. If I see him I will be confused even more because his actions the last time I saw him were so confusing. Also I would be sad because I hear Angelina has been following him everywhere and I can not stand them being together. I do not think I get him anymore. Any way. . . since I have not been seeing him I have regained some of my concentrartion. I can land my jumps almost all the time. Bit less than when I have all my concentration. And my school is going good. I am actually paying attention mow. And I answer the questions. I do zone out a bit but not for long. Like maybe 5 min or so. So all in all everything has been pretty steady.
Tatiana and I are still avoiding each other. And we have not talked since THAT night. I really do want to be friends with her though. I still do not get why she is so mean to me. I guess I will have to wait till she opens up to me.
So yeah . . . I have not seen mr. Blank in a while. I see him usually hanging around the rinks when ever I go to practice. And I say hi to him. But for like the past week I have not seen him. I wonder whats up with him. I should go find out. I think I will ask the coaches tomorrow. Cause all the coachs know who mr. Blank is. Hey and maybe the coaches know who his daughter is. Maybe if I can find his daughter I can find him. I shall ask tomorrow for sure.
Now . . . Kory has been seeing Brendan every single day now. And when ever she comes back she always talks to me about him for like an hour straight. I think they really do llike each other now. I wonder if they have told each other yet. I think I will ask Kory tonight. She should be comeing back soon. So I will write again when she comes back and finishes talking. For now I think I will practice some stretchs cause Ayron is starting to come back into my thoughts. Bye talk to you later
Friday, September, 29, after Kory has come and gone, in dorm.
So I asjed her and she turned a shade of red that was so red that a over ripe tomto could not beat her. So I got why answer from the look on her fac, it was a no. I asked her if she had noticed if he like her or not. And she said that she thought she did but did not want to be the person to ask. She wanted him to ask her on a date. So she was waiting. And in my head he was probably saying either that she did not like him or he was waiting for her. But ass she was talking I kept thinking of Ayron. I tried to shake the thoughts away but I just could not. I think I have really fallen in love with Ayron. Ohhhh. Why did I have to fall in love with the guy everyonr likes. Yeah I have heard that he is the most popular guy in his school. Everyone says that he is a guiness, he gets perfect on every single test! And I hear that everyone wants to be his girl friend, so when he finaly said yes to Angelina everyone was shocked because he had never ever ever gone out with a girl at school. They say that Angelina had loved him for 6 years before he said yes to be her girlfriend. And me, he has onky known for a month. Maybe in reality he does not like Angelina. But if he does not like her why would I think he likes me. *sigh* I just know that he does not like me. he probably only thinks of me as a friend when I think about him as sooo much more. Why oh why is it him that I like. *sigh*
Arg so now I will oly think of him as a friend. Well. . . i will try to. Probably not going to work. Like even noe I am thinking of him. Arg why is he so hard to forget. I think I will sleep on it. Arg I bet even when I sleep I will think of him. Ok. . . from now on I will avoid hm at all costs. And I will never go to that tree again because, most likely he is waiting for me there. At least that is what anna has been saying. Ok I will og to bed now. I have to put my whole heart, soul, body etc etc etc into not seeing him and not thinking about him. So. . . god noght. Bye.
thursday October 5, in class
I have been spending the ast few days trying not to think about Ayron. But it seems like one way or another he comes creeping back into my thoughts. Like I will be talking to someone and something they say or do would either relate to or remind me of him. And then the rest of the day I would be I a kind of limboish mood. Like today for example. I was talking to anna and then she said something about the tree and I completly forgot about what she was talking about and I thought about the tree and I wondered if Ayron was waiting for me there and my mind was like in its own little world. I was kind of in a funny mood after and everyone could tell. I htink they have already figured out that when ever I am like that it is about Ayron. Also on top of that thinga between Kory and bredan are not going very well. I htink it might have something to do with me and Ayron. Oh why does everything relate to me and him. I figured this out because Kory started making up lame excuses like she was tired or felt sick or that she forgot when I asked her why she does not come to my dorm and talk about her dates. And she has not been seeing him the past few days. It is so wierd that when everything was good it was really good but now that everything is bad evvverythin gis bad. Like I can not land my doubllle lutz anymore. Like why could I not have at least one good thing to keep.
I have decided to go back to the tree today. I have been there in like two weeks. Even if Ayron is there I will ignore him. I plan to bring my music and listen to it to drown him out. Wait I will not even notice if he is there because I will just go to the tree and sit ans read or something. And I WILL ignore him. Yeah that is right I am going to do this. . . . . . . . . . *sigh* h man, if I see Ayron with agelina because I already know I wil not be able to not notice him. I will probably end up running back to the dorm. I just can not face him with her there. On second thought I do not think I will go to the tree. I am all sad know that I think about him and agelina together. Well class is almost over. Should I go should I not go should I go shloud I not go. I think I will not go cause I will be more sad. Any way class is over now. Bye.
Friday October 6, after classes, in dorm
After writing what I did yesterday I do kind of want to see him but kind of not. Well inactuallity I want to know if he has been waiting for me to come back and if he misses me or not. Ok fine I want to know if he likes me or not. But I think if he liked me enough he would dump Angelina and come find me in my dorm or something. He would like ask anna which dorm I am in and come and find me and say he loves me. but as you know that has not happened and I have been avoiding him for like 2 weeks already. I think I will give up on him. I did see some other guy in the cafe today. I believe I have seen him before but I never noticed becaue I was only thinking of Ayron befor. He ooks nice. He smiled at me when when passed. Maybe I can find out his name and hang around him. It would probably take my mind off Ayron. Yes that is exactly what I will do I will go find this other guy and he will be able to make me forget about Ayron. Oh but that so mean. I am only using him to firget Ayron. And then what happens if he falls in love with me and I will not like him in the same way. He would be heartbroken. Arg I am going to stop thinking about this.
After all that has happened I think Tatiana is finally warming up to me in the tiniest bit. Like whenever I am sad she wont make fun of me and taunt me. maybe because she knows how I feel. Maybe she has gone through the same thing I have. Maybe I have been to niave and have not thought about the things she might have been through. *sigh* now that I think about it I have been quite mean to her. . . . . . . oh snap I am late for skating practise. I got ot go. Byr.
~*~
As Lilly rushes to her practice she does not notice the pair of guys she nearly crashed into while running. The first guy that she had almost collided into was a guy that had been wanting to see her for the last month. He was her past crush. Her past crush Cole Kenning. With him you would have never guessed. With him there stood James Hensworth. The guy that had liked her for the longest time.
Over the last month things had changed. Cole now liked this other girl from school. Her name was Tatiana. Tatiana Walker. They had met when Cole was at his home school for registration and Tatiana was suppose to go there for the arts program before she had been accepted into the skating school. They had literally bumped into each other. When he bumped into her he was with a bunch of friends so he turned his head to apologise. That is when their gazes met. He had been captured by her, and she had fallen in love with him at first sight. He ditched his friends and continued to talk to her, and she separted from her mother. They talked all day and they knew they just had to be together. Since then they had been trying to find a way for him to get to Dastern. Finally he was able to get there. Out of luck or fate, his dad was work was transferred over. When James told everyone Cole wanted to come and so he did. His parents were fine with it and James was pretty cool about having a friend come with him. So James and his family with Cole moved up to Dastern.
Things had changed with Cole too. As soon as Lilly had left Caldestien he wanted to change. Before he was a scrony skater boy. Now he was a full out punk skater. He changed his whole image. His hair now curved around his hat, instead of flipping out at crazy angles. He also was not all legs anymore. He had muscles. All in all he was your typical hot skater boy. Since he had changed many girls had been wanting to be his girlfriend, but he had turned them all down. In his heart there was only one girl, that girl was Lilly.
Tueday, September 26, at night.
In one and a half days so much can happen. Ok first off yesterday.
Yesterday as normal I waited for prince to meet me by the tree. I waited, and waited. Anna had went and left with trevor already. So it ws just me. I almost went back to my dorm when he appeared. I was like “ where the hack were u I have been waiting for ages. I thought we were going to talk about trevor and Kory. They left already just to tell u.” And then he was all like, “I actually do not think they need any push. They are progressing their relationship nicely with out us.” I replied, “I guess that is true. Fine we will not interfere. But what shal we do today. Cause we are already here” and the next thing that happened almost put me in trauma (not literally, it was just too shocking). He said, “well. . . ” then some one called his name. “WANG ZI!!!!” this asian girl ran out of no where calling prince by his Chinese name and literally jumped onto him. Prince looked not at all surprised. He looked more annoyed. He kinda pried her off him and said gently, “ Angelina meet my friend Lilly.” The girl named Angelina kind of stared me uo and down. She looked at me with disgust. Then I asked prince, “who is she?” and prince was about to reply but then Angelina butted right in, “oh he is MY botfriend.” She started to wrap her arms around him, but prince shook her off. “stop” he said then he turned to me. “ I tried to come earlier but I got caught up with her” and he ionted to Angelina.
Everyone calls her Angelina, or angy for short. Her rea name is fang hua chung. she had long straight hair, straighter than mine and mine is really straight. In her hair there were blonde strazks that looked so good that I wanted to pul them right off her head. She was asian as well. Her boobs were bigger too. Drove me mad. She wore a short mini skirt and a tight blouse. She looked so cold but then she was able to cuddle with prince for a reason. Arg.
so I met her and she met me. And then she did something I hated. She wraped her arms around prince ( or tried because prince shook her off again) and said, “hey baby, I have to do some stuff at home. Can you come with me?” and she made this really annoying puppy dog face. Well probalby only annoying to me. And prince replied quite surprisingly since he was her “boy friend”. He said frustratingly it sounded, “fine. but I have to stay with Lilly for a bit we have to talk about something.” So she left looking sad and glanced over her sholder and scowled at me. Why is it everyone hates me.
So prince started talking to me again, which snapped me back from looking at Angelina. “sorry about that. So yeah she is my girl friend” he made a annoyed face at that said but I did not ask him about it. I was sad at that point. I was like, in my head obviously, no why does he have to have a girl friend. He should not be having one. I should be his. I like starred at him and turned around and started to walk away, parly because if he said anything or I did I was afraid I might cry. So I yelled behind me “ I got to go. I will talk to you later.” And I started torun. Ayron, yes I called him Ayron inmy journal can not bring my self to call him prince anymore. For he is some one elses. He called to me “wait! Lilly!” but I could not hear anything after that, I was too far away. I ran into my dorm and started to cyry. Everyone except tatiana was aorried about me but I did not say anything about what had happened.
So yeah. . .
today was such a bad day. And it was al because of Ayron. *sigh* it sucks. He and his girl friend angy has taken over my mind. All the thoughts about him are being slowy eaten away by the thought of Angelina. Whaaaahh! I want to be the one dating him. So unfair. In skating I could not do anything I was like in my own world. I did not hera anything said to me. I could not land a single jump and could not get any sense of balance doing my spins and when doing my field moves I kept falling over. Sooner of later some told me to get off the ice. Ny coach, soo min was so disappointed in me. She told me to get some rest and clear my mind of whats distracting it from good coaching. She told me not to go back on the ice till I was all sorted out. I thought that was harsh but now that I think of it I see the reason behind it. In classes I did not hear a single word my teachers said. In geograohy class my teacher called onme for a question and I did not hear and so I got sent to the office. You could just say I had a really bad day.
Now after school. . . Ayron showed up. . . with Angelina. I got all sad again when I saw them. I did not talk to them at all. Ayron could tell I was not my usual self cause I am ALWAYS talking. So I did not talk to them. Ayron tried to talk to me but I would not respond. I just could not just stand there and whatch them. So I left and went back to my tree. We had been haging out in the park nearby. So I went back to my tree. I was just about to writein my journal when Ayron appears out of nowhere. I though he was with Angelina. Or at least stay with her. But apparently he noticed that I was gone he said to Angelina that he was going to look for me. I wonder what was up tih that. So I ended up talking some more with Ayron , but then Angelina came and pulled him away. I think she was wondering why he ditched her for me. Because that swhat I was thinking a about. When they were talking I walked away casue I could not stand being near them and seeing them together, they seem like such acouple when they were talking. When I got back to the dorm I did not go in I went back outside and looked to see if they had went. Surprisingly Ayron was still there Angelina had left and he was waiting there. Was he looking for me?
Wow. its almost 1 in the morning I can not believe I have been writing this long. I am so sleepy now that I stopped writing. Well I better go to bed. I got class tomorrow. I ebt I still will not be able to concentrate becaue of what happened today. Well *yawn* I better *yawn* go to bed *yawn*. Good night.
Wednesday, September 27. Dorm, before dinner.
Well I refused to go to the tee today cause I could not bear seeing him. Today was exactly the same as yesterday. Now even my teachers are saying do not come to class till my thoughts are sorted out. So I have to sort them out. So I think I might go to the rink. I find it very comforting in the rink.
So I will take a trip to the rink. Be back soon.
Wednesday, September, 27, ice rink. Before dinner still
So now I am in the ice rink. I have to sort out my thoughts. Thats also why I did not go to my tree cause I know Ayron Is probably there. And I just can not deal with anymore strange behaviour. Ok so here goes for my organizing of my thoughts (in point form)
• Tatiana mess of emotions
• Tatiana hates me for some reason
• Tatiana will not accept my help what so ever
• Ayron hot asian guy
• Ayron=wang zi=prince
• Ayron has girlfriend
• Ayron girlfriend Angelina
• Anglelina=fang hua
• Ayron ditch Angelina for me
• Angelina mad?
• Ayrons liek me???????
• I have no clue what Ayron is thinking
• Me and Angelina do not get along
• Skating land double lutz
• Working on double axle
• Soo min is my coach
• Classes okay
• 83.3 average
• Past two days can not concentrate on anything cause brain is filled with junk about Ayron and Angelina
• have not seen mr. blank in a while.
• Mr. Blank’s daughter??
• Know her??
• Kory and Brendan
• Calvin haunting Kory
• Calvin coming back?
• ME AND AYRON????????????????????
There that is my list. Sucks huh. None of it makes much sense.
Oh, Dinner is done. I got to go eat. Talk to you later, bye bye.
Friday, September 29, in dorm, after dinner
I have not been seeing Ayron for the last 2 days. If I see him I will be confused even more because his actions the last time I saw him were so confusing. Also I would be sad because I hear Angelina has been following him everywhere and I can not stand them being together. I do not think I get him anymore. Any way. . . since I have not been seeing him I have regained some of my concentrartion. I can land my jumps almost all the time. Bit less than when I have all my concentration. And my school is going good. I am actually paying attention mow. And I answer the questions. I do zone out a bit but not for long. Like maybe 5 min or so. So all in all everything has been pretty steady.
Tatiana and I are still avoiding each other. And we have not talked since THAT night. I really do want to be friends with her though. I still do not get why she is so mean to me. I guess I will have to wait till she opens up to me.
So yeah . . . I have not seen mr. Blank in a while. I see him usually hanging around the rinks when ever I go to practice. And I say hi to him. But for like the past week I have not seen him. I wonder whats up with him. I should go find out. I think I will ask the coaches tomorrow. Cause all the coachs know who mr. Blank is. Hey and maybe the coaches know who his daughter is. Maybe if I can find his daughter I can find him. I shall ask tomorrow for sure.
Now . . . Kory has been seeing Brendan every single day now. And when ever she comes back she always talks to me about him for like an hour straight. I think they really do llike each other now. I wonder if they have told each other yet. I think I will ask Kory tonight. She should be comeing back soon. So I will write again when she comes back and finishes talking. For now I think I will practice some stretchs cause Ayron is starting to come back into my thoughts. Bye talk to you later
Friday, September, 29, after Kory has come and gone, in dorm.
So I asjed her and she turned a shade of red that was so red that a over ripe tomto could not beat her. So I got why answer from the look on her fac, it was a no. I asked her if she had noticed if he like her or not. And she said that she thought she did but did not want to be the person to ask. She wanted him to ask her on a date. So she was waiting. And in my head he was probably saying either that she did not like him or he was waiting for her. But ass she was talking I kept thinking of Ayron. I tried to shake the thoughts away but I just could not. I think I have really fallen in love with Ayron. Ohhhh. Why did I have to fall in love with the guy everyonr likes. Yeah I have heard that he is the most popular guy in his school. Everyone says that he is a guiness, he gets perfect on every single test! And I hear that everyone wants to be his girl friend, so when he finaly said yes to Angelina everyone was shocked because he had never ever ever gone out with a girl at school. They say that Angelina had loved him for 6 years before he said yes to be her girlfriend. And me, he has onky known for a month. Maybe in reality he does not like Angelina. But if he does not like her why would I think he likes me. *sigh* I just know that he does not like me. he probably only thinks of me as a friend when I think about him as sooo much more. Why oh why is it him that I like. *sigh*
Arg so now I will oly think of him as a friend. Well. . . i will try to. Probably not going to work. Like even noe I am thinking of him. Arg why is he so hard to forget. I think I will sleep on it. Arg I bet even when I sleep I will think of him. Ok. . . from now on I will avoid hm at all costs. And I will never go to that tree again because, most likely he is waiting for me there. At least that is what anna has been saying. Ok I will og to bed now. I have to put my whole heart, soul, body etc etc etc into not seeing him and not thinking about him. So. . . god noght. Bye.
thursday October 5, in class
I have been spending the ast few days trying not to think about Ayron. But it seems like one way or another he comes creeping back into my thoughts. Like I will be talking to someone and something they say or do would either relate to or remind me of him. And then the rest of the day I would be I a kind of limboish mood. Like today for example. I was talking to anna and then she said something about the tree and I completly forgot about what she was talking about and I thought about the tree and I wondered if Ayron was waiting for me there and my mind was like in its own little world. I was kind of in a funny mood after and everyone could tell. I htink they have already figured out that when ever I am like that it is about Ayron. Also on top of that thinga between Kory and bredan are not going very well. I htink it might have something to do with me and Ayron. Oh why does everything relate to me and him. I figured this out because Kory started making up lame excuses like she was tired or felt sick or that she forgot when I asked her why she does not come to my dorm and talk about her dates. And she has not been seeing him the past few days. It is so wierd that when everything was good it was really good but now that everything is bad evvverythin gis bad. Like I can not land my doubllle lutz anymore. Like why could I not have at least one good thing to keep.
I have decided to go back to the tree today. I have been there in like two weeks. Even if Ayron is there I will ignore him. I plan to bring my music and listen to it to drown him out. Wait I will not even notice if he is there because I will just go to the tree and sit ans read or something. And I WILL ignore him. Yeah that is right I am going to do this. . . . . . . . . . *sigh* h man, if I see Ayron with agelina because I already know I wil not be able to not notice him. I will probably end up running back to the dorm. I just can not face him with her there. On second thought I do not think I will go to the tree. I am all sad know that I think about him and agelina together. Well class is almost over. Should I go should I not go should I go shloud I not go. I think I will not go cause I will be more sad. Any way class is over now. Bye.
Friday October 6, after classes, in dorm
After writing what I did yesterday I do kind of want to see him but kind of not. Well inactuallity I want to know if he has been waiting for me to come back and if he misses me or not. Ok fine I want to know if he likes me or not. But I think if he liked me enough he would dump Angelina and come find me in my dorm or something. He would like ask anna which dorm I am in and come and find me and say he loves me. but as you know that has not happened and I have been avoiding him for like 2 weeks already. I think I will give up on him. I did see some other guy in the cafe today. I believe I have seen him before but I never noticed becaue I was only thinking of Ayron befor. He ooks nice. He smiled at me when when passed. Maybe I can find out his name and hang around him. It would probably take my mind off Ayron. Yes that is exactly what I will do I will go find this other guy and he will be able to make me forget about Ayron. Oh but that so mean. I am only using him to firget Ayron. And then what happens if he falls in love with me and I will not like him in the same way. He would be heartbroken. Arg I am going to stop thinking about this.
After all that has happened I think Tatiana is finally warming up to me in the tiniest bit. Like whenever I am sad she wont make fun of me and taunt me. maybe because she knows how I feel. Maybe she has gone through the same thing I have. Maybe I have been to niave and have not thought about the things she might have been through. *sigh* now that I think about it I have been quite mean to her. . . . . . . oh snap I am late for skating practise. I got ot go. Byr.
~*~
As Lilly rushes to her practice she does not notice the pair of guys she nearly crashed into while running. The first guy that she had almost collided into was a guy that had been wanting to see her for the last month. He was her past crush. Her past crush Cole Kenning. With him you would have never guessed. With him there stood James Hensworth. The guy that had liked her for the longest time.
Over the last month things had changed. Cole now liked this other girl from school. Her name was Tatiana. Tatiana Walker. They had met when Cole was at his home school for registration and Tatiana was suppose to go there for the arts program before she had been accepted into the skating school. They had literally bumped into each other. When he bumped into her he was with a bunch of friends so he turned his head to apologise. That is when their gazes met. He had been captured by her, and she had fallen in love with him at first sight. He ditched his friends and continued to talk to her, and she separted from her mother. They talked all day and they knew they just had to be together. Since then they had been trying to find a way for him to get to Dastern. Finally he was able to get there. Out of luck or fate, his dad was work was transferred over. When James told everyone Cole wanted to come and so he did. His parents were fine with it and James was pretty cool about having a friend come with him. So James and his family with Cole moved up to Dastern.
Things had changed with Cole too. As soon as Lilly had left Caldestien he wanted to change. Before he was a scrony skater boy. Now he was a full out punk skater. He changed his whole image. His hair now curved around his hat, instead of flipping out at crazy angles. He also was not all legs anymore. He had muscles. All in all he was your typical hot skater boy. Since he had changed many girls had been wanting to be his girlfriend, but he had turned them all down. In his heart there was only one girl, that girl was Lilly.
Allesh's WW snipit
Omd omdomdomd Edward Cullen just popped up out of no where
I mean omd he is here in my living room and he is sitting on the couch and looking at me with intentful eyes
He is so amazing hot and so cool..i absolutely love him. After a couple of minutes the rest of the Cullen family starts to appear slowly. First alice, then esme, then roseali and emmetn and lastly jasper and Carlisle. As i stare at their amazing beauty i looked at them all and said “someone is missing” and Edward gave me his sexy smile and said “oh she knows” and turned to his family and nodded. They all looked at me and then slowly Edward made his way to my side “ oh and the person your thinking about is not bella..it’s you” as i looked at him so shocked i couldn’t move. And i heard a little chuckle come from the Cullen clan. A braced my self for the pain that will be inflicted to my throat and i closed my eyes tightly thinking that it will be over in no time. As i opened my eyes widely, i see the Cullen family and i looked around. Everything seemed to be sharper than usual. I thought i had my contacts in so i got up and went to the bathroom. “what WHY CAN I SEE SO VIVDLEY, I DONT HAVE MY CONTACTS” Edward had followed me into the bathroom and said “well dear Allesha you don’t need to have contacts anymore” i looked at him wide eyed and i stared at myself in the mirror. I was amazed at what i saw. I saw an amazingly beautiful girl. And this girl had all the features of Allesha Narine, but she was really amazing. And then shock crossed over me once more as i realized that the girl staring at me is...ALLESHA. i let out a low gasp and then i looked at Edward. I walked out of the bathroom and into my family room. I looked at the rest of the cullen’s and thought to myself that maybe this is my fate. As i left my house unknowing of what the world had for me..edward took his hand in mine and we both flitted across the lawn and away from my old life.
As we walked past many trees, i knew that i was way to far away from home to even go back now.
I mean omd he is here in my living room and he is sitting on the couch and looking at me with intentful eyes
He is so amazing hot and so cool..i absolutely love him. After a couple of minutes the rest of the Cullen family starts to appear slowly. First alice, then esme, then roseali and emmetn and lastly jasper and Carlisle. As i stare at their amazing beauty i looked at them all and said “someone is missing” and Edward gave me his sexy smile and said “oh she knows” and turned to his family and nodded. They all looked at me and then slowly Edward made his way to my side “ oh and the person your thinking about is not bella..it’s you” as i looked at him so shocked i couldn’t move. And i heard a little chuckle come from the Cullen clan. A braced my self for the pain that will be inflicted to my throat and i closed my eyes tightly thinking that it will be over in no time. As i opened my eyes widely, i see the Cullen family and i looked around. Everything seemed to be sharper than usual. I thought i had my contacts in so i got up and went to the bathroom. “what WHY CAN I SEE SO VIVDLEY, I DONT HAVE MY CONTACTS” Edward had followed me into the bathroom and said “well dear Allesha you don’t need to have contacts anymore” i looked at him wide eyed and i stared at myself in the mirror. I was amazed at what i saw. I saw an amazingly beautiful girl. And this girl had all the features of Allesha Narine, but she was really amazing. And then shock crossed over me once more as i realized that the girl staring at me is...ALLESHA. i let out a low gasp and then i looked at Edward. I walked out of the bathroom and into my family room. I looked at the rest of the cullen’s and thought to myself that maybe this is my fate. As i left my house unknowing of what the world had for me..edward took his hand in mine and we both flitted across the lawn and away from my old life.
As we walked past many trees, i knew that i was way to far away from home to even go back now.
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
The Winter
She sat at her window looking out. The cold winter had sent a harsh storm but it all just added to the beauty. The snow, the pure white snow, was so gentle and soft but so dangerous and evil. The storm would stop in a couple hours and it would be a winter wonderland. All the children would go out and play in the new fallen snow. She would not be one of them. She was stuck, trapped, inside this house. All she could do was look out. She had never felt the snow on her face, never made a snowball, nor felt the cold go through her gloves, and she never would.
Twins
She walked down that runway like she owned it. The crowd had all come to see her. the new beauty that had erupted on the fashion scene with her blazing red hair and bright green eyes and a body most girls would die for. She was the star. The talk of the fashion world and it was her premier fashion show and it looked like she had been born walking on a runway.
The theme of the night’s show was army gear and eathy colours. The first time round she was wearing a camouflage army hat, olive coloured short shorts, a bullet proof vest that showed her cleavage for all to see, and knee high boots that were deadly in the right hands, or feet. She went behind the curtains as the other models did their walks as well. She came out again this time in a foreign army outfit. Looked like it was from the middle east. If any other girl had been wearing it the outfit would look like rags but on her she was an army goddess. By the end of the show everyone knew of her, the newbie who has been taking over the fashion industry and about her talent. Her talent that surpassed everyone else’s except for maybe the top few models. Where had she been for so many years, some could only wonder.
There was a standing ovation at the end for the designer and also her. Many agencies would be swarming around her soon, but she would say nothing, smile and walk away. She would appear only when she did and no one knew when. Her own agency she worked for could not control when and where she worked. Who was she? She was my twin sister. The one I was enslaved to from birth. From beauty, brains, looks, and pretty much any good points, she had them. Me, I was left with nothing. Nothing, nada, zilch, zero. Al I could do was when she didn't want to deal with the world she would tell me to step and I would obediently follow what she told me to do. Most people would get away from the oppression I felt but as I said, enslaved from birth.
When we were kids, most likely when we were 2 she stared to walk and talk before me. I just sat there on the carpet watching her and cheering her on in my baby noises. As we grew up she started to order me to do things. I had always thought of her as superior so I followed what she wanted. If she wanted me somewhere, I was there, and if she didn’t, I was gone. I didn't mind much when I was small but when we started to go to school then I wanted freedom. But freedom I did not get. She found multiple ways to oppress me. From making my life miserable if I didn't want to follow her ways or making my life a dream if I did and if I didn't obey her rip my dreams to pieces. So I learned my lesson after grade 3. That’s pretty much when I stopped trying to gain freedom. Of course our parents didn't care about me. I was the second born one. The dumb one. The not as pretty one, although we were identical. I was just always duller and more transparent whenever I was with my sister. I had multiple thoughts of running away, but by then I knew if I ran away no one would miss me, except maybe my sister who would miss the free service. Yeah, most people would say I was a no body. I was just copy of the better, more genuine original sister. Or in other words, defective.
A year ago my sister announced to everyone she wanted to go into modeling. Before that she had been doing almost every sport imaginable and excelled in all of them. So when she had announced she wanted to model everyone knew she would do amazing, maybe even more than amazing. I also knew I would be the one tending to all her needs and wants. so when she appeared on the fashion scene 2 months ago she hit it big. In a matter of days. She went from giving her picture out to a local newspaper to having agencies knocking on our door. Then she got an offer for a world renowned designer for a fashion show we knew she was going to be a super model and rule the fashion world.
After that first show traveling was all we knew. Well technically, traveling, fashion shows, photo shoots, restaurant food, magazine and talk show interviews was all we knew. We never stayed in one place for more than a week I think. I was always put told to stay at the hotel or something like that. “Anywhere out of sight.” Were her exact words. She did not want anyone to know she had a twin and she would kill me if someone found out.
She didn't know that I secretly practiced modeling in the hotel room when she was gone on a job or just not there in general. I never slept much too so I practiced then also.
The theme of the night’s show was army gear and eathy colours. The first time round she was wearing a camouflage army hat, olive coloured short shorts, a bullet proof vest that showed her cleavage for all to see, and knee high boots that were deadly in the right hands, or feet. She went behind the curtains as the other models did their walks as well. She came out again this time in a foreign army outfit. Looked like it was from the middle east. If any other girl had been wearing it the outfit would look like rags but on her she was an army goddess. By the end of the show everyone knew of her, the newbie who has been taking over the fashion industry and about her talent. Her talent that surpassed everyone else’s except for maybe the top few models. Where had she been for so many years, some could only wonder.
There was a standing ovation at the end for the designer and also her. Many agencies would be swarming around her soon, but she would say nothing, smile and walk away. She would appear only when she did and no one knew when. Her own agency she worked for could not control when and where she worked. Who was she? She was my twin sister. The one I was enslaved to from birth. From beauty, brains, looks, and pretty much any good points, she had them. Me, I was left with nothing. Nothing, nada, zilch, zero. Al I could do was when she didn't want to deal with the world she would tell me to step and I would obediently follow what she told me to do. Most people would get away from the oppression I felt but as I said, enslaved from birth.
When we were kids, most likely when we were 2 she stared to walk and talk before me. I just sat there on the carpet watching her and cheering her on in my baby noises. As we grew up she started to order me to do things. I had always thought of her as superior so I followed what she wanted. If she wanted me somewhere, I was there, and if she didn’t, I was gone. I didn't mind much when I was small but when we started to go to school then I wanted freedom. But freedom I did not get. She found multiple ways to oppress me. From making my life miserable if I didn't want to follow her ways or making my life a dream if I did and if I didn't obey her rip my dreams to pieces. So I learned my lesson after grade 3. That’s pretty much when I stopped trying to gain freedom. Of course our parents didn't care about me. I was the second born one. The dumb one. The not as pretty one, although we were identical. I was just always duller and more transparent whenever I was with my sister. I had multiple thoughts of running away, but by then I knew if I ran away no one would miss me, except maybe my sister who would miss the free service. Yeah, most people would say I was a no body. I was just copy of the better, more genuine original sister. Or in other words, defective.
A year ago my sister announced to everyone she wanted to go into modeling. Before that she had been doing almost every sport imaginable and excelled in all of them. So when she had announced she wanted to model everyone knew she would do amazing, maybe even more than amazing. I also knew I would be the one tending to all her needs and wants. so when she appeared on the fashion scene 2 months ago she hit it big. In a matter of days. She went from giving her picture out to a local newspaper to having agencies knocking on our door. Then she got an offer for a world renowned designer for a fashion show we knew she was going to be a super model and rule the fashion world.
After that first show traveling was all we knew. Well technically, traveling, fashion shows, photo shoots, restaurant food, magazine and talk show interviews was all we knew. We never stayed in one place for more than a week I think. I was always put told to stay at the hotel or something like that. “Anywhere out of sight.” Were her exact words. She did not want anyone to know she had a twin and she would kill me if someone found out.
She didn't know that I secretly practiced modeling in the hotel room when she was gone on a job or just not there in general. I never slept much too so I practiced then also.
Hard Work
As the day wore on I could feel the weight on my back, the dryness of my lips, the strain on my shoulder and the throbbing pain in my head. All I wanted to do was sit down, but I couldn’t I had to work. If I didn’t work how could I face him. He who was the one I lived for but paid no attention to me. the least I could do was help him in any way I could, and if I could then I would be happy.
The air was filled with the smell of oil. The noise was past a roar. My head couldn’t take it. Where did I put those earplugs? I reached over to my bag to get them when my foot slipped. I fell, and fast. I closed my eyes, I would hit the floor any second now but I could care less. If I hit the floor the noise would stop and I could finally rest in peace. I felt something close around my arm and my feet regain it’s balance. who just stopped me from going into a nice sleep? I swivelled around to see the new worker looking at me with worry.
“Are you alright?” he asked.
“I’m just fine.” I grumbled back.
Now that I was fine I could no longer think about falling asleep. But I did. This is my third and final part-time today. Oh how I can’t wait to go to bed.
The air was filled with the smell of oil. The noise was past a roar. My head couldn’t take it. Where did I put those earplugs? I reached over to my bag to get them when my foot slipped. I fell, and fast. I closed my eyes, I would hit the floor any second now but I could care less. If I hit the floor the noise would stop and I could finally rest in peace. I felt something close around my arm and my feet regain it’s balance. who just stopped me from going into a nice sleep? I swivelled around to see the new worker looking at me with worry.
“Are you alright?” he asked.
“I’m just fine.” I grumbled back.
Now that I was fine I could no longer think about falling asleep. But I did. This is my third and final part-time today. Oh how I can’t wait to go to bed.
Tough Love
It is the 19th century. Elizabeth Welling is a young lady, only daughter of Duke and Duchess Harold and Caroline Welling, and she is to be married in two weeks time. She is only sixteen and does not want to be married, for she is in love with another.
One day when she was in the woods behind the castle she’d found a young man. He was unconscious and looked quite ragged. She wanted to help him so she attempted to wake him to make sure he was alive. He suddenly grabbed her wrist and sat up. He looked at Elizabeth like a scared deer. He then fell back to the ground. Elizabeth stayed by the man’s side till he woke once more. It was night by then and she knew she was going to be in trouble for staying out so late.
“Where am I?” the man asked.
“You are in the woods behind my home, and you have been sleeping for over eight hours. I was worried about you, so I stayed here,” Elizabeth said reassuringly, “How do you feel? What happened?”
“I’m not quite sure. I remember I was riding my horse and then it freaked out and it ran, I think I hit a tree and landed here. I bet the horse is home by now. What is your name young mistress?” The man said sitting up.
“My name is Elizabeth Welling. What is your name?” Elizabeth asked.
“My name is... John.” The man said with a bit of hesitation.
“Well hello then John. You may call me Elizabeth.”
“Thank you for helping me Elizabeth. If you don’t mind could I borrow a horse to get home?”
“Sure.”
As Elizabeth went to get a horse she wondered where John had come from. She had never met this man before but already thought she might be in love. She happily skipped towards the barn and found a black stallion for her and a brown mustang for John. She planned to ride with him to his home, and that way she could get to know him better at the same time. She headed back to the woods but could not find John. She got back to where he last was and there in the earth lay a ring left for her. She picked it up and examined it. It was a beautiful ring. Twisted gold with an emerald gem in the middle. It had engravings on the band of the ring. The engravings were in a foreign language, so Elizabeth could not read the engravings. She figured that John was from a prestige family such as her. She then realised, as she looked at the ring more, that this must be true love.
Elizabeth slowly forgot about John as the seasons passed. But she kept the ring from that day on a chain in her room. One day John appeared once more.
“Elizabeth,” someone called from behind the trees.
Elizabeth walked over to see who it was and to her surprise she found the man that she had helped many months ago.
“John? Is that you?” Elizabeth asked.
“It is. How I've wanted to see you. I'm sorry for leaving that day. I could not stay in fear of your safety, but I came back as soon as I could. Did you get the ring I left for you?” John said in a rush.
“Yes I did. I treasure it still but hurry we must hide. My parents cannot find you here. If they did you would be driven out and I will be locked in my room for days.” Elizabeth whispered, motioning to john to keep his voice down.
“Ok” John replied
Elizabeth took John deep into the forest and before they knew it they were at the same place they had met the first time. They talked and told each other they would meet again and from then on John would frequently come by Elizabeth’s home. Before long they were truly in love. They spent long walks in the forest and passed hours just talking. When Elizabeth got the news of her betrothal she ran outside into the forest to see if John was there.
“John! John! Are you there?” Elizabeth called out. “Where are you? I really need you right now.” With that Elizabeth sat down to wait. She buried her head in her hands overwhelmed with what she had just heard. She soon fell asleep on the soft earth.
“Wake up,” a familiar voice called out.
“John?” Elizabeth asked sleepily.
“I'm here. What are you doing out here? Your parents will be worried.” John asked once Elizabeth was awake. Elizabeth then remember why she had come out here to find him and started to cry.
“What’s wrong?” John asked worried.
“I’m...I’m...I’m to be married in two weeks.” Elizabeth choked out between sobs.
“It’s ok... I have something to tell you too.” John said stroking Elizabeth’s hair.
“What is it? You sound a bit down?” Elizabeth said when she had calmed down a bit.
“I'm also getting married. I do not know who I am betrothed to. But I know the date has been set sometime in the next two weeks. So we will be getting married around the same time. But all I want is to be is with you.” John said sadly.
“I do not know my betrothed either and I do not wish to be married. It is you I love.”
“I love you too Elizabeth, but we cannot change our fate.”
“How about we run away and escape this fate?”
“Ok then. I will come to your window in nine days time. Just act normal until then and everything will go fine. I have to go now. You should get going to before your parents come looking.”
“I love you.”
“I love you too.” And with that John disappeared into the forest, as he had for the past three months.
In the next nine days both John and Elizabeth acted as normal as they could although they were secretly planning their escape. They packed what they needed to and made sure that they would not be found missing till the morning after their escape. They wrote notes to their parents explaining what they were doing and hoped that they won’t be worried and try to go after them.
The night of the escape had finally arrived. Elizabeth waited in her room for the familiar knock on the window. None came. That night was a quiet night. Elizabeth sat by her window looking out, wondering why this had turned out this way.
The days passed and it was soon time for the wedding. Elizabeth got into her white flowing gown. The last four days had been dreadful. All she could think about was John. As she remember their first meeting, she realised she had never gotten his last name and when ever family issues came up he would avoid them. Elizabeth wondered why. She wanted to know why he had played her so long knowing that he didn’t want her. Why had she fallen for him? Her despair turned to anger. She held it in and if she was to ever see that man again she would slap him.
It was time for the wedding. She covered her faced with her veil, linked her arm with her father’s and they walked through doors. As she walked down the aisle she heard whispers. It was a story of a man named Peter Callingway that had been murdered. Elizabeth heard this and gasped. Everything finally came together. The man had a ring on his finger when he had died. It was the match to the one she had at home. That was why he had never shown up, that was why he didn’t tell her his name. He had been afraid of what would happen. John had been Peter Callingway, and he had been murdered the day that they were to escape.
One day when she was in the woods behind the castle she’d found a young man. He was unconscious and looked quite ragged. She wanted to help him so she attempted to wake him to make sure he was alive. He suddenly grabbed her wrist and sat up. He looked at Elizabeth like a scared deer. He then fell back to the ground. Elizabeth stayed by the man’s side till he woke once more. It was night by then and she knew she was going to be in trouble for staying out so late.
“Where am I?” the man asked.
“You are in the woods behind my home, and you have been sleeping for over eight hours. I was worried about you, so I stayed here,” Elizabeth said reassuringly, “How do you feel? What happened?”
“I’m not quite sure. I remember I was riding my horse and then it freaked out and it ran, I think I hit a tree and landed here. I bet the horse is home by now. What is your name young mistress?” The man said sitting up.
“My name is Elizabeth Welling. What is your name?” Elizabeth asked.
“My name is... John.” The man said with a bit of hesitation.
“Well hello then John. You may call me Elizabeth.”
“Thank you for helping me Elizabeth. If you don’t mind could I borrow a horse to get home?”
“Sure.”
As Elizabeth went to get a horse she wondered where John had come from. She had never met this man before but already thought she might be in love. She happily skipped towards the barn and found a black stallion for her and a brown mustang for John. She planned to ride with him to his home, and that way she could get to know him better at the same time. She headed back to the woods but could not find John. She got back to where he last was and there in the earth lay a ring left for her. She picked it up and examined it. It was a beautiful ring. Twisted gold with an emerald gem in the middle. It had engravings on the band of the ring. The engravings were in a foreign language, so Elizabeth could not read the engravings. She figured that John was from a prestige family such as her. She then realised, as she looked at the ring more, that this must be true love.
Elizabeth slowly forgot about John as the seasons passed. But she kept the ring from that day on a chain in her room. One day John appeared once more.
“Elizabeth,” someone called from behind the trees.
Elizabeth walked over to see who it was and to her surprise she found the man that she had helped many months ago.
“John? Is that you?” Elizabeth asked.
“It is. How I've wanted to see you. I'm sorry for leaving that day. I could not stay in fear of your safety, but I came back as soon as I could. Did you get the ring I left for you?” John said in a rush.
“Yes I did. I treasure it still but hurry we must hide. My parents cannot find you here. If they did you would be driven out and I will be locked in my room for days.” Elizabeth whispered, motioning to john to keep his voice down.
“Ok” John replied
Elizabeth took John deep into the forest and before they knew it they were at the same place they had met the first time. They talked and told each other they would meet again and from then on John would frequently come by Elizabeth’s home. Before long they were truly in love. They spent long walks in the forest and passed hours just talking. When Elizabeth got the news of her betrothal she ran outside into the forest to see if John was there.
“John! John! Are you there?” Elizabeth called out. “Where are you? I really need you right now.” With that Elizabeth sat down to wait. She buried her head in her hands overwhelmed with what she had just heard. She soon fell asleep on the soft earth.
“Wake up,” a familiar voice called out.
“John?” Elizabeth asked sleepily.
“I'm here. What are you doing out here? Your parents will be worried.” John asked once Elizabeth was awake. Elizabeth then remember why she had come out here to find him and started to cry.
“What’s wrong?” John asked worried.
“I’m...I’m...I’m to be married in two weeks.” Elizabeth choked out between sobs.
“It’s ok... I have something to tell you too.” John said stroking Elizabeth’s hair.
“What is it? You sound a bit down?” Elizabeth said when she had calmed down a bit.
“I'm also getting married. I do not know who I am betrothed to. But I know the date has been set sometime in the next two weeks. So we will be getting married around the same time. But all I want is to be is with you.” John said sadly.
“I do not know my betrothed either and I do not wish to be married. It is you I love.”
“I love you too Elizabeth, but we cannot change our fate.”
“How about we run away and escape this fate?”
“Ok then. I will come to your window in nine days time. Just act normal until then and everything will go fine. I have to go now. You should get going to before your parents come looking.”
“I love you.”
“I love you too.” And with that John disappeared into the forest, as he had for the past three months.
In the next nine days both John and Elizabeth acted as normal as they could although they were secretly planning their escape. They packed what they needed to and made sure that they would not be found missing till the morning after their escape. They wrote notes to their parents explaining what they were doing and hoped that they won’t be worried and try to go after them.
The night of the escape had finally arrived. Elizabeth waited in her room for the familiar knock on the window. None came. That night was a quiet night. Elizabeth sat by her window looking out, wondering why this had turned out this way.
The days passed and it was soon time for the wedding. Elizabeth got into her white flowing gown. The last four days had been dreadful. All she could think about was John. As she remember their first meeting, she realised she had never gotten his last name and when ever family issues came up he would avoid them. Elizabeth wondered why. She wanted to know why he had played her so long knowing that he didn’t want her. Why had she fallen for him? Her despair turned to anger. She held it in and if she was to ever see that man again she would slap him.
It was time for the wedding. She covered her faced with her veil, linked her arm with her father’s and they walked through doors. As she walked down the aisle she heard whispers. It was a story of a man named Peter Callingway that had been murdered. Elizabeth heard this and gasped. Everything finally came together. The man had a ring on his finger when he had died. It was the match to the one she had at home. That was why he had never shown up, that was why he didn’t tell her his name. He had been afraid of what would happen. John had been Peter Callingway, and he had been murdered the day that they were to escape.
Sunday, March 21, 2010
Black
The girl watched as the old man stepped through the door. BOOM! The door slammed shut.
“It’s time to make my move,” the girl whispered to herself. Silently the girl crept through the dark forest making her way towards the cellar door.
The girl was on a mission; a mission to kill, and the old man was her target. He had killed her parents and now she was taking her revenge. The girl’s name was Black. Just Black; her real name unknown to society. Only her family had know her name, but they were all dead.
Creak...the old cellar door creaked with age as it swung out. Black jumped into the cold musky cellar and started to make her way through the gigantic mansion.
Suddenly Black heard a sound. It sounded like someone was making their way through the hallways. Black froze and drifted into the shadows. She first heard a door open, then a lock clicked closed. Black made her way down several faintly lit hallways but then stopped in front of a door. This was it.
Black took out her knife and burst into the room. The room had not been locked, and there he was, sitting in an old high backed chair.
“Nice to see you...Willow.”
Black gasped. How did this man know her name. No one knew but her family, and they died a long time ago. Black was cautious now. What else did this man have up his sleeve. She took her chance when she saw the man rest his hands in his lap, happy with the reaction he had gotten from her. She grabbed the old man and pinned him against the wall with her knife.
“Why did you do it? Why did you kill my parents?” Black yelled her voice full of rage, though her tears told a different story. Her eyes were watering, the memory of her parents death was replaying in her mind.
“I had to. The cult was controlling them.” the old man chocked out, trying to release Black’s tight grasp on his neck.
“Shut up!” Black yelled and in an instant she killed him. Her mission was done. She could now rest in peace now that her parents death had been revenged. She turned around to leave when she noticed a picture on a side table beside the old high backed chair. When she saw it she burst into tears and committed suicide. In the picture there were her parents and the old man she had just killed. In her mom’s arms lay a small bundle.
It was when Black saw the picture that she realised that the man she had just killed was her grandfather.
“It’s time to make my move,” the girl whispered to herself. Silently the girl crept through the dark forest making her way towards the cellar door.
The girl was on a mission; a mission to kill, and the old man was her target. He had killed her parents and now she was taking her revenge. The girl’s name was Black. Just Black; her real name unknown to society. Only her family had know her name, but they were all dead.
Creak...the old cellar door creaked with age as it swung out. Black jumped into the cold musky cellar and started to make her way through the gigantic mansion.
Suddenly Black heard a sound. It sounded like someone was making their way through the hallways. Black froze and drifted into the shadows. She first heard a door open, then a lock clicked closed. Black made her way down several faintly lit hallways but then stopped in front of a door. This was it.
Black took out her knife and burst into the room. The room had not been locked, and there he was, sitting in an old high backed chair.
“Nice to see you...Willow.”
Black gasped. How did this man know her name. No one knew but her family, and they died a long time ago. Black was cautious now. What else did this man have up his sleeve. She took her chance when she saw the man rest his hands in his lap, happy with the reaction he had gotten from her. She grabbed the old man and pinned him against the wall with her knife.
“Why did you do it? Why did you kill my parents?” Black yelled her voice full of rage, though her tears told a different story. Her eyes were watering, the memory of her parents death was replaying in her mind.
“I had to. The cult was controlling them.” the old man chocked out, trying to release Black’s tight grasp on his neck.
“Shut up!” Black yelled and in an instant she killed him. Her mission was done. She could now rest in peace now that her parents death had been revenged. She turned around to leave when she noticed a picture on a side table beside the old high backed chair. When she saw it she burst into tears and committed suicide. In the picture there were her parents and the old man she had just killed. In her mom’s arms lay a small bundle.
It was when Black saw the picture that she realised that the man she had just killed was her grandfather.
NANO 2008 Chapter 3
BACK TO NORMAL?
Monday, September 4, after lunch, with Kory.
I have not been able to write much that last week. Mostly I was hanging out with Kory. I also had skating practice and I hung out with my room mates. Right now I am with Kory in my dorm. My room motes went to town for lunch so they are gone right now. They said we can play a couple of board games when they come back. So we are waiting for them. Kory is right now reading over my shoulder. I wonder what she thinks of this journal I have been keeping. She is hugging me now almost choking. She is trying to get my pen now. I am to good a monuvering so she can not get
I Love You Lilly!
See she just stole my pen and wrote that. But I like it there. It is a really nice momento.
I Love You Too Kory!
Wow my hand writing sucks compared to Kory’s. Now Kory is laughing at me.
OH MY GOSH school starts tomorrow! Tomorrow, I can not believe that I have only been here for 2 weeks. Feels like months already. Wow. Times sure flies fast around here.
Oh. Tatiana just walked in. She is always around. I seem to see her every where. Worst thing is that I share almost every class with her. Unbelievable. But still, I share so much time with her everyday and we seem so different. Maybe we just got off on the wrong foot. But she still seems so cold to everyone. I have not seen a single person with her. Either hanging out with or talking to. I mean no one is every near her. She seems to have a repellent to people. She acts really snobby all the time.
When ever I glance at tatiana, even in class or on lunch, she seems to be looking at me. I always turn away when I see her looking at me. Kind of gives me the creeps. I should go ask her some day, “why do you always look at me?” and then she will say some wierd thing about stalking me or something like that.
Ohhh, here comes Alyssa, Anna, Phoebe, and Brittany. I wonder what game we are going to play today?
Tuesday, September 5, in science class
To day I smiled at tatiana in class. She gave me a dirty look and turned away. She looked mad at me. What did I do? I wonder what I did to her (other than arguing with her on the first day) that made her mad at me (remember she started it)? I want to figure her out. She intrigues me like how a puzzle would.
Tatiana is sitting 2 rows across from me. I want to try to get her attention. What should I do? Hmmmm. Well I can not throw a pen at her. Too obvious to the teacher. I could try to talk, but that would make too much noise. Oh this is hard. Ummmm…… I guess I could pass a note. If I get caught though i will be in big trouble. Arg what should I do…? Thinking… thinking… thinking… Wow this is harder than homework. I guess I will have to catch her after class.
What should I say to her? Tatiana why r you so mad at me? Or how bout, what did I do to piss you off tatiana? i do not know what I should say. It will come to me when I end up talking to her, or maybe not. Oh well guess I will find out.
Oh my gosh! I just spent the whole science class writing in my journal. Well most of it. there is only 20 min left and I am suppose to do these questions. Oh snap. Better get working on them. I will write later. Most likely after classes end and when I am in the dorm. I got to work now. Bye.
Tuesday, September 5, after classes, back in dorm
Ok so today I tried to talk to tatiana. wow I was a bust. Ok this is what happened. I cuasgth up with her after science class. This is what I said, “Hey, Tatiana! Wait up! I was wondering, why do you dislike me so much? What did I do? Did I offend you?” and this is what she said, “ just by being alive you offend me!” Is that mean or is that mean. I do not know why I tried to talk to her. It puzzles me.
She is not back from her last class yet so I do not need to deal with her right now thankfully. I think I will try one more time to get through to her. I shall talk to her in a couple days. Because right now I think she might be PMSing. I know that’s not very nice but still she was so mean to me today.
She will be coming back soon from her classes. I think I shall go to town with Kory. Get my mind off Tatiana. and maybe I will see the asian dude that I so want to see.
Well I better get going if I want enough time to stay there for a bit before I can not go anymore. Talk to you later . bye bye.
Wednesday, September 6, after classes, in dorm
Sorry I did not get to write last night. Was kind of tired from going to town. Still am actually. *yawn* anyway… I saw the asian dude yesterday. Ok OH MY GOSH we actually bumped into each other. I was talking to Kory and we were walking. He bumped into me and he turned around and I looked at him. OH MY GOSH he is so hot. He was fooling around with his friends and bumped into me (his friends are really hot too. Just like him.). he said sorry and I was like it is okay. I am fine. And that was it. but at least we actually talked. OH MY GOSH I want to see him again. I think I will go find out which school he goes to. Then I could just coincidently “pass” his school. Ok that sounds really lame. Ok anyway back to life in school.
Tatiana is as mean as before. I tried to say hi today and she said, “just get away from me you dirt bag.” And she walked off. Wow I should really give up on her. She jus seems to get meaner and meaner by the day. If she stays mad this long she will never have any friends. I think I will try a few more times to get her to warm up to me. Maybe if I left a candy or chocolate on her pillow every day with my name on it saying hi with a smiley face she will become nice. I think I will try that, but I first need to get some type of candy or chocolate.
Me and anna are going to sit under this tree that our dorm claimed as ours. Alyssa, Birttany, Anna, Phoebe and I all sit under ther sometimes. We usually talk or play something or read or sleep. We just kind of made it our hangout place. I think Phoebe is joining us after she is done her lacrosse practise. She made the team you know.
Anna is rushing me now. I think she wants to see this guy who runs past the tree everyday at acertain time. I think she likes him. I do say she has pretty good taste if she likes him. The guy is white male. 5’8” I think. Might be taller. Dirty blond hair with a skater wings from wearing a hat too much. Hes one of the seniors. He can land his quad toe already. Really good.
Well I better go before anna misses sighting him. I will write later. Bye.
Wednesday, September 6, at night after dinner.
So yes anna got to see the senior. I heard some one cal him McKay. I think that is his last name.
Ok here is the most surprising news. I SAW THE ASIAN GUY AGAIN. He walked right past the school. I saw him but I do not think he saw me. He looked so gorgeous. Anna noticed I was starring at him the whole time he was walking past. Then she started making fun of me. Not nice but then again I make fun of her. So both of us were talking bout the guys we were crushing on.
Tatiana is comong in the room I think I will try to say hi again. Be right back
Wednesday September 6, right back
Tatiana is just as mean as yesterday. To day before I even got to say anything this is what she did. She got a piece of duct tape and put it over my mouth and then for the icing on the cake this is what she did. “even before you open your mouth I want to tell you that you annoy the heck out of me. You have a very annoying voice that I can not stand and your hair is so straight that I love it but hate you for having it. so if you plan to speak tell me first so I can leave.” I took the tape off as good as I could with out causeing myself too much pain. And then this is what I said to her, “ I am just trying to be nice you, y do you have to be so mean to me. What did I do to get my self on your bad list?” this is how Tatiana responded, “ you got on my bad list when you didn’t let me have the bed I wanted. That is what you did to offend me. I get what I want. Period. By the end of the year I WILL gewt that bed. Understand. Good. Now shut up.” I was so shocked. Then and ther I chose to give up on being nice tp her. I went back to MY bed and started kind of bouncing on it. this is what I said, loud enough for her to hear, “ what a wonder full bed. I love this bed. I do not think I will ever move from this bed. If someone moves my stuff I shal throw their stuff out the wondow.” It was funny. Tatiana stiffed up when I mention the window. I think I got to her.
So yeah. I shall go to Kory’s room and tell her all this now. I will probably not write till tomorrow. So good night. Sweet dreams.
saturday, september 9, morning, aprox 6 am
I am so sorry I could not write the last 2 days. I was soo busy. I had a project due and then I had to write a book report and then I had an extra skating practise. I ya. I forgot to tell you. I got a Soo Min Li snd my parents aid I could have two coaches so I have alg. Everyone wanted this coach. I luckly got one of the spots. I was so excited when I found out. But now every so often she will book her students an extra session. Really cool but she is a tough coach.
So today me, Kory and all my room mates, we even invited Tatianaa nd of course she said that hanging out with us losers is the most repulsive thing she has ever heard of, are going to the nearest amusement park that we can find. We want to get before the weather gets too cold. I wonder if all the teenagers in Dastern go to the amusement park on sat, cause then maybe I might see the hot asian guy again.
I better get dresses. I'm still I'm my pjs. And since we are going to an amusement park I have to dress nicely cause theres gonna be cute guys there. XD Oh I can bot wait. I need to take a shower. I probably not write after my shower so I shall write later tonight when I come back so ta ta for now.
Sunday, September 10, afternoon, in dorm
I can not believe that forgot to write last night. Well first when I got home I was so excited. Kory ended sleeping in our dorm and tatiana ended up yelling at us. Quite funny.
So anyway, the amusement park was so fun! OH MY GOSH I SAW THE ASIAN DUDE! And as usual super hot. I talked with him more today. We told each other our names. His name is. . . is. . . Wang Zi lee. Well thats his Chinese name. And do you know what it means it means. . . PRINCE. Is not that so awesome. His English name that everyone calls him is Ayron. OH MY GOSH he is so hot. He goes to the school downtown but he lives near the skating school. That is why I saw him walking past the school the other day. Eek he said he would drop by at our school every day after he finidhes his classes. I am so phyched now. I can not wait for each day after classes cause I get to see prince. Yes I have decided to call him prince, but only in my journal. It would be wierd if I called him that out in the open. I will call hium Ayron in real life but in my journal I shall call him prince. Because he is my “prince” charming.
OH MY GOSH I'm so excited I think I will go outside. Maybe he will pass the school. I am going to take Anna with me. I think she wants to go boy spotting too. I better go before it gets dark and before dinner starts. I plan to get to dinner early cause if you do not I have to wait in line. And its first come first serve. So. . . I better get going. Talk to you later.
Monday, septenber, 11, some time after dinner I think. In dorm.
Oh. . . I saw taianna again today. Not good. Today she was ooking so mad. She was pissed off a something or someone and EVERYBODY knew it. And lucky me I get in her way. This is what happened. . . . *clears throat* well. . . . tatiana was in an extremely bad mood today. I was fooling around in the hallway with Brittany and phoebe. I had my back turned and was doing some random thingy, but that doesn’t matter right now. Phoebe and Brittany tried to warn me that tatainna was behind me, they did not succeed. So I turn around and there is tatiana. She is not that big or anything. But if looks could kill I would be dead ten times infinity. The look she had on her face was deadly. Usually I can stand up to her, but that look stoped me dead in my tracks of yelling at her. She said four words to me. “you’re in my way” it was more of a growl actually now that I think about it. And then BAM! She puched me right out. I do not know what happened after that because I fully passed right out in the hall. My nose was bleeding. I think she broke it. When I woke up I was in the medical room. They said I had been out a couple hours. I asked them what had happened and they told me everything that I just wrote down and then some. They said after I was knocked out tatiana walker RIGHT OVER me and continued walking down the hall. After she was gone then everyone crowded around me. Brittany and phoebe got me to the medical room. The doctors fixed up my nose a bit. It still hurts. After I woke up and the doctors looked me over they said I could leave and thas where I am now. In the dorm. I wonder whats gonna happen when tatiana comes. Thats gonna be interesting.
I better sleep. My nose is starting to throb again. Nite
Tuesday, semptember 12, in dorm, morning, everyone is gone
Everyone is in class. I am taking a sick day. The Doctors and teachers said it was ok. My teachers said I should rest. My coach said that I should not be getting punched by people. But I think she really cares.
Anyway. . . I heard that tatinnna got in big trouble for puching me. Heard her parents got called and she had to go to the principal’s office. I also hear that she is on probation. For those who do not know what probation is it means being whatched for behaviour and work ethics.
Everyone told me when she came back yesterday she was still pissed like hell. Good thing I was not awake because everyone started arguing. I was dead asleep. I did not hear any of it. They were argueing about me. I would have love to hear that but no I was sleeping like a log. Grrr. So this is how the arguement went. At least from what I was told.
*me sleeping on my bed, Alyssa, phoebe, Brittany, and anna talking on one of their beds. Tatiana walks in, they all turn their heads. Start scene*
Alyssa: what are you doing here. You dare show your face still.
Brittany: Yeah, you expect to be welcome in this dorm after you punched Lilly.
Phoebe: go find some other dorm to sleep in.
Tatiana: you know if I could I would get out of this stinking dorm if I could but the principal wants me to apoligise to Lil-whats-her-face. And he wants me to sort out my own problems. Stupid principal.
Anna: I agree with the principal except we could use with out the solving your problems just because it makes you stay in the same dorm as us.
Brittany: we all want you out. Especially Lilly. Right after punching her I do not now if she ever wants to see you face again.
Phoebe: honestly I do not know what you have against her. She tried to be nice to you and you just dissed her. I think you have a big problem.
Tatiana: I do not have a problem. It is her who has a problem. And I punched her today cause she was in my way and would not move.
Alyssa: but she did not even have time to move. She turned around and then you punched her. And you could have said please move you know.
Tatiana: you guys are all so annoying you guys together are worse than her. But I still think that that Lilly girl is mean, decdietful, annoying, and a lying *****.
Phoebe: wow. She is definitely not any of those things you just said.
Anna: she can be argressive and offensive at times but she is a very nice person. And she cn get annoying at times because she gets spazzy a lot.
Tatiana: what ever. I do not care about what she thinks and what you losers think either. And I do not plan on apologiseing any time soon.
*Tatiana goes to bed. Alyssa, Phoebe, Brittany and anna all go to bed too.*
So thats what happened. Well actually it was way longer, just that I do not remember what everyone told me and I wanted it to be shorter. Too much writing.
I better get some more rest. I need to be able to skate tomorrow again. And able to go to class. Staying in the dorm is so boring when your all by your self. Well I am going to take a nap. When everyone one else comes they will wake me up. Or maybe not, I shall write them a not. There. Ok off to bed I go. Talk to you later.
Tuesday, September 12,just woken up, in dorm, every one is back
Every one is bak. YAY! Ok so. . . I want to go to the trewe cause I want to see PRINCE. Awww he is soooo hot. Al my roommates are saying to rest and not go outside. I wanna go and see prince though. WHAAAAHH!!! Oh well guess I will have to wait till tomorrow. *sniffle
I can not wait for tomorrow now.
Oh here comes Tatiana. I bet ten bucks that she wont apologise. And there she goes passing me. And no apology. Just like my roommates said it was going to be. How funny.
Well I think I will go outside anyway. I will sneak out with anna cause she wants to see the other guy. Mckay or Makaw something like that.
Well bye bye. Alyssa, Phoebe and bruttany are all looking at somthing time to make my escape. With anna of course. Bye
Wednesday, September 13, in math class. All better. . . kind of
I am able to go to class again. YAY! Ok so yesterday I did not see Prince. *sad face* he didtn pass or I was too late *sniffle* I wanted to see prince. *sniffle sniffle* anyway. So yeah I'm in class right now.
I have to do some math equations. I wll continue writing later. Talk to you later .
Wednesday, September 13, after classes, in dorm, resting
Yes I am resting. . . again. And not from my nose but from being mobbed with questions about my nose. It was horrendous. everyone was like “hows your nose?”, “are you alright,” that was ome punch,” and then some other wierd comments. Every time I looked at Tatanna today I just could not be that mad at her. Well firstly, everyone must hate her now. Must be harsh on her. I really do feel sorry for her. I want to be nice to her again but I know I will get the same responses. I will get evil words thrown in my face. All chewed up and upchucked. Do not you jus love my comparisons. Lol. Secondly she was having a really bad day. I do not know why I can not be mad at her. It is like impossible.
Anyway. . . I plan to go see if prince is going to pass the school today. Me and anna better hurry or else we are going to miss our guys. oh yeah. Anna finally found out the guys name. His name is trevor McKay. So we wil be going to see prince and trevor. Oh anna is leaving with out me. Got to go. Bye.
Wednesday, September 13, at night, in dorm,
Okay it is finally the end of te day. I saw PRINCE! Yay. He passed by and said hi to me. I finally think that he has started to think I am not a stalker. Maybe sooner or later I will become his friend and then maybe enev farther. . . to become his. . . GIRLFRIEND! What an incredible thought. Oh how I wish that could happen. And maybe it will. I would be soo happy if that happened. Me and my daydreams. Ahhhhhh. I could just spend all day dreaming about Prince. Well since I am about to go to bed I can dream about him in my sleep. Now I want tog o to sleep so I can dream. Okay I shall go to sleep. I have made up my mind. I will go to sleep so I can dream about prince.
So good night. Nite nite.
Thursday, September 14, after skating practice, classes done for the day, at rink
I am writing at the rink today cause well. . . I do not know. I just felt like it. No one is on the ice right now. My practice just ended and the zamboni is about to come on. I have noy been thinking about skating much. Especially with all the stuff happening with tatiana. What a mess. Luckily skating always takes my mind off everything else.
Oh a got my double lutz today. I was so happy. I was like bam, bam, bam. I landed it 3 times. I fell a lot too so now my knee and butt hurts. I fell so many times. But I landed it :D. The first time I landed it Ny coach, soo min said, “nice, now do it again.” I was like “I just landed my double lutz, and I fell like a million times . My knees are sore and I am so tried now. Can we please do spins?” this is how she replied, “perfect practice makes perfect, do it again.” So I did it again and again and again. And by the end I landed it 3 times. I was happy but really tired.
So I'm in the arena still. I think I will stay here for a bit. I think it will let me think about what is going on.
So. . . Kory is fine now, at least unless she is hiding something from me. My room mates are great. I haven’t been hanging out with them much, other than boy spotting with anna. But it has been really busy the past two weeks. We should all go out this Sunday. That would be awesome.
Here comes the rink guy. I am so asking him what his name is this time. I always keep forgetting. Ok here he is. I will write after I talk to him cause it is rde to tune him ut. Even more cause he is really nice. So I will write later. I will be back in a couple minutes. See ya.
Thursday, September 14. After talking to old rink guy, in rink still
Ok his name is John blank. He said he was the manager of the rink. He is the founder of the school too. His wife was a famous figure skater. But she passed away. . . his daughter sktes and is really good. He said she comes here and is the same age as me. I tried to ask him what her name was so I could figure out if I know her or not. But then he was pager rang and said he had to go. So he left first and I continued thinking. That is when I picked my journal back up.
Did you know that my journal is a third filled already? I have written soo much and it6 has only been like two weeks. Crazy huh. I have just relized that I depend on my journal to express my feelings. And I feel so much happier now that I can. I think I shall keep a journal the rest of my life. Even when I finish this journal and then the next and next and next one. Oh my with this much journaling I am going to kill so many trees by the time I die.
Anyway. . . I better get going. My frienda are going to wonder where I am. And anna is going to be mad at me for skipping boy spotting. Arg oh my gosh I forgot about prince. Aww he probably went home already. Arg. Oh well. I better get back to the dorm now. And I think this is all I'll be writing for a few days casue I have some projects due and a few tests. And ny coach, soo min wants me to land my double lutz 5 times each practice. And I think she might book me some more time in the mornings. Sos instead of going to off ice she wants me to skate. I hate early mornings.
Well bye bye. I wil write ike in a week prob. So bye.
Friday September 22, night time, in dorm, by myself.
Oh my gosh I have not written in soo long. It almost felt that I was going through with drawl symptoms. So wierd. I had to lock up my journal in a box becuas eif I did not I would have written in my journal when I was suppose to do home work. Ya I am like addicted to writing in my journal. I guess some day I wil not have a journal. I will have a recordr thingy, which will recor my thoughts instead of writing thenm down, and it will have video and holograms and cool stuff like that. It would be awesome. But unfortunately I will prob be dead before that is invented unless. . . I invent it. But that is prob not going to happen.
Anyway.. I have so much to talk about. Umm. . . . what to begin with. Ummm. . . okay. so lets start with skating. Ok . . . finally ny coach, soo min was happy with my double lutzs. I can land them almost all the time and they have great power, height, and form. When ever I do my solo every one claps when I am doing my jumps. Everyone says that my jumps are soo good. So after ny coach, soo min was happy with my double lutz she said start doing double axle. Ugg from one to another. And my dances are going good and my edges and skills are doing good too.
Now to Kory. She has started acting strange again. I think calvin contacted her and said he was coming back. I think that she is scared that he might come back and hurt her. I have been conforting her some more the last few days. I do not think he is actually coming though.
Now. . . PRINCE! eeeeeekkk! I have been seeing him almost everyday. I just sit there and till eighter I am sure that he has passed or he comes. I never told him that I sit there because I wait for him. Okay the other day he actually came and sat by the tree and had a conversation with me. I could not belive that we were sitting so close together. I was like spazzing out. Not littereally but in side me I was liek spazzing. I was soo happy when I got back in the dorm. Oh and when I was talking to prince, anna actually introduced herself to trevor. It was about time. He said that he noticed that we sut there almost everyday and that anna whatchs him. He asked if she liked running. And of course she said yes. He told he to join cross country and she said sure. So now she will be practicing cross country 24/7 to be as good as trevor so that she can run right beside him. Awwww is not that sweet. But I think she will end up tireing herself out and then she might faint but. . . if she faints maybe trevor will carry her to the medical room. That would be soo perfect. Anyway. . . back to prnce. So I think I am getting closer to prince. Eek. Yay. I am speechless. I do not know what to say. I am just too excited. Breath. Ok. I asked him if he can skate. He said he plays hockey. I was like “I figure skate as you can tell since I am in a figure skating school”. He laughed. OH MY GOSH his laugh is so cool. I just love it. I can not describe it. He looks so hot. I will never stop saying that. Yesterday he was wearing a suit cause I think he had to do some sort of presentation. Oh my gosh I forgot to say that he is 17. So anyway. . . when he was in a suit he looked so sharp. He cleans up good. I would so go to a dance with him. It made me fall in love with him all over again. *sigh* *thinking about him* *zones out*
So. . . now about tatiana. . . I have been avoiding her. She seemed mad still. I wonder why still. Puzzles me. But today something different happened. It was really wierd.
Okay. . . I saw tatiana again today. I avoided her as usual. She did not even glance at me. I wonder what she was thinking about. She had this wierd worried expression on her face like she did not look like at a moment she would kill someone like she has been the last week or so. Everbody kind of made a path for her in the halls cause no one wanted to get in her way, but that was usual casue people avoid her anyway.. We all thought if we bugged her she would snap and end up punching us or something. Like what happened to me. Or break down and cry. I thought she would break down more than punch me again. I do not know what would have been worse, crying and having no clue how to deal with it or being punched in the face. . . again.
Well here comes tatiana. She still has that worried look on her face. I wonder what happened. Maybe I should go talk to her. But I do not want to be punched. But still she looks so fragile like that. I think I shall speak to her. I really do feel something towards her. Like sympathy or something. I think I better talk to her before I lose my nerve or she leaves. I will write after I talk with her.
Friday September 22, after talking to tatiana, in dorm still.
Wow. Not really what I expected. Here this is what happened, in dialog form.:
*Tatiana has a worried look on her face. Sitting on her bed. Looks on the verge of tears*
Me: Hey, Tatiana are you all right? You look really sad and worried.
Tatiana: get away from me you freak. *glares at me, Can tell she is about to cry*
Me: hey I am not a freak. All I am trying to do is comfort u. You look like your about to cry. I can not bear to see some one cry and I just sit there. So what is wrong?
Tatiana: I told you to get a way from me! Or do you want to get punched again? *she is angry*
Me: I am not going away. But I could do with out the punch. I really do gienuinly care about what is wrong with you?
Tatiana: WHAT IS WORNG IS THAT YOUR BUGGING ME! * storms out of room, slams door*
*aroom mates all get back from where ever thay were*
Well my room mates come in. All of them. They saw tatiana strom out of the room and they found me staring at the door. I was actually very confused. No one has ever been that mean to me. It was a very shocking experience. All I was doing was try to help and all I get back is her yelling at me. Gosh she is so tempermental. Yeah that is it. Tempermental. What a perfect word to describe her. But seriously. She was on the verge of tears. And she still will not open up to me. She is really stubborn. I think I will kee at it though. Her behaviour is so puzzling to me. I think I will try to talk to her every day. I bet I will get punched again some time. It is very likely to happen.
So yeah. I really want to be friends with tatiana but it is just so hard to get close to her. Very thick skinned. I wonder what time she plans to come back to the dorm? I hope tatiana is not sad because of skating or something. *sigh* so confusing. I better go to bed soon every one else wants the lights off. I am the only one with a light on. I will definetly write tomorrow. Night night.
Monday September 25, in class,
Sry I could not write the last two days. On Saturday I went to the mall and I SAW PRINCE!!! He was so hot that day. *sigh* oh I could spend a whole day thinking about him. That is how hot he is. So me Alyssa, Brittany, phoebe, anna, and Kory hung out with prince and his friends. It was soo fun. But that night I was like dead asleep when my head hit the pillow. But I want to describe what haooened on sturday. Well here goes nothing.
On staurday me and my room mates and Kory were walking in the mall. All of a sudden I see a familiar face. I shout out, “AYRON!!!!” he turns around and smiles. Awww that means that he kind of lieks me. He had his hot asian friends with him but I still thought that prince was the hottest. And so we went around the mall. Anna disappeared a bit later. I think she saw trevor and started to follow him. I believe that she got phoebe to stalk him with her. They came back like 3 hours later. Anna was very happy when she came back so I think my guess of her stalking trevor was right. I bet she went and “coincidently” bumped into him. Lol. So after anna and phoebe went to stalk trevor it was me, Alyssa, Kory, and Brittany. Oh yeah and prince and his hot asian friends. *sigh. . . again* so we continued on, ebven after we “lost” anna and phoebe. I was right beside prince the whole time. We talked a lot that day. It was awesome. Kory looked like she was crushing on princes best friend, brendan. and I think princes best friend was looking a bit interested in Kory. If she can get a nice asian boyfriend who will not abuse her and protect her from calvin, BONUS! So I think they were flirting the whole mall trip. Alyssa and Brittany went to go boy spotting around the mall. You see they have different taste in guys. The like the white males that are like jocks. Lots of muscules, typical American hot. I htink Brittany was wanting to spot this Mexican uy that we passed when we were shopping. That was before thay left the group. Princes toher friends there except him and Brendan left. The said they need to do some stuff. I think they wanted us to be alone. *extra long sigh* I was so enjoying the moment. But then my phone went off. It was my anna saying we had to go back cause she has skating, so does freys, and dinner is coming soon and a bunch of other things. It was a really really REALLT fun day. I was like so close to prince for the whole day. What a day what a day.
Now Sunday. Sunday was funn too but not as fun. I was sitting under the tree again. I think sitting there is a habit. I go there sometime not even knowing it. I would be walking and I would end up at the tree. So yeah. I was sitting under the tree and I see prince. He was with Brendan again. This time I was by my self under the tree. So the stoped by and we were talking. Brendan asked where Kory was and I was like “ohhhh you like her do not you.” He blushed and said “she is interesting that all.” And I was like “ ok ok she is in her room I think shes in room c18. You can go into the school vistitors coe all the time. Except at night they look up the building after 10.” Brendan said thanx and headed off towards the school. That meant I was ALONE WITH PRINCE!! *sigh* this is the convo:
*Brendan just left*
Prince (Ayron): he does like her. He Would not shut up about her last night. Seriously, he is in love with her man.
Me: I figured. Same with Kory she could not shut up about him. She was like brendan this, Brendan that.
Prince: we should help them get together. They would be a perfect couple. What do you think?
Me: I think so too. They seem to get along nicely now so all we ned to do is give them a little push to help them express their feelings. *and to help me get you to like me*
Prince: awesome! I can not stay right now. I just came cause brendan wanted to. And now I know why. I will swing by tomorrow. Meet here?
Me: sure. I will see you tomorrow then. Bye
Prince: bye
*prince walks away*
So yeah. . . thats how it went. So today I meet up with him. If this keeps up I will be around prince like almost 24/7 I am such a guiness.
I can not wait till after school. I get to se prince I get to see prince. Yay!
Wow I can not believe I'm writing in class. . . again. and yes tatiana is scowling at me as usual. I haven’t talked to her scine she stormed out of the room. And she has not been coming back to the dorm. I think she has been staying at someone else dorm even though I do not know who in their right mind would let her in. I bet she said she would beat them up or some thing. And knowing how she acts I bet that would work.
Class is almost over. So I better start to pack up my journal. Hide it and all. Cause I defiantly do not want anyone reading this. Only Kory has read a tiny bit of it. So if I ever lost this journal or some one stole it I would so like move to massectusets or china. Far far away cause I would not be able to show my face again. I would be so embarrassed.
Oh people are pcking up. I have to too. I'll write tom. Do not want to write tonight. Cause I will prob be with Kory spilling my feelings about prince while she talks non stop about Brendan. And I am kind of lazy to write. So yeah. I will write tomorrow for sure. Bye bye
Monday, September 4, after lunch, with Kory.
I have not been able to write much that last week. Mostly I was hanging out with Kory. I also had skating practice and I hung out with my room mates. Right now I am with Kory in my dorm. My room motes went to town for lunch so they are gone right now. They said we can play a couple of board games when they come back. So we are waiting for them. Kory is right now reading over my shoulder. I wonder what she thinks of this journal I have been keeping. She is hugging me now almost choking. She is trying to get my pen now. I am to good a monuvering so she can not get
I Love You Lilly!
See she just stole my pen and wrote that. But I like it there. It is a really nice momento.
I Love You Too Kory!
Wow my hand writing sucks compared to Kory’s. Now Kory is laughing at me.
OH MY GOSH school starts tomorrow! Tomorrow, I can not believe that I have only been here for 2 weeks. Feels like months already. Wow. Times sure flies fast around here.
Oh. Tatiana just walked in. She is always around. I seem to see her every where. Worst thing is that I share almost every class with her. Unbelievable. But still, I share so much time with her everyday and we seem so different. Maybe we just got off on the wrong foot. But she still seems so cold to everyone. I have not seen a single person with her. Either hanging out with or talking to. I mean no one is every near her. She seems to have a repellent to people. She acts really snobby all the time.
When ever I glance at tatiana, even in class or on lunch, she seems to be looking at me. I always turn away when I see her looking at me. Kind of gives me the creeps. I should go ask her some day, “why do you always look at me?” and then she will say some wierd thing about stalking me or something like that.
Ohhh, here comes Alyssa, Anna, Phoebe, and Brittany. I wonder what game we are going to play today?
Tuesday, September 5, in science class
To day I smiled at tatiana in class. She gave me a dirty look and turned away. She looked mad at me. What did I do? I wonder what I did to her (other than arguing with her on the first day) that made her mad at me (remember she started it)? I want to figure her out. She intrigues me like how a puzzle would.
Tatiana is sitting 2 rows across from me. I want to try to get her attention. What should I do? Hmmmm. Well I can not throw a pen at her. Too obvious to the teacher. I could try to talk, but that would make too much noise. Oh this is hard. Ummmm…… I guess I could pass a note. If I get caught though i will be in big trouble. Arg what should I do…? Thinking… thinking… thinking… Wow this is harder than homework. I guess I will have to catch her after class.
What should I say to her? Tatiana why r you so mad at me? Or how bout, what did I do to piss you off tatiana? i do not know what I should say. It will come to me when I end up talking to her, or maybe not. Oh well guess I will find out.
Oh my gosh! I just spent the whole science class writing in my journal. Well most of it. there is only 20 min left and I am suppose to do these questions. Oh snap. Better get working on them. I will write later. Most likely after classes end and when I am in the dorm. I got to work now. Bye.
Tuesday, September 5, after classes, back in dorm
Ok so today I tried to talk to tatiana. wow I was a bust. Ok this is what happened. I cuasgth up with her after science class. This is what I said, “Hey, Tatiana! Wait up! I was wondering, why do you dislike me so much? What did I do? Did I offend you?” and this is what she said, “ just by being alive you offend me!” Is that mean or is that mean. I do not know why I tried to talk to her. It puzzles me.
She is not back from her last class yet so I do not need to deal with her right now thankfully. I think I will try one more time to get through to her. I shall talk to her in a couple days. Because right now I think she might be PMSing. I know that’s not very nice but still she was so mean to me today.
She will be coming back soon from her classes. I think I shall go to town with Kory. Get my mind off Tatiana. and maybe I will see the asian dude that I so want to see.
Well I better get going if I want enough time to stay there for a bit before I can not go anymore. Talk to you later . bye bye.
Wednesday, September 6, after classes, in dorm
Sorry I did not get to write last night. Was kind of tired from going to town. Still am actually. *yawn* anyway… I saw the asian dude yesterday. Ok OH MY GOSH we actually bumped into each other. I was talking to Kory and we were walking. He bumped into me and he turned around and I looked at him. OH MY GOSH he is so hot. He was fooling around with his friends and bumped into me (his friends are really hot too. Just like him.). he said sorry and I was like it is okay. I am fine. And that was it. but at least we actually talked. OH MY GOSH I want to see him again. I think I will go find out which school he goes to. Then I could just coincidently “pass” his school. Ok that sounds really lame. Ok anyway back to life in school.
Tatiana is as mean as before. I tried to say hi today and she said, “just get away from me you dirt bag.” And she walked off. Wow I should really give up on her. She jus seems to get meaner and meaner by the day. If she stays mad this long she will never have any friends. I think I will try a few more times to get her to warm up to me. Maybe if I left a candy or chocolate on her pillow every day with my name on it saying hi with a smiley face she will become nice. I think I will try that, but I first need to get some type of candy or chocolate.
Me and anna are going to sit under this tree that our dorm claimed as ours. Alyssa, Birttany, Anna, Phoebe and I all sit under ther sometimes. We usually talk or play something or read or sleep. We just kind of made it our hangout place. I think Phoebe is joining us after she is done her lacrosse practise. She made the team you know.
Anna is rushing me now. I think she wants to see this guy who runs past the tree everyday at acertain time. I think she likes him. I do say she has pretty good taste if she likes him. The guy is white male. 5’8” I think. Might be taller. Dirty blond hair with a skater wings from wearing a hat too much. Hes one of the seniors. He can land his quad toe already. Really good.
Well I better go before anna misses sighting him. I will write later. Bye.
Wednesday, September 6, at night after dinner.
So yes anna got to see the senior. I heard some one cal him McKay. I think that is his last name.
Ok here is the most surprising news. I SAW THE ASIAN GUY AGAIN. He walked right past the school. I saw him but I do not think he saw me. He looked so gorgeous. Anna noticed I was starring at him the whole time he was walking past. Then she started making fun of me. Not nice but then again I make fun of her. So both of us were talking bout the guys we were crushing on.
Tatiana is comong in the room I think I will try to say hi again. Be right back
Wednesday September 6, right back
Tatiana is just as mean as yesterday. To day before I even got to say anything this is what she did. She got a piece of duct tape and put it over my mouth and then for the icing on the cake this is what she did. “even before you open your mouth I want to tell you that you annoy the heck out of me. You have a very annoying voice that I can not stand and your hair is so straight that I love it but hate you for having it. so if you plan to speak tell me first so I can leave.” I took the tape off as good as I could with out causeing myself too much pain. And then this is what I said to her, “ I am just trying to be nice you, y do you have to be so mean to me. What did I do to get my self on your bad list?” this is how Tatiana responded, “ you got on my bad list when you didn’t let me have the bed I wanted. That is what you did to offend me. I get what I want. Period. By the end of the year I WILL gewt that bed. Understand. Good. Now shut up.” I was so shocked. Then and ther I chose to give up on being nice tp her. I went back to MY bed and started kind of bouncing on it. this is what I said, loud enough for her to hear, “ what a wonder full bed. I love this bed. I do not think I will ever move from this bed. If someone moves my stuff I shal throw their stuff out the wondow.” It was funny. Tatiana stiffed up when I mention the window. I think I got to her.
So yeah. I shall go to Kory’s room and tell her all this now. I will probably not write till tomorrow. So good night. Sweet dreams.
saturday, september 9, morning, aprox 6 am
I am so sorry I could not write the last 2 days. I was soo busy. I had a project due and then I had to write a book report and then I had an extra skating practise. I ya. I forgot to tell you. I got a Soo Min Li snd my parents aid I could have two coaches so I have alg. Everyone wanted this coach. I luckly got one of the spots. I was so excited when I found out. But now every so often she will book her students an extra session. Really cool but she is a tough coach.
So today me, Kory and all my room mates, we even invited Tatianaa nd of course she said that hanging out with us losers is the most repulsive thing she has ever heard of, are going to the nearest amusement park that we can find. We want to get before the weather gets too cold. I wonder if all the teenagers in Dastern go to the amusement park on sat, cause then maybe I might see the hot asian guy again.
I better get dresses. I'm still I'm my pjs. And since we are going to an amusement park I have to dress nicely cause theres gonna be cute guys there. XD Oh I can bot wait. I need to take a shower. I probably not write after my shower so I shall write later tonight when I come back so ta ta for now.
Sunday, September 10, afternoon, in dorm
I can not believe that forgot to write last night. Well first when I got home I was so excited. Kory ended sleeping in our dorm and tatiana ended up yelling at us. Quite funny.
So anyway, the amusement park was so fun! OH MY GOSH I SAW THE ASIAN DUDE! And as usual super hot. I talked with him more today. We told each other our names. His name is. . . is. . . Wang Zi lee. Well thats his Chinese name. And do you know what it means it means. . . PRINCE. Is not that so awesome. His English name that everyone calls him is Ayron. OH MY GOSH he is so hot. He goes to the school downtown but he lives near the skating school. That is why I saw him walking past the school the other day. Eek he said he would drop by at our school every day after he finidhes his classes. I am so phyched now. I can not wait for each day after classes cause I get to see prince. Yes I have decided to call him prince, but only in my journal. It would be wierd if I called him that out in the open. I will call hium Ayron in real life but in my journal I shall call him prince. Because he is my “prince” charming.
OH MY GOSH I'm so excited I think I will go outside. Maybe he will pass the school. I am going to take Anna with me. I think she wants to go boy spotting too. I better go before it gets dark and before dinner starts. I plan to get to dinner early cause if you do not I have to wait in line. And its first come first serve. So. . . I better get going. Talk to you later.
Monday, septenber, 11, some time after dinner I think. In dorm.
Oh. . . I saw taianna again today. Not good. Today she was ooking so mad. She was pissed off a something or someone and EVERYBODY knew it. And lucky me I get in her way. This is what happened. . . . *clears throat* well. . . . tatiana was in an extremely bad mood today. I was fooling around in the hallway with Brittany and phoebe. I had my back turned and was doing some random thingy, but that doesn’t matter right now. Phoebe and Brittany tried to warn me that tatainna was behind me, they did not succeed. So I turn around and there is tatiana. She is not that big or anything. But if looks could kill I would be dead ten times infinity. The look she had on her face was deadly. Usually I can stand up to her, but that look stoped me dead in my tracks of yelling at her. She said four words to me. “you’re in my way” it was more of a growl actually now that I think about it. And then BAM! She puched me right out. I do not know what happened after that because I fully passed right out in the hall. My nose was bleeding. I think she broke it. When I woke up I was in the medical room. They said I had been out a couple hours. I asked them what had happened and they told me everything that I just wrote down and then some. They said after I was knocked out tatiana walker RIGHT OVER me and continued walking down the hall. After she was gone then everyone crowded around me. Brittany and phoebe got me to the medical room. The doctors fixed up my nose a bit. It still hurts. After I woke up and the doctors looked me over they said I could leave and thas where I am now. In the dorm. I wonder whats gonna happen when tatiana comes. Thats gonna be interesting.
I better sleep. My nose is starting to throb again. Nite
Tuesday, semptember 12, in dorm, morning, everyone is gone
Everyone is in class. I am taking a sick day. The Doctors and teachers said it was ok. My teachers said I should rest. My coach said that I should not be getting punched by people. But I think she really cares.
Anyway. . . I heard that tatinnna got in big trouble for puching me. Heard her parents got called and she had to go to the principal’s office. I also hear that she is on probation. For those who do not know what probation is it means being whatched for behaviour and work ethics.
Everyone told me when she came back yesterday she was still pissed like hell. Good thing I was not awake because everyone started arguing. I was dead asleep. I did not hear any of it. They were argueing about me. I would have love to hear that but no I was sleeping like a log. Grrr. So this is how the arguement went. At least from what I was told.
*me sleeping on my bed, Alyssa, phoebe, Brittany, and anna talking on one of their beds. Tatiana walks in, they all turn their heads. Start scene*
Alyssa: what are you doing here. You dare show your face still.
Brittany: Yeah, you expect to be welcome in this dorm after you punched Lilly.
Phoebe: go find some other dorm to sleep in.
Tatiana: you know if I could I would get out of this stinking dorm if I could but the principal wants me to apoligise to Lil-whats-her-face. And he wants me to sort out my own problems. Stupid principal.
Anna: I agree with the principal except we could use with out the solving your problems just because it makes you stay in the same dorm as us.
Brittany: we all want you out. Especially Lilly. Right after punching her I do not now if she ever wants to see you face again.
Phoebe: honestly I do not know what you have against her. She tried to be nice to you and you just dissed her. I think you have a big problem.
Tatiana: I do not have a problem. It is her who has a problem. And I punched her today cause she was in my way and would not move.
Alyssa: but she did not even have time to move. She turned around and then you punched her. And you could have said please move you know.
Tatiana: you guys are all so annoying you guys together are worse than her. But I still think that that Lilly girl is mean, decdietful, annoying, and a lying *****.
Phoebe: wow. She is definitely not any of those things you just said.
Anna: she can be argressive and offensive at times but she is a very nice person. And she cn get annoying at times because she gets spazzy a lot.
Tatiana: what ever. I do not care about what she thinks and what you losers think either. And I do not plan on apologiseing any time soon.
*Tatiana goes to bed. Alyssa, Phoebe, Brittany and anna all go to bed too.*
So thats what happened. Well actually it was way longer, just that I do not remember what everyone told me and I wanted it to be shorter. Too much writing.
I better get some more rest. I need to be able to skate tomorrow again. And able to go to class. Staying in the dorm is so boring when your all by your self. Well I am going to take a nap. When everyone one else comes they will wake me up. Or maybe not, I shall write them a not. There. Ok off to bed I go. Talk to you later.
Tuesday, September 12,just woken up, in dorm, every one is back
Every one is bak. YAY! Ok so. . . I want to go to the trewe cause I want to see PRINCE. Awww he is soooo hot. Al my roommates are saying to rest and not go outside. I wanna go and see prince though. WHAAAAHH!!! Oh well guess I will have to wait till tomorrow. *sniffle
I can not wait for tomorrow now.
Oh here comes Tatiana. I bet ten bucks that she wont apologise. And there she goes passing me. And no apology. Just like my roommates said it was going to be. How funny.
Well I think I will go outside anyway. I will sneak out with anna cause she wants to see the other guy. Mckay or Makaw something like that.
Well bye bye. Alyssa, Phoebe and bruttany are all looking at somthing time to make my escape. With anna of course. Bye
Wednesday, September 13, in math class. All better. . . kind of
I am able to go to class again. YAY! Ok so yesterday I did not see Prince. *sad face* he didtn pass or I was too late *sniffle* I wanted to see prince. *sniffle sniffle* anyway. So yeah I'm in class right now.
I have to do some math equations. I wll continue writing later. Talk to you later .
Wednesday, September 13, after classes, in dorm, resting
Yes I am resting. . . again. And not from my nose but from being mobbed with questions about my nose. It was horrendous. everyone was like “hows your nose?”, “are you alright,” that was ome punch,” and then some other wierd comments. Every time I looked at Tatanna today I just could not be that mad at her. Well firstly, everyone must hate her now. Must be harsh on her. I really do feel sorry for her. I want to be nice to her again but I know I will get the same responses. I will get evil words thrown in my face. All chewed up and upchucked. Do not you jus love my comparisons. Lol. Secondly she was having a really bad day. I do not know why I can not be mad at her. It is like impossible.
Anyway. . . I plan to go see if prince is going to pass the school today. Me and anna better hurry or else we are going to miss our guys. oh yeah. Anna finally found out the guys name. His name is trevor McKay. So we wil be going to see prince and trevor. Oh anna is leaving with out me. Got to go. Bye.
Wednesday, September 13, at night, in dorm,
Okay it is finally the end of te day. I saw PRINCE! Yay. He passed by and said hi to me. I finally think that he has started to think I am not a stalker. Maybe sooner or later I will become his friend and then maybe enev farther. . . to become his. . . GIRLFRIEND! What an incredible thought. Oh how I wish that could happen. And maybe it will. I would be soo happy if that happened. Me and my daydreams. Ahhhhhh. I could just spend all day dreaming about Prince. Well since I am about to go to bed I can dream about him in my sleep. Now I want tog o to sleep so I can dream. Okay I shall go to sleep. I have made up my mind. I will go to sleep so I can dream about prince.
So good night. Nite nite.
Thursday, September 14, after skating practice, classes done for the day, at rink
I am writing at the rink today cause well. . . I do not know. I just felt like it. No one is on the ice right now. My practice just ended and the zamboni is about to come on. I have noy been thinking about skating much. Especially with all the stuff happening with tatiana. What a mess. Luckily skating always takes my mind off everything else.
Oh a got my double lutz today. I was so happy. I was like bam, bam, bam. I landed it 3 times. I fell a lot too so now my knee and butt hurts. I fell so many times. But I landed it :D. The first time I landed it Ny coach, soo min said, “nice, now do it again.” I was like “I just landed my double lutz, and I fell like a million times . My knees are sore and I am so tried now. Can we please do spins?” this is how she replied, “perfect practice makes perfect, do it again.” So I did it again and again and again. And by the end I landed it 3 times. I was happy but really tired.
So I'm in the arena still. I think I will stay here for a bit. I think it will let me think about what is going on.
So. . . Kory is fine now, at least unless she is hiding something from me. My room mates are great. I haven’t been hanging out with them much, other than boy spotting with anna. But it has been really busy the past two weeks. We should all go out this Sunday. That would be awesome.
Here comes the rink guy. I am so asking him what his name is this time. I always keep forgetting. Ok here he is. I will write after I talk to him cause it is rde to tune him ut. Even more cause he is really nice. So I will write later. I will be back in a couple minutes. See ya.
Thursday, September 14. After talking to old rink guy, in rink still
Ok his name is John blank. He said he was the manager of the rink. He is the founder of the school too. His wife was a famous figure skater. But she passed away. . . his daughter sktes and is really good. He said she comes here and is the same age as me. I tried to ask him what her name was so I could figure out if I know her or not. But then he was pager rang and said he had to go. So he left first and I continued thinking. That is when I picked my journal back up.
Did you know that my journal is a third filled already? I have written soo much and it6 has only been like two weeks. Crazy huh. I have just relized that I depend on my journal to express my feelings. And I feel so much happier now that I can. I think I shall keep a journal the rest of my life. Even when I finish this journal and then the next and next and next one. Oh my with this much journaling I am going to kill so many trees by the time I die.
Anyway. . . I better get going. My frienda are going to wonder where I am. And anna is going to be mad at me for skipping boy spotting. Arg oh my gosh I forgot about prince. Aww he probably went home already. Arg. Oh well. I better get back to the dorm now. And I think this is all I'll be writing for a few days casue I have some projects due and a few tests. And ny coach, soo min wants me to land my double lutz 5 times each practice. And I think she might book me some more time in the mornings. Sos instead of going to off ice she wants me to skate. I hate early mornings.
Well bye bye. I wil write ike in a week prob. So bye.
Friday September 22, night time, in dorm, by myself.
Oh my gosh I have not written in soo long. It almost felt that I was going through with drawl symptoms. So wierd. I had to lock up my journal in a box becuas eif I did not I would have written in my journal when I was suppose to do home work. Ya I am like addicted to writing in my journal. I guess some day I wil not have a journal. I will have a recordr thingy, which will recor my thoughts instead of writing thenm down, and it will have video and holograms and cool stuff like that. It would be awesome. But unfortunately I will prob be dead before that is invented unless. . . I invent it. But that is prob not going to happen.
Anyway.. I have so much to talk about. Umm. . . . what to begin with. Ummm. . . okay. so lets start with skating. Ok . . . finally ny coach, soo min was happy with my double lutzs. I can land them almost all the time and they have great power, height, and form. When ever I do my solo every one claps when I am doing my jumps. Everyone says that my jumps are soo good. So after ny coach, soo min was happy with my double lutz she said start doing double axle. Ugg from one to another. And my dances are going good and my edges and skills are doing good too.
Now to Kory. She has started acting strange again. I think calvin contacted her and said he was coming back. I think that she is scared that he might come back and hurt her. I have been conforting her some more the last few days. I do not think he is actually coming though.
Now. . . PRINCE! eeeeeekkk! I have been seeing him almost everyday. I just sit there and till eighter I am sure that he has passed or he comes. I never told him that I sit there because I wait for him. Okay the other day he actually came and sat by the tree and had a conversation with me. I could not belive that we were sitting so close together. I was like spazzing out. Not littereally but in side me I was liek spazzing. I was soo happy when I got back in the dorm. Oh and when I was talking to prince, anna actually introduced herself to trevor. It was about time. He said that he noticed that we sut there almost everyday and that anna whatchs him. He asked if she liked running. And of course she said yes. He told he to join cross country and she said sure. So now she will be practicing cross country 24/7 to be as good as trevor so that she can run right beside him. Awwww is not that sweet. But I think she will end up tireing herself out and then she might faint but. . . if she faints maybe trevor will carry her to the medical room. That would be soo perfect. Anyway. . . back to prnce. So I think I am getting closer to prince. Eek. Yay. I am speechless. I do not know what to say. I am just too excited. Breath. Ok. I asked him if he can skate. He said he plays hockey. I was like “I figure skate as you can tell since I am in a figure skating school”. He laughed. OH MY GOSH his laugh is so cool. I just love it. I can not describe it. He looks so hot. I will never stop saying that. Yesterday he was wearing a suit cause I think he had to do some sort of presentation. Oh my gosh I forgot to say that he is 17. So anyway. . . when he was in a suit he looked so sharp. He cleans up good. I would so go to a dance with him. It made me fall in love with him all over again. *sigh* *thinking about him* *zones out*
So. . . now about tatiana. . . I have been avoiding her. She seemed mad still. I wonder why still. Puzzles me. But today something different happened. It was really wierd.
Okay. . . I saw tatiana again today. I avoided her as usual. She did not even glance at me. I wonder what she was thinking about. She had this wierd worried expression on her face like she did not look like at a moment she would kill someone like she has been the last week or so. Everbody kind of made a path for her in the halls cause no one wanted to get in her way, but that was usual casue people avoid her anyway.. We all thought if we bugged her she would snap and end up punching us or something. Like what happened to me. Or break down and cry. I thought she would break down more than punch me again. I do not know what would have been worse, crying and having no clue how to deal with it or being punched in the face. . . again.
Well here comes tatiana. She still has that worried look on her face. I wonder what happened. Maybe I should go talk to her. But I do not want to be punched. But still she looks so fragile like that. I think I shall speak to her. I really do feel something towards her. Like sympathy or something. I think I better talk to her before I lose my nerve or she leaves. I will write after I talk with her.
Friday September 22, after talking to tatiana, in dorm still.
Wow. Not really what I expected. Here this is what happened, in dialog form.:
*Tatiana has a worried look on her face. Sitting on her bed. Looks on the verge of tears*
Me: Hey, Tatiana are you all right? You look really sad and worried.
Tatiana: get away from me you freak. *glares at me, Can tell she is about to cry*
Me: hey I am not a freak. All I am trying to do is comfort u. You look like your about to cry. I can not bear to see some one cry and I just sit there. So what is wrong?
Tatiana: I told you to get a way from me! Or do you want to get punched again? *she is angry*
Me: I am not going away. But I could do with out the punch. I really do gienuinly care about what is wrong with you?
Tatiana: WHAT IS WORNG IS THAT YOUR BUGGING ME! * storms out of room, slams door*
*aroom mates all get back from where ever thay were*
Well my room mates come in. All of them. They saw tatiana strom out of the room and they found me staring at the door. I was actually very confused. No one has ever been that mean to me. It was a very shocking experience. All I was doing was try to help and all I get back is her yelling at me. Gosh she is so tempermental. Yeah that is it. Tempermental. What a perfect word to describe her. But seriously. She was on the verge of tears. And she still will not open up to me. She is really stubborn. I think I will kee at it though. Her behaviour is so puzzling to me. I think I will try to talk to her every day. I bet I will get punched again some time. It is very likely to happen.
So yeah. I really want to be friends with tatiana but it is just so hard to get close to her. Very thick skinned. I wonder what time she plans to come back to the dorm? I hope tatiana is not sad because of skating or something. *sigh* so confusing. I better go to bed soon every one else wants the lights off. I am the only one with a light on. I will definetly write tomorrow. Night night.
Monday September 25, in class,
Sry I could not write the last two days. On Saturday I went to the mall and I SAW PRINCE!!! He was so hot that day. *sigh* oh I could spend a whole day thinking about him. That is how hot he is. So me Alyssa, Brittany, phoebe, anna, and Kory hung out with prince and his friends. It was soo fun. But that night I was like dead asleep when my head hit the pillow. But I want to describe what haooened on sturday. Well here goes nothing.
On staurday me and my room mates and Kory were walking in the mall. All of a sudden I see a familiar face. I shout out, “AYRON!!!!” he turns around and smiles. Awww that means that he kind of lieks me. He had his hot asian friends with him but I still thought that prince was the hottest. And so we went around the mall. Anna disappeared a bit later. I think she saw trevor and started to follow him. I believe that she got phoebe to stalk him with her. They came back like 3 hours later. Anna was very happy when she came back so I think my guess of her stalking trevor was right. I bet she went and “coincidently” bumped into him. Lol. So after anna and phoebe went to stalk trevor it was me, Alyssa, Kory, and Brittany. Oh yeah and prince and his hot asian friends. *sigh. . . again* so we continued on, ebven after we “lost” anna and phoebe. I was right beside prince the whole time. We talked a lot that day. It was awesome. Kory looked like she was crushing on princes best friend, brendan. and I think princes best friend was looking a bit interested in Kory. If she can get a nice asian boyfriend who will not abuse her and protect her from calvin, BONUS! So I think they were flirting the whole mall trip. Alyssa and Brittany went to go boy spotting around the mall. You see they have different taste in guys. The like the white males that are like jocks. Lots of muscules, typical American hot. I htink Brittany was wanting to spot this Mexican uy that we passed when we were shopping. That was before thay left the group. Princes toher friends there except him and Brendan left. The said they need to do some stuff. I think they wanted us to be alone. *extra long sigh* I was so enjoying the moment. But then my phone went off. It was my anna saying we had to go back cause she has skating, so does freys, and dinner is coming soon and a bunch of other things. It was a really really REALLT fun day. I was like so close to prince for the whole day. What a day what a day.
Now Sunday. Sunday was funn too but not as fun. I was sitting under the tree again. I think sitting there is a habit. I go there sometime not even knowing it. I would be walking and I would end up at the tree. So yeah. I was sitting under the tree and I see prince. He was with Brendan again. This time I was by my self under the tree. So the stoped by and we were talking. Brendan asked where Kory was and I was like “ohhhh you like her do not you.” He blushed and said “she is interesting that all.” And I was like “ ok ok she is in her room I think shes in room c18. You can go into the school vistitors coe all the time. Except at night they look up the building after 10.” Brendan said thanx and headed off towards the school. That meant I was ALONE WITH PRINCE!! *sigh* this is the convo:
*Brendan just left*
Prince (Ayron): he does like her. He Would not shut up about her last night. Seriously, he is in love with her man.
Me: I figured. Same with Kory she could not shut up about him. She was like brendan this, Brendan that.
Prince: we should help them get together. They would be a perfect couple. What do you think?
Me: I think so too. They seem to get along nicely now so all we ned to do is give them a little push to help them express their feelings. *and to help me get you to like me*
Prince: awesome! I can not stay right now. I just came cause brendan wanted to. And now I know why. I will swing by tomorrow. Meet here?
Me: sure. I will see you tomorrow then. Bye
Prince: bye
*prince walks away*
So yeah. . . thats how it went. So today I meet up with him. If this keeps up I will be around prince like almost 24/7 I am such a guiness.
I can not wait till after school. I get to se prince I get to see prince. Yay!
Wow I can not believe I'm writing in class. . . again. and yes tatiana is scowling at me as usual. I haven’t talked to her scine she stormed out of the room. And she has not been coming back to the dorm. I think she has been staying at someone else dorm even though I do not know who in their right mind would let her in. I bet she said she would beat them up or some thing. And knowing how she acts I bet that would work.
Class is almost over. So I better start to pack up my journal. Hide it and all. Cause I defiantly do not want anyone reading this. Only Kory has read a tiny bit of it. So if I ever lost this journal or some one stole it I would so like move to massectusets or china. Far far away cause I would not be able to show my face again. I would be so embarrassed.
Oh people are pcking up. I have to too. I'll write tom. Do not want to write tonight. Cause I will prob be with Kory spilling my feelings about prince while she talks non stop about Brendan. And I am kind of lazy to write. So yeah. I will write tomorrow for sure. Bye bye
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